Fund Johnny's FTM Top Surgery!

I'm half way through my life, and am now just realizing how much I've missed by not being my true self. I've spent the last decade agonizing over who I am, who I need to be for others, who I wish I could be right*this*instant! What I do, and what I have learned, is that by admitting I need this, and want this, are the first major steps to being able to enjoy my next 30 years on Earth. As it stands, I've had to deal with quite a few emotional/mental issues, both of which have kept me from earning a living outside of the confines of my family home. My family has been a godsend, taking care of me as much as they can. But I could never impose upon them the cost of this surgery, as they have done so much, and I can't begin to repay them monetarily, mentally or emotionally! <3 I know asking perfect strangers to help me is a laaaaaaaaaarge step, but I really hope there are a few folks out there willing to help me move forward with my plans, and my life. I'm hoping to go through Dr. Steinwald, who is bit pricey, but he's local (saving me excess travel costs), has done brilliant work, and can definitely help me make my dream a reality. As I said, I know asking for monetary help from strangers is not only awkward, but an imposition...but this is the only way I see to make this real without having to wait a decade to build up the savings. See, I'm 30. I can't be 40 and still living like a ghost in my own body. I just CANNOT. So, please, if you can't help, spread the word, maybe someone close to you can. As my friends can attest, I've never asked for anything in my life. But I'm asking for this. Please.