Agonizing pain..Desperate..

           Let me start by saying hello and thankyou to anyone reading. As you can imagine, this is extremely embarassing to post for the world and friends to see, as it's something you hide from literally everyone. You wouldn't know it bothered me judging by how outgoing I usually am, but it would be impossible not to when every day feels like the whole left side of my head was the victim of Muhammed Ali's right hook or three.  

I understand not everyone can help,  and I thank you for even reading this.  All I ask of anyone, is to please just take literally 10 seconds to copy and paste the following to Facebook and ask others to share - as that's the only way this will work.  Again,  thankyou so much. 

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       I'm writing this because i'm 24 - and i've been to a dentist less times than I can count on one hand.  The few occurrences were out of absolute desperation and emergency due to a wisdom tooth and a root canal being infected, unbeknownst to me it used to be common history for humans to pass away at an early age due to the exact reasons - neglect and infection.

       Growing up I didn't get the best medical care, and by that I usually mean any - until something's literally broken. My mom worked hard to pay the bills, but with my dad being addicted to drugs - expensive dental visits get put on the back-burner. I just gave up.

         My dad has been sober over 5 years now thankfully. He's a great, loving, and a caring father. Unfortunately, my family still cannot even come close to helping me in any way, and any time it's brought up - I receive nothing  but instant agitation and refusal to discuss . I'm on my own..

          I currently work full time as a carpenter (I build houses). With my income and bills, there's just no way I can even begin to do anything - except wait for the rest of my teeth to break apart and hope infection doesn't secretly take me down before noticing.

           The first time I finally went in, was out of pure agony and despair. I can remember it being so painful, that light itself would cause the pain to increase. I would fall in and out of sleep in a puddle of cold tears coming from the eye on the side of my face that hurt,  constantly being awoken by the pain.  The whole side of my face felt (and now currently) feels like I was just sucker-punched by Vin Diesel. After getting my paycheck, half of it was gone - and that was before bills and other necessities.

            Now I sit here again in writhing pain and unable to sleep due to 2 cavities that have gotten so bad they've both recently broken - almost completely gone. An implant needs to be put where I'm missing a tooth beside my front (was knocked out), a few more need to be pulled, along with 20-30 cavaties,  damage, and last but not least - braces.

          I have no idea what to do. I can't afford the 10-20 grand it will cost just to have a healthy normal smile like everyone else.  I cannot express how badly I want to be able to smile and show my teeth for the FIRST time in my life. I want nothing more in life. Literally, nothing more. I don't care about a nice care or living rich, I just want to be able to SMILE anywhere I go, to anyone I talk to. I would give ANYTHING on this earth. I cannot fathom the day I look into a mirror and see a normal white smile smiling back at me. I get shakey and emotional  just typing this - and i'm not easily an emotional guy.  Can't even imagine. It's a dream so big it almost feels impalpable.  

         I can still remember a girl I thought was cute - who sat in front of me in my 9th grade science class - saying to another student right beside her (who looked terrified to say anything), "look at how messed up his teeth are. You need braces." Felt like I had been hit with a sledgehammer. I just don't deserve this, when everyone else has a perfect smile, and I do great things for others.

          I've stopped on the side of the road and helped over 30+ completely random strangers in the past 8 years i've been driving, from flat tires to gas can trips/etc. Probably dangerous for some people, but I don't think I have to worry due to my height and mass, I hope haha. Anyways, since I used to work at an auto shop and know my way around cars I almost always pull over when I see someone who looks in need and can save them a ton of money paying for a tow and a shop - just to change a tire or whatever it may be. I guess it's just in my  brain wiring to want to help people as much as I can. Generous to a fault, some might say.

          I don't want to get my hopes up for nothing, so I remain optimistic that anyone will help me. I thank you for reading this, I simply just hope you take just 1 minute to imagine - to fully imagine what it would be like to have a smile so unnapealing, that you physically can not smile showing your teeth, or barely talk to someone face to face without hiding your smile.

           I'm going to update this page with receipts for every single dollar donated, and pictures along the way - if this works, hopefully.

        Thankyou for taking the time to read this, and I hope you have a wonderful day!

                                                          Sincerely,

                                                          Cory C.