Memorial Services for John Crain

I never thought at 24 years old, a week after finishing my Bachelor's degree, I would be holding my mother up from collapsing in my arms because my father passed away so quickly and unexpectedly. On Christmas day, my father's unexpected passing pulled the ground right from under us. Within moments of his heart giving out on him, my whole world came crashing down. I never thought of a life without my father. It just wasn't in the plan. My mother and sister are doing their best to keep it together but I know I need to be the strong one to hold them up, it's what my daddy would have wanted. I did not want to post this on social media because the last thing I want is sympathy or empathy. I just wish I could have my young, fun, and caring father back in my life, even if it is just for one more moment so I can tell him we love him more than anything. My father was too young to pass at 51, my mother too young to be a widow, and my sister too young to lose her father at 18. It hurts so much to have my mother look at me through tears, apologizing to me because she is asking me to take care of funeral arrangements for my daddy, but I do not want my mother sorry, I want my mother to be okay. She lost her other half instantly and there is nothing I can do to fill that void. If I could give my father my heart for my mother, I would in a second. My dad was the most amazing man. He lived for my mother, my sister, and I. Everything he did was to better our family because his goal in life was to see a smile on our faces. I'm so hurt, devistated, and angry that I lost my daddy. I have so many more moments I needed to share with him. He's supposed to watch me walk at my graduation next May, he's supposed to walk me down the aisle when I finally find the one, and he's supposed to meet my children someday. I want to be here to do this for my dad and I want to be strong enough to take care of my mother and sister. This is the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with. Any help with costs would be greatly appreciated. Thank you for your thoughts and prayers. I miss you dad. I promise to take care of mama and sissy for you.