Medics Aren't Suppose to get Cancer

First I want to thank all of you who have donted to help me fight cancer, be it with nominal donations, prayers, thoughts and good juju. I am trying to be positive, even though at this time my hours to work are being cut short due to my illness. Now here is my story which started On Monday January 19, 2015 I heard the words that I have always feared.... I am sorry you have cancer.  As I sat stunned with my wonderful Fiancee Clayton at my side, along with my mother and sister I ran thru the news that was just delivered to me. rewind to Christmas night, when my otherwise gentle black kitty Hamilton(Yes he is named after Josh Hamilton) jumped on my chest causing pain, as I reached down to see what Hamilton hit, I found a lump in my right breast. I immediately scheduled a doctors appointment for the next day, where I was sent for a mammogram and ultrasound. I was given a bi-rads 4 suspicious for malignancy. Followed up with a surgeon 2 days after that. Who becuase of no family history of breast cancer or ovarian cancer, and the presentation of my lump was not typical, he thought it was benign, however he gave me the option to do as, I wish. I wanted "Fredrico De Lump" (as I jokingly named it) out, I lost my father to leiomeyosarcoma on August 22, 1997 and I didnt want this thing to stay. On January 15th I underwent my lumpectomy, and on January 16th I was called back early to talk to the doctor on Monday January 19th. I am still numb from the news this past week has been a blur, I have gone from a healthy Mother, and Paramedic to what I always feared a person with cancer, and now I am facing 5 months of Chemotherapy and either mastectomy and or radiation, and then reconstructive surgery. This next year will not be mine to live as I want it belongs to me fighting Breast Cancer, and I plan to become a survivor. The Hardest part of this... Is I am used to being the caregiver, first I was a nurse, and then fell in love with Paramedicine.. As a paramedic for almost 20 years I would rather be taking care of my patients and not being one myself. I know this will make me stronger and ultimately make me a better Paramedic, and eventually Doctor. Thank You all of your for your donations if you are able to donate, Your prayers if you pray, if you don't pray all the best juju and positive energy. I just want to get better so I can go back to doing what I love and that is being a paramedic...

Tonight Josh Hamilton who people know is my favorite baseball player, for what this remarkable man that battled drug addiction in a fight for his life, came back to be one of the best most natually talented player in the game today, but it was this scripture that helped to lead him back James 4:7 Humlble yourself before God, resist the Devil, and He shall flee from you. And in a  moment of feeling sorry for myself this came to me.. This is a fight for my life, if I give up I have allowed the Devil to win, However the more I resist him by staying positive, and giving my disease to Gods will, I will survive this.