DeBelle Beats Cancer, TKO!

My hero has to become myself, and that starts with doing what scares me the most;

Asking for help, leaning on others, and believing in Spirit, and friendship, and the goodness of all that I have so carefully surrounded my life with.

I was recently diagnosed with cervical cancer as most of you know.

Just heading in for the good ol' 'annual', only to walk out worried. Which followed quickly with cryptic phone calls, blood tests, biopsy surgeries, then a diagnosis of both T1a1 and T1a2 cervical cancer. A lot of my time immediately following had been spent contemplating the life and happiness of my marriage, my daughter, my family, and the possible shortening of a life I imagined would never end.

But fuck that. I don't go down for anything without a fight, and this is absolutely no different.
So far we have not starved, we have not gone without very much. But as the bigger bills approach and the mail starts becoming scary to open, it is time.
Like most Americans we fall in between the cracks of poverty and success. Where there is no aid because we 'make too much.'

Well, we don't expect a dime. We work hard, we make our own way, and that's just who we are and how we both were raised to be. But when I look at Layla, my husband, my parents, siblings and friends, I accept their worries, see their fear, and I realize now is the time to put my pride aside and open a window.
Being full of macho bs is not going to cure this. And in the paraphrased words of my favorite band, 'It's not what I want to suffer, nor what I am trying to prove.' All I have to prove, is my will to live. For myself, my loved ones, and for the changes I'm not yet done being a part of making in this world.

If you can help and choose to, know that you are joining forces in a large effort to save the world. Because that's all I have ever really striven for and done with my life.
I devoted it to sharing my heart with the world.
So if the world now wants to share their hearts with me, I am accepting and I am grateful.
My family is grateful.

We fight together. In the shade, in the sun, in the storm.

May you all be as blessed and joyous in your own lives as you have been in mine.

Always,
Rachelle

PS.
100% of all monies will go toward paying medical expenses, my next and hopefully final surgery is scheduled for October 28th. Until then, I am and will continue to be under the constant care of my primary physician/oncologist, as well as a holistic provider who is rapidly changing the way my body is fighting.
this nonsense.