Our Infertility Journey
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Since the time I was a little girl I dreamed of having a family of my own one day. I remember saying "I want 6 kids". I would take my little baby dolls with me everywhere I went...even to Church. I just knew I was meant to be a Mommy someday. From the time I turned 10yrs old I babysat for multiple families (who would trust their children with a 10 yrs old? lol) but I loved it!
I met my Husband when I was 27. We were inseparable from the get go. We became pretty serious early on in our relationship. We discussed marriage & kids and we both wanted those things, but somehow life just got away from us & time fly by. We both had good jobs and we worked a ton. We loved to travel and we bought our 1st home. We did everything backwards (or at least some people would say). We got asked over & over again "when are you going to get married?" Well after 6 years of dating we finally got married in 2011. It seems like yesterday. I remember looking around the room at all of our guests and just feeling the love in the air. It was indescribable, but I felt complete. I knew I was the luckiest woman alive to marry the most amazing man.
After the wedding all we could think about was starting our family. We began trying right away. Little did we know we were headed for the longest journey of our lives. We spent these first few years of our marriage going to doctor appointment after doctor appointment. Chris has been so supportive and has never given up on me. He's always been by my side to hold my hand & has been at all of my appointments with me. He truly is an amazing Husband and Best Friend!
Over the course of 4 years we've had 9 miscarriages & the Doctors (all 16 of them) can not find a reason why this keeps happening. They have diagnosed us with "Unexplained Infertility". We have had every type of miscarriage from Blighted Ovum's to Ectopic Pregnancies. Who knew there were so many types of miscarriages? We've also had every test done imaginable. From Sonohysterograms, Hyterosalpingograms, and Hysteroscopies plus we have tried many different medication & blood thinner injections. We've even tried Chriopractors and Acupuncture. We've been poked & prodded, but still no definite answers.
Our Doctors have now referred us to IVF (In-Vitro Fertilization) which is extremely expensive and is not covered by our insurance. They would like us to do PGD (Pre-Implantation Genetic Diagnosis) testing, which is when they are able to test the embryos outside of the body to see if there are any genetic disorders that are causing the miscarriages. If we find out the embryos are good, but I still miscarry, then we know its something to do with my body. If we have good embryos left, then we are hoping to have a surrogate who would be able to carry for us.
This infertility struggle has really made us stop & wonder about everything in our lives. You question everything!! What did I do wrong? Why is this happening? Is something wrong with my body? Isn't this what women are designed to do? Why is this so difficult? I felt ashamed, embarrassed and asked God many times "Why us?" we prayed and prayed and had others pray for us, but still no baby. It has become completely heartbreaking and we started to shut down. We started to avoid fun activities with friends, because frankly life just hasn't been the same. How do you explain to family & friends ALL that is going on in our lives? When we can't even comprehend it ourselves. We've passed on Birthday parties & baby showers all because its just too much to bear. This has been extremely overwhelming, but we are not giving up hope. We know God hears the desires of our hearts and we just have to keep our faith that our prayers will be answered.
We feel like we are on the right track and our Reproductive Endocrinologist has said we are ready for IVF. We are extremely excited yet know this is not guaranteed. At this point we are willing to try anything to have a family of our own. We know God has a plan for us and we ask that you pray for us along this journey.
Thanks for your continued support! We love you all!!
I met my Husband when I was 27. We were inseparable from the get go. We became pretty serious early on in our relationship. We discussed marriage & kids and we both wanted those things, but somehow life just got away from us & time fly by. We both had good jobs and we worked a ton. We loved to travel and we bought our 1st home. We did everything backwards (or at least some people would say). We got asked over & over again "when are you going to get married?" Well after 6 years of dating we finally got married in 2011. It seems like yesterday. I remember looking around the room at all of our guests and just feeling the love in the air. It was indescribable, but I felt complete. I knew I was the luckiest woman alive to marry the most amazing man.
After the wedding all we could think about was starting our family. We began trying right away. Little did we know we were headed for the longest journey of our lives. We spent these first few years of our marriage going to doctor appointment after doctor appointment. Chris has been so supportive and has never given up on me. He's always been by my side to hold my hand & has been at all of my appointments with me. He truly is an amazing Husband and Best Friend!
Over the course of 4 years we've had 9 miscarriages & the Doctors (all 16 of them) can not find a reason why this keeps happening. They have diagnosed us with "Unexplained Infertility". We have had every type of miscarriage from Blighted Ovum's to Ectopic Pregnancies. Who knew there were so many types of miscarriages? We've also had every test done imaginable. From Sonohysterograms, Hyterosalpingograms, and Hysteroscopies plus we have tried many different medication & blood thinner injections. We've even tried Chriopractors and Acupuncture. We've been poked & prodded, but still no definite answers.
Our Doctors have now referred us to IVF (In-Vitro Fertilization) which is extremely expensive and is not covered by our insurance. They would like us to do PGD (Pre-Implantation Genetic Diagnosis) testing, which is when they are able to test the embryos outside of the body to see if there are any genetic disorders that are causing the miscarriages. If we find out the embryos are good, but I still miscarry, then we know its something to do with my body. If we have good embryos left, then we are hoping to have a surrogate who would be able to carry for us.
This infertility struggle has really made us stop & wonder about everything in our lives. You question everything!! What did I do wrong? Why is this happening? Is something wrong with my body? Isn't this what women are designed to do? Why is this so difficult? I felt ashamed, embarrassed and asked God many times "Why us?" we prayed and prayed and had others pray for us, but still no baby. It has become completely heartbreaking and we started to shut down. We started to avoid fun activities with friends, because frankly life just hasn't been the same. How do you explain to family & friends ALL that is going on in our lives? When we can't even comprehend it ourselves. We've passed on Birthday parties & baby showers all because its just too much to bear. This has been extremely overwhelming, but we are not giving up hope. We know God hears the desires of our hearts and we just have to keep our faith that our prayers will be answered.
We feel like we are on the right track and our Reproductive Endocrinologist has said we are ready for IVF. We are extremely excited yet know this is not guaranteed. At this point we are willing to try anything to have a family of our own. We know God has a plan for us and we ask that you pray for us along this journey.
Thanks for your continued support! We love you all!!
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Eileen Block
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Chino, CA
