Loving Sarah as She Fights Cancer
The goal is to raise money to ease the financial burden on Sarah and her husband as they choose the best route of care possible for her. This is a time of severe stress and upheaval in the life of their family; let's offer what financial support we are able to give as a way to love and rally around them.
I sat in a parking lot after getting this news, and I cried and cried. Then, I went home and went through boxes and drawers and cupboards, looking for any and every physical remembrance I have of her; I was aching to have her near me.
I now have a pile of pictures and letters and cards next to me as I type this, and I am overwhelmed with grief; I have lost my closest friend today. I will never be the same.
Many of you are grieving the loss of her too and all she meant to you and the unique role she played in your life. My hope is each of you will take time to grieve the loss of her life and to also celebrate the incredible woman she was here on earth.
At this time, there are no details to share about a possible service in honor of Sarah. If and when that information can be shared publically, I will post it here. Please do not contact Sam asking for these details.
I will not ever be able to express all the gratitude in my heart for the outpouring of love you’ve shown to Sarah and her family, but thank you once again. May Peace cover your aching hearts tonight and in the days to come.
All My Love and Thanks,
It's Sam's birthday today, and he'd probably hate I'm bringing any attention to it, but I'm doing it anyway because he's a man deserving of love showered on him even though he doesn't expect it.
“There is a beautiful transparency to honest disciples who never wear a false face and do not pretend to be anything but who they are.”
― Brennan Manning
I read that quote this morning, and I thought of Sam.
He might not say much and often prefers more privacy than most, but I've always felt, in the many years I've known him, what you see is what you get; it's refreshing to know people like that, isn't it?
He's a man staying by his wife's side, continuing to tenderly care for her in her total vulnerability.
He's a man who makes sure to take the kids outside for a short walk, even if 15 minutes away from Sarah is all he can spare.
He's a man who probably can't remember what it was like to spend an evening out drinking beer and enjoying a concert with his friends.
He's a man with such talent to build a great business that he can no longer attend to, but he'd rather lose every material thing he has than to lose any of the precious time he has with Sarah.
So, over this weekend, can we shower him with some gifts? Those gifts will add up to more days spent resting in the knowledge we've taken care of a few bills for them, and that's a birthday gift his whole family will benefit from.
Happy Birthday, Sam!
She can’t see anymore, and friends, this tears my heart up, absolutely shreds it to bits. Cozy next to her, we talked, though her breaths were labored at times, and I knew our conversation would probably leave her exhausted.
She used up much of her energy to inquire how I was doing, what the doctors were saying, what my pain was like, etc. So for a little while, the tables were slightly turned, as it is usually me asking her these questions, but during a pause in the conversation I started to cry. She couldn’t see me, of course, and I tried to keep my sniffling quiet. But here’s what got to me as she asked me about my body:
Yes, it’s true; I had my own life and death scare, but doctors are able to treat me. Yes, I experienced fear of death and leaving my babies without a mama, but this scary time has lasted a matter of weeks. But for Sarah? Sarah has lived with this fear for many months, and she continues to live with it each new day.
She lives with this fear, yet asks ME how I'm doing? How is MY anxiety?
Grace upon grace is how a person is able to ask questions like that as they are facing death.
And tonight I can’t stop the tears because in her weakness, in her suffering, she has still been a sweet comfort to me. She’s been a source of comfort in many lives, even before she had cancer. I’m so grateful for her and the gift she is to me, and the gift she has been to you.
I know I’ve written about Sam before, and how good he is to her, but I need to say it again tonight. That man is a warrior. He is a warrior fighting multiple battles, every day. He fights his own fears and extreme fatigue in order to provide Sarah with the emotional and physical support she needs. He fights to let his children know they are loved and cared for even in the midst of the reality their mommy is probably going to die. He fights for the faith it takes to keep going and to trust God will not abandon them in this great trial. He’s amazing, and I love him so much.
Cancer isn’t a battle anyone should ever fight alone, and I want to thank all of you for fighting this with them through your continued faithfulness. Victory is the Lord’s, and we share in that victory as we rally around this incredible family.
My mom went to CA, to begin to grieve the loss of her friend and to celebrate Janet's life during a service with loved ones. While she was there, Janet's husband asked my mom to take anything of Janet's she wanted and bring it back home with her. One thing my mom chose was Janet's favorite blanket to give to Sarah; she knew Janet would want Sarah to be wrapped up in her love, even though she'd never get to embrace her or speak encouraging words over her again in this life.
A couple days ago my mom took the blanket to her and wrapped her up in a white, cozy embrace from Janet.
You've all done the same thing this past week. You have wrapped Sarah and her family in love by your continued generosity. You have been Isaiah 41:13 in action, "For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you."
Thank you, thank you, thank you.