Jennas Medical Fund

This has been one of the longest and most humbling journeys of my life. Several months ago doctors found a mass on my right ovary, removal was recommended. As i began to undergo pre-op testing doctors found that the tumors had spread to my uterus & left ovary as well. A full hysterectomy was scheduled for May 12th. As that date approached i began to notice lumps protruding out of my body, turns out that those are my lymph nodes. Due to these new findings oncology & hematology had to be brought in, which resulted in new insurance authorizations & rescheduling of my surgey. My operation is now set for Friday, May 22nd at 1pm. The doctors can no longer tell me that the surgery itself will be 100% curative. After months of fighting just to maintain some level of normalcy in my life my journey just got much longer. Im scared in ways I didnt think possible. Im struggling just to be able to be a mom, a girlfriend, & a friend. God has blessed me with an incredible boyfriend, two beautiful children, and an unbelievably large support system of friends that have  been so compassionate & understanding during what is the most frustrating and heartbreaking time of my life. I cry every day that Mike & the kids have to see me like this. No one should have to watch someone they love deteriorate. No one should have to go through this level of pain. I have always been a very private and proud person and now I dont even have the ability to cover all of my medical costs. I keep asking "why me?" and i hope the answer is "because god is preparing me for something great" but my faith has been shaken a bit and i have just become so overwhelmed with fear of what lies ahead. Im trying my hardest to stay strong and be positive for those I know are counting on me.