Josh's Rehabilitation
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So to start off, making this account was pretty hard. I have never been good with asking for help.
Since i was 15 & was old enough to work i have always took care of every expense of mine and even was always trying to help my family and friends if there was any extra. This being said i have had sort of a chip on my shoulder to ever think about asking for help from anyone else, which is the problem that is left me in the place i am in now.
For many years i had a successful company with one of my best friends and was able to get my bills payed, be able to have some nicer things in my life, and still be able to help my family. Unfortunately still with all that being provided i had a huge depression growng inside of me.
About 5 years ago it started when i had some back problems that had resurfaced from issues when i was younger. The doctor prescribed me oxycodone which would be the start to my downwhirl spiral. I ended up loving how i felt and felt more creative for my work. My tolerance grew out of control and i could not get a hold it. For over the 1st year no one besides the people that i was buying the pills from knew i had this addiction. As other Opiate addicts know this high just became not enough. I needed more.
So i heard about this drug heroine, and how it basically did the same thing these pills were doing and that it could be less expensive and with me depleting my accounts, i could always use a way to save some money. i thought my spiral was already out of control. I was dead wrong!
At this point this had been going on for a couple years. I wanted so badly to get clean but i was terrified of going through the excruciating withdrawals again after doing this for so long.
Well i didnt get that choice at this point whether or not i wanted to quit or not. I had caused with my habit a vascular disease in my body that took my abilty to walk for 3 months, so i had to quit whether i liked it or not. I wanted to die instead of walk through that, & honestly almost gave up my life at that point.
You would have thought after what i had walked through i would have seeked help after that point, but being stubborn, and thinking that i could fix this on my own, & having every excuse in the book of why this was not the right time to be able to take off to get that help.... I was still basically in the same situation.
I stayed clean with medicine for a while but i knew that medicine was only surpressing a issue that was unresolved.
So last year i was failing with doing my job and trying to be the father that my beautiful daughter deserved. Tragedy after tragedy started accumilating in my life and something inside me just gave up. I became selfish and turned back to the one thing that numbed all my pain away temporarily once again.
This time was different though. See everytime you get off this drug and get back on your body has weakened a little bit. My body just could not handle it anymore this time. On 2 different occasions i almost died this time.
Yes finally my wake up call had arrived. I begged God if you will help me get through this i will do whatever you ask of me. Well i got a response.... Its time not only do you speak to someone but you get the help you have needed for so long. I knew what this meant.... I needed to give up my work, certain friends that werent helping me move forward, break routine, and get myself into a rehab clinic so that i could be the man & father i was always meant to be.
Today i am 37 days clean. I have no work, no income, but am going to place myself in rehab this week, and pray in faith that i will be able to come up with the income to get this help i have needed for so long.
My goal after this in rememberance of my best friend that lost his life to this horrible epidemic is to start "The David Ministry" which will help others that are walking down the same road i have and help them not become a negative statistic but positive with surviving this.
I am asking and humbling myself right now that if it is layed upon your heart to help i would be so eternally greatful!
God Bless,
Josh
P.S. if you are someone walking through something similar please get help and dont thing you have to walk through this alone.
Since i was 15 & was old enough to work i have always took care of every expense of mine and even was always trying to help my family and friends if there was any extra. This being said i have had sort of a chip on my shoulder to ever think about asking for help from anyone else, which is the problem that is left me in the place i am in now.
For many years i had a successful company with one of my best friends and was able to get my bills payed, be able to have some nicer things in my life, and still be able to help my family. Unfortunately still with all that being provided i had a huge depression growng inside of me.
About 5 years ago it started when i had some back problems that had resurfaced from issues when i was younger. The doctor prescribed me oxycodone which would be the start to my downwhirl spiral. I ended up loving how i felt and felt more creative for my work. My tolerance grew out of control and i could not get a hold it. For over the 1st year no one besides the people that i was buying the pills from knew i had this addiction. As other Opiate addicts know this high just became not enough. I needed more.
So i heard about this drug heroine, and how it basically did the same thing these pills were doing and that it could be less expensive and with me depleting my accounts, i could always use a way to save some money. i thought my spiral was already out of control. I was dead wrong!
At this point this had been going on for a couple years. I wanted so badly to get clean but i was terrified of going through the excruciating withdrawals again after doing this for so long.
Well i didnt get that choice at this point whether or not i wanted to quit or not. I had caused with my habit a vascular disease in my body that took my abilty to walk for 3 months, so i had to quit whether i liked it or not. I wanted to die instead of walk through that, & honestly almost gave up my life at that point.
You would have thought after what i had walked through i would have seeked help after that point, but being stubborn, and thinking that i could fix this on my own, & having every excuse in the book of why this was not the right time to be able to take off to get that help.... I was still basically in the same situation.
I stayed clean with medicine for a while but i knew that medicine was only surpressing a issue that was unresolved.
So last year i was failing with doing my job and trying to be the father that my beautiful daughter deserved. Tragedy after tragedy started accumilating in my life and something inside me just gave up. I became selfish and turned back to the one thing that numbed all my pain away temporarily once again.
This time was different though. See everytime you get off this drug and get back on your body has weakened a little bit. My body just could not handle it anymore this time. On 2 different occasions i almost died this time.
Yes finally my wake up call had arrived. I begged God if you will help me get through this i will do whatever you ask of me. Well i got a response.... Its time not only do you speak to someone but you get the help you have needed for so long. I knew what this meant.... I needed to give up my work, certain friends that werent helping me move forward, break routine, and get myself into a rehab clinic so that i could be the man & father i was always meant to be.
Today i am 37 days clean. I have no work, no income, but am going to place myself in rehab this week, and pray in faith that i will be able to come up with the income to get this help i have needed for so long.
My goal after this in rememberance of my best friend that lost his life to this horrible epidemic is to start "The David Ministry" which will help others that are walking down the same road i have and help them not become a negative statistic but positive with surviving this.
I am asking and humbling myself right now that if it is layed upon your heart to help i would be so eternally greatful!
God Bless,
Josh
P.S. if you are someone walking through something similar please get help and dont thing you have to walk through this alone.
Organizer
Josh Rocky Garrett
Organizer
Atlanta, GA
