Aftermath Of Breast Cancer

I was diagnosed with Her 2 positive negative hormone a very aggressive form of cancer.12 months of full on treatment.Chemotherapy Radiation Surgery with major complications Herceptin infusions for 12 monthsIt was impossible for myself to work and still is due to the horrible permanent side effects.I am really embarrassed to ask for help I’m sorry I would love to get help with treatment available in America that’s not available here that would help me immensely.If you can help me and share this post for me I would be so great full and humble.I was told by medical team that they didn’t expect me to survive.
Also my first attempt of surgery went horribly wrong I died on the operating table,the medical team hadn’t even commenced the surgery my blood pressure dropped I stopped breathing I was incubated put in an induced coma and woke up in ICU a few days later.
The 2nd surgery attempt was planned for 2 months later. I was so scared.
It took me months to recover from the physical side affects but now I’m traumatised and suffer with night terrors and need professional help for this.