Raising Money In January For APP
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***Initially raising money for RED January but now raising money for APP (Action for Post Partum Psychosis) ** I have ran and will continue to run every day in January 2018 ***
I gave birth to my beautiful daughter ‘Harriet Holly’ on the 9th of January 2016. It was meant to be a very happy time. Unfortunately for me and my partner we had a two day labour after an induction and the baby’s heart rate deteriorated. We had a difficult birth and as a result our daughter was very unwell and spent two weeks in ICU. Once home things took a very different turn and I lost all sense of reality and became very anxious and paranoid. I was then admitted back to the postnatal ward but never treated properly. I was just told I was an anxious new Mum. I had suicidal thoughts, I paced rooms, and didn’t sleep, I didn’t eat, the only time I settled was in the evening. I did however always look after my daughter. I was discharged from the hospital and put on antidepressants and told I was suffering from post natal depression? ( two weeks after birth) I was treated then by the crisis team who came round to my house daily, often by my bedside telling me I should practice mindfulness, meditation, play music, essential oils? All the while being a first time mum and trying to breast feed? I took a turn for the worst and started at first fitting in bed, then banging my head against walls and screaming. Again mindfulness was suggested!? I was at that point suffering with postnatal psychosis but Bolton services are that shocking that no one spotted it. I was eventually voluntarily admitted to a hospital ward. It was here I shared time with some very poorly men and women. As an educated individual with three degrees being on this ward was very hard to comprehend. I was pumped full of drugs and checked on daily for a week. I decided this was not for me and was not helping and plus I missed my daughter. I stayed for a week and as I was voluntary lied to get out of the ward. Upon returning home I knew I was not right and my thoughts were not straight. I still felt suicidal although I had nothing to be suicidal about?! I obsessed about little things and my mind raced. I stayed in bed and googled my symptoms and found the diagnosis of post natal psychosis. Something most people with this diagnosis would never be able to do. I’m naturally suspicious !!!! Maybe that’s why I did it? Who knows anyway.... as a result I rang the MBU in Wythenshaw myself. They only have ten beds in the whole of the NW and one bed was available. I was admitted at 11pm that night and spent 6 months being treated for post natal psychosis, anxiety and depression. Something I always knew was wrong but yet Bolton hospital denied. This place was fantastic and invaluable. Me and Hattie have shared many memories there that perhaps we wouldn’t have done at home. I was discharged in autumn time 2016 and still struggled with depression and anxiety until April 2017. In May/June time I then had a course of ECT which was a turn around for me. I have since gradually come off medication and hope to be work ready shortly. Throughout all I have loved my daughter and my family. It’s just things have been a struggle. Mental illness is horrible and people are too quick to judge or give throw away comments which can be very hurtful. I never dreamed when I was decorating my little girls room that I would ever be in this position let alone be wanting to end my life while she was actually swinging at the side of me in a crib. Please if you have actually read this please give a few pounds to this very worthy cause. Action for Post Partum Psychosis have done so much for me and given me peer support, they rely on donations and are invaluable for the 1 in 1000 who are unlucky to suffer. Thanks for reading everyone onwards and upwards x Beth
https://www.app-network.org/
I gave birth to my beautiful daughter ‘Harriet Holly’ on the 9th of January 2016. It was meant to be a very happy time. Unfortunately for me and my partner we had a two day labour after an induction and the baby’s heart rate deteriorated. We had a difficult birth and as a result our daughter was very unwell and spent two weeks in ICU. Once home things took a very different turn and I lost all sense of reality and became very anxious and paranoid. I was then admitted back to the postnatal ward but never treated properly. I was just told I was an anxious new Mum. I had suicidal thoughts, I paced rooms, and didn’t sleep, I didn’t eat, the only time I settled was in the evening. I did however always look after my daughter. I was discharged from the hospital and put on antidepressants and told I was suffering from post natal depression? ( two weeks after birth) I was treated then by the crisis team who came round to my house daily, often by my bedside telling me I should practice mindfulness, meditation, play music, essential oils? All the while being a first time mum and trying to breast feed? I took a turn for the worst and started at first fitting in bed, then banging my head against walls and screaming. Again mindfulness was suggested!? I was at that point suffering with postnatal psychosis but Bolton services are that shocking that no one spotted it. I was eventually voluntarily admitted to a hospital ward. It was here I shared time with some very poorly men and women. As an educated individual with three degrees being on this ward was very hard to comprehend. I was pumped full of drugs and checked on daily for a week. I decided this was not for me and was not helping and plus I missed my daughter. I stayed for a week and as I was voluntary lied to get out of the ward. Upon returning home I knew I was not right and my thoughts were not straight. I still felt suicidal although I had nothing to be suicidal about?! I obsessed about little things and my mind raced. I stayed in bed and googled my symptoms and found the diagnosis of post natal psychosis. Something most people with this diagnosis would never be able to do. I’m naturally suspicious !!!! Maybe that’s why I did it? Who knows anyway.... as a result I rang the MBU in Wythenshaw myself. They only have ten beds in the whole of the NW and one bed was available. I was admitted at 11pm that night and spent 6 months being treated for post natal psychosis, anxiety and depression. Something I always knew was wrong but yet Bolton hospital denied. This place was fantastic and invaluable. Me and Hattie have shared many memories there that perhaps we wouldn’t have done at home. I was discharged in autumn time 2016 and still struggled with depression and anxiety until April 2017. In May/June time I then had a course of ECT which was a turn around for me. I have since gradually come off medication and hope to be work ready shortly. Throughout all I have loved my daughter and my family. It’s just things have been a struggle. Mental illness is horrible and people are too quick to judge or give throw away comments which can be very hurtful. I never dreamed when I was decorating my little girls room that I would ever be in this position let alone be wanting to end my life while she was actually swinging at the side of me in a crib. Please if you have actually read this please give a few pounds to this very worthy cause. Action for Post Partum Psychosis have done so much for me and given me peer support, they rely on donations and are invaluable for the 1 in 1000 who are unlucky to suffer. Thanks for reading everyone onwards and upwards x Beth
https://www.app-network.org/
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Bethany Jones
Organizer
