11 MONTHS AGO
You posted a new update message:For those of you that have followed our story I want to say thank you so much for everything. Getting back on track after so many down falls is still a challenge but I have faith that everything will be back to normal soon. Hopefully driving 2 hrs away for her health care will stop and that will save a lot of gas. I have faith. I never thought a year ago that I would say that Alize is doing well. Thank you everyone for always been their you helped me feed my kids when I couldn't at times. It feels good that I had so much support from everyone including friends and family. May the Lord bless you and your families and repay you in a great way. Love you all.
11 MONTHS AGO
For those of you that have followed our story I want to say thank you so much for everything. Getting back on track after so many down falls is still a challenge but I have faith that everything will be back to normal soon. Hopefully driving 2 hrs away for her health care will stop and that will save a lot of gas. I have faith. I never thought a year ago that I would say that Alize is doing well. Thank you everyone for always been their you helped me feed my kids when I couldn't at times. It feels good that I had so much support from everyone including friends and family. May the Lord bless you and your families and repay you in a great way. Love you all.
18 MONTHS AGO
Here is an update on Alize for those that have been following our story. Alize had her surgery last Wednesday and we waited patiently for the results of this one because if all results came out good this would be the last surgery for a while. Well half of the results came in and my daughter is now on REMISSION. YES I CAN SAY THIS ON REMISSION. Words I never thought I would hear. We still need to see if her flick 3 is still negative but as of right now she is CANCER FREE. I never thought I would be able to say this. I look back at everything she went through and she fought and fought and did not give up. Alize Marin you are my hero, my rock my everything and you have taught so many good things in life. I love you so much and I don't know what I would do without my baby girl. I knew God would heal you. I pray this cancer never ever returns and please family and friends keep praying for us because this cancer is a cancer that can be stubborn and return, but I know God healed my little girl. That cancer will not come back to bother my baby ever again. Let me say it loud and clear Alize Marin is on REMISSION. SHE IS CANCER FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AMEN JESUS AMEN!!!!!!
18 MONTHS AGO
Alize had her surgery today. Things went well but she is in a lot of pain more than usual. We get the results next week. This is just an update to those friends and family that don't use facebook.
18 MONTHS AGO
Mentally preparing for my daughters surgery on Wednesday. I know she will be fine but seeing your child go through so much kills me inside a little more each time.
18 MONTHS AGO
Here is an update. Alize is scheduled for surgery on the 26th to check for any signs of cancer anywhere else in her body and also to see if any damage has been done to her body after going through so much. If all comes out well this will hopefully be her last surgery and she is now in our Lords healing hands. It has been a long battle, but I hope that this will be the end to this long painful battle. Now we have to work on getting back on our feet with all the left over expenses but I don't care as long as my baby is well. I can't say we could have done this alone so I am thankful for everyone in our life.
19 MONTHS AGO
Alize is feeling much better thanks for the prayers.
19 MONTHS AGO
Alize is very sick today don't know what is going I need prayers from all family and friends. With her illness her getting sick is not good.
20 MONTHS AGO
Alize has her follow up appt this Wednesday. Pray for good results. I know everything will be fine, but prayers are always appreciated. Thanks
20 MONTHS AGO
Hello everyone I am writing to tell you guys some sad news. On May 11th they did a concert in PA for Alize to help our family through really really tough times. The concert was not a big success due to rain, but they were able to collect $500 for our family. We were so excited since we haven't had any extra money to do any fun stuff that I decided to leave my light without paying and take the kids out. But with tears in my eyes I have to say that the money or DVD that was done so we can see the concert never came. My friend Tracy Souders threw the event in my daughters name, but due to her own medical problems she was unable to send it till just last week and than was just told that the money got lost. I lost my electricity counting on that help. I feel so bad for everyone that went to the concert to donate for my daughter. I feel like this big event never took place because we were not even able to see the DVD to see all the wonderful people that came out. I am so heart broken and Alize is so crushed. I don't even know how to feel about this. I am sitting here crying while seeing Alize crushed. I am so sorry to anyone that donated. God bless
21 MONTHS AGO
I look at my kids playing together and my daughter enjoying a donut and it brings me back to all the things we all went through and continue to go through but having all my kids with me at this moment is a blessing. I know everyone has there own big problems and my biggest advise to everyone is take it one day at a time and live for the moment. Enjoy life and your kids and always enjoy the day like it is your last because only God knows what the future holds.
22 MONTHS AGO
Well my daughter is not doing too well again. She is fighting another infection and is scheduled for surgery on the 22nd. This is going to be a scary surgery for her since it has been a little while they went into her back for marrow. Right now she is very weak and pale, but fighting strong. I will keep everyone updated on how she is doing. Thank you for all your support and I hope many family and friends will make it to the concert that is being done for her in PA.
22 MONTHS AGO
Alize Marin is scheduled for surgery next week it has been a while since her last surgery and she is scared pls pray that all goes well. Don't worry mama you are strong and will come out of it smiling like always I love you.
23 MONTHS AGO
5 days and I'm also excited about music for Alize it feels so good knowing we are not alone in this fight. Alize has one of the hardest cancers but she continues to fight and she will fight it and live to tell her story.
24 MONTHS AGO
Well Alize is not doing well again. She refuses to go to the hospital so I am going to do my best to try and make her feel better. My husband is out of town getting our furniture and with no one to help me care for the kids I don't know what to do till he gets back. I am rushing him to come back home, but we are running low on cash too so it's getting harder to make this work. I need a miracle.
24 MONTHS AGO
Alize is sick again I am getting ready to take her to hospital I know this will be a long stay.
24 MONTHS AGO
Alize has another appt tomorrow she hates it but it has to be done. I wish it was closer it's an hr and 20 mins to go and come back it sucks but I'm glad the hospital is so good.
24 MONTHS AGO
Alize hasn't been feeling well lets see what they say in her appointment.
24 MONTHS AGO
So tired today and Alize is not feeling well again. I hope it's not another stay in the hospital. I just want to rest for one full day with no worries. I am mentally and physically so tired. I need a break from everything. Lord give me strength.
25 MONTHS AGO
When will this battle end
25 MONTHS AGO
Alize is back in the hospital again. I need lots of prayers.
25 MONTHS AGO
Looks like Alize will be in the hospital a while
25 MONTHS AGO
Looks like we staying in the hospital
25 MONTHS AGO
Back to the hospital with Alize Pls pray
25 MONTHS AGO
Was feeling a big down and felt like I was starting to lose faith, but after going to church and meeting so many people and having prayers for our family I feel like I am a new person. God is awesome.
25 MONTHS AGO
So tired of the struggles and pain. I need medications for Alize and I can only afford to get her for a few days. This sucks I can't even get what she needs. Is life so unfair are we not going through enough. I'm trying to always talk positive but this sucks.
25 MONTHS AGO
Things are starting to get hard again. The expenses of caring for someone with this kind of cancer are so much. It is not an easy one and it's been 9 months and the struggle continues. I can't wait till one day we can look back at this and say wow we did it. Alize is starting to be so sad and tired of dealing with so much pain too and there is nothing at all I can do about it. I look at her and put my head down because I am out of words to say to her. We have faith and I have been pushing the faith on my family so we can get through this, but it's not easy being in this position. We don't know what the future holds, but I will keep pushing forward with God pulling me all the way. We won't' give up we just can't. We received a lot of help from different programs in the beginning, but because this is a long term cancer we are out of options. It's so sad, but we will be okay in Jesus name amen.
25 MONTHS AGO
Co pays are killing me :( Last night my daughter was crying because she is tired of what she has gone through and continues to go through. I can't say it is easy, but we continue praying.
25 MONTHS AGO
I need prayers for Alize she hasn't been doing good since the surgery and I am starting to get worried. Please Lord make her feel better already please.
25 MONTHS AGO
Things didn't go as we wanted she had three procedures done instead of one. My baby in so much pain.
25 MONTHS AGO
Surgery went well but she in a lot a lot of pain
25 MONTHS AGO
tomorrow is Alize's surgery and her birthday is on the 23rd. Hopefully the procedure will go smooth so she can enjoy her day.
25 MONTHS AGO
Going to spend a lot of time with my daughter before her surgery on Wednesday
25 MONTHS AGO
I have been watching live church and this is really helping me. My daughter will be healed in Jesus name.
25 MONTHS AGO
25 MONTHS AGO
the newspaper crew was awesome today our story should be out in the papers on Friday
25 MONTHS AGO
Have a lot on my mind today and this was shared with me: Psalm 91:1-16 MSG
"You who sit down in the High God's presence, spend the night in Shaddai's shadow, Say this: " God , you're my refuge. I trust in you and I'm safe!" That's right"”he rescues you from hidden traps, shields you from deadly hazards. His huge outstretched arms protect you"” under them you're perfectly safe; his arms fend off all harm. Fear nothing"”not wild wolves in the night, not flying arrows in the day, Not disease that prowls through the darkness, not disaster that erupts at high noon. Even though others succumb all around, drop like flies right and left, no harm will even graze you. You'll stand untouched, watch it all from a distance, watch the wicked turn into corpses. Yes, because God 's your refuge, the High God your very own home, Evil can't get close to you, harm can't get through the door. He ordered his angels to guard you wherever you go. If you stumble, they'll catch you; their job is to keep you from falling. You'll walk unharmed among lions and snakes, and kick young lions and serpents from the path. "If you'll hold on to me for dear life," says God , "I'll get you out of any trouble. I'll give you the best of care if you'll only get to know and trust me. Call me and I'll answer, be at your side in bad times; I'll rescue you, then throw you a party. I'll give you a long life, give you a long drink of salvation!""
26 MONTHS AGO
So the editor of the Tampa paper is coming on Wednesday to interview my family. They really want to help us. This is all happening because of the couple I met the other day. God is awesome.
I met this wonderful couple. They work for a wonderful organization called operation unwrap a smile. They came to my home and brought wonderful presents for my kids they also prayed for us and it was a wonderful feeling. My daughter cried like I never saw her cry before. They bought her a blanket and put the blanket around my daughter and prayed and blessed the blanket. They put the blanket around her and told her that will be the Lords way of protecting her and making sure she heals. I see it like the Lords arms holding her. I am so grateful for them. It's amazing how just words can heal the heart. God bless everyone that has been there through this battle and continue to be there. I love you all.
a bit of bad news. My daughters number went a bit crazy so another surgery is scheduled for sometime in the next 2 weeks again. This is getting harder and harder for my daughter that pain that she goes through getting surger on her back every single month and sometimes every 2 weeks is too much to handle. I would do anything to take her place. She told me for the first time ever that she has had some bad thoughts in her mind so I ask for prayers for my little girl because honestly I don't blame her. She is human and everyone can say stay strong, but a child should not go through so much pain. It's not fair, but I leave it in the Lords hands as always and hope that one day things will be back to normal and we can enjoy life. Please pray for my family. I miss my furniture every single day too and the kids are missing all of their stuff. I try to smile and joke, but this has affected my family in a way that I just can't express anymore. Lets just stay that anger and tears and a part of our life. Please Lord give my daughter a break from this illness and heal her please heal her 100% so that she can enjoy her teenage years. I hate that she wants to go out with her friends, but being so sick she can't even make friends and it sucks so bad she is 14 and has lived life more than most of us have. I am going to bed now just to think and think till I fall asleep. Thank of course what are the thoughts that kill my soul every night. The health of my daughter, the sadness in my boys, me not being strong enough for everyone and of course the piles and piles of bills. But in Jesus name I will rest my head. Goodnight.
I bought a flying light balloon for my daughter so that we can kiss her cancer goodbye and that it never returns. I pray that balloon will take that cancer far far away.
It's been a memorable year I really do hope the new year brings us lots of great things. I want to forget 2012 and start a fresh year with the Lord by our side. It's hard to think about the year but I'm glad it's over and looking for a great 2013. God bless everyone and happy new year.
I loved spending every moment with my kids. God is great. I can't thank him enough for this moment in my life.
I am so thankful that I am spending this Christmas with all my kids. I was scared at one point that I wouldn't be with all of them today, but thanks to the Lord we are all together. I can't ask for anything more special to me. It has been rough and of course continue to be rough, but I have learned to appreciate every single moment in life. Merry Christmas to everyone and God bless. Lets not forget that it is a special day for the Lord. Muuuaassss.
So I was excited about getting my kids some gifts from toys for tots but they allowed everyone to take what they wanted and we stood with nothing. Ooh well what can we do.
Surgery was rough but it went well
On our way to hospital for surgery I'm so nervous
tomorrow is Alize's surgery and it a big day for her because they are taking her port out and checking her bone marrow again. She has really bad anxiety, but I tell her things will go just fine as usual. I love you Alize Marin
My baby is getting surgery on Wednesday please keep her in your prayers she always smiles but I know this is hard for all of us but I know things will get better because I will not leave her side no matter what.
my baby is not feeling well again. She hasn't been doing too good since last night. I am home with her to take care of her. The doctors said we just have to wait.
Wish Christmas could wait till after tax returns so I can spoil by kids a bit with everything they have been through. I am very happy we will get to spend it together in our new home, but I still feel bad kids don't understand like we do.
Back to work tomorrow. I am so overwhelmed right now with everything going on in my life, but I have to continue to push forward. I won't give up after I have come so far. I feel like I never get to rest. I would kill just for one day of just laying in bed watching TV with no worries in my mind for just one day. May the Lord always be with us and give me the strength to go on
Alize's medication costs is killing me especially since I'm moving on Saturday and Christmas around the corner. Maybe no gifts for the kids but we look at our new home as a gift to all of us.
Everything was going so good and now Alize is not feeling well. Please take care of my baby Lord.
Please continue sharing my page everyone. As some of you may know I'm about to move again and with everything we have gone through we are behind on everything. I managed to find a cheaper place but now I have to come up with rent and deposit and all the other bills again while paying for medications etc. Any little help is appreciated. Update on Alize well she might need tcells from my son the end of December I hope things go smooth. Thanks to everyone that continues to pray for us and support us in every way possible I honestly don't know what I would do without everyone in our life thank you and God bless.
I keep trying but can't seem to get ahead no matter how hard I try.
Need prayers lots of prayers Pls
I don't want to be negative and don't want to give up but dam a small break would be nice. No matter how hard I try it's pointless.
Today we start a new chapter in our life. Hope everything goes smooth.
Man it feels like I am starting over since I am moving December 1st I am so stressed coming up with so much money again in a rush. I hope I can come up with everything because I really don't want to go back to PA I love Florida and I want it to work out for us. I have faith and will continue to fight and not give up. I know things will get better after taxes and I can get myself back on track. I just need to make it till than wish me luck everyone.
nothing beats coming home and my daughter sitting next to me like good old times and my boys in the other room playing. For a moment I forget what is the reason for all my struggles and it makes me keep going when I see them.
I have to move out of my house by December 1st and now the struggle starts again. I want to thank everyone that has helped our family out. I know things are going to look up soon with this new house and a lower rent so I need everyone to pray for us so that we can come up with all the money to move into the new place. If I can't come up with money than PA here I come I guess :( I leave it in the Lords hands.
Just got home from work and had a big scare with my daughter blood everywhere ugghh. She is ok though. I will blow some stress by farming before bed.
A lot on my mind but God has great plans ahead. We have been through a lot and I know we will get through this and start seeing happiness. I see life in a different way and I can say I have learned a lot from this experience. Can't wait to see what the Lord has in mind for us.
Alize's surgery went well, but she is in a lot of pain. I will be taking care of her tonight to make sure she is ok. I love my baby girl so much. We have to wait about 2-3 weeks for the results. It is a waiting game, but hopefully things will be back to normal 100% I can't wait.
Big scare my daughter started throwing up non stop and had blood in her line hope everything will be ok surgery is tomorrow.
Here is the update everyone has been waiting for: Alize has been DISCHARGED and is home with me. She is getting surgery on Thursday, but I know she will be fine and hopefully things will start to look up for our family. I am so happy I have to spend a lot of time taking care of her because she has her port and needs meds all the time while at home, but who better than me to take care of my baby. I am so happy.
Well stress really sucks I broke night just overwhelmed with my own thoughts. I will continue to look ahead for happiness in a place far far away.
Today was a hard day for us. We sat here and just took a moment to think about how much we have gone through in such little time. I know that I have to be strong and believe in my Jesus above which I have total faith in, but even with faith our hearts hurt. We took for granted our beautiful and amazing life and now we just want it back. I can't believe the tears we have cried and the pain we have gone through. I get it now it is a test Jesus and I want us to live for you. I can't be perfect, but I am starting to understand and I will not question your plans all I ask is that we get peace and I can breath without worries and that this nightmare ends. I leave this in your hands. For everyone that has followed our story thank you for being there for us. I honestly don't know what we would have done without you. It's amazing how quickly our life changed and all I can do right now is try to stay strong and pray and pray. I am not sure if we staying in FL or returning home, but I have learned that it doesn't matter where we are as long as I have my little family with me. Thank you God for lending me the best kids in the world. Amen and gn.
So I asked my landlord if he can give me a few days to come up with the entire rent since things have been hard the last couple of months and he says if this happens next month I better find a place to live. Amazing I have never been late on the rent at all and I only asked because I was in real need. Some people have no heart at all. Than after I told him there was no need for all that and that it was only a question he says I don't feel bad for what I said I am being honest. I only needed a week to come up with the full rent because I am short by 300 and he said that to me without knowing what I was trying to ask. God bless him for his kind heart.
I am going to leave my stress in the Lords hands a few hrs and try to rest because I can't take it anymore. I know he will get us through this sometimes I lose faith in him but he never gives up on me because he loves me. Alize is trying to be strong through all this pain and I know it is hard but I know the Lord is watching and peace is coming soon we just need to be patient. I will wait for his miracle until than I will continue holding my daughters hand through the pain and show her my love.
My shoulders are killing me spending all my time traveling back and forth to hospital and try to work atleast 3 hrs a day is hard I can't take it I know I have to have faith but I'm running out of options and losing everything I worked so hard to get. With tears running down my face I leave my daughter's side to go work a few hrs.
Thankful that I was able to work a few hrs not much, but better than nothing.
well as much as I love Florida I think PA is calling us back. The struggles here are harder than I expected. I know that we are going through harder times than normal life situations, but I don't know how much longer I can continue this. I am not 100% sure, but between rent, gas and light I just can't afford this place with barely being able to work. On top of all this Juni can't find work out here he looks and looks and nothing. I will leave it in the Lords hands, but I have a feeling I might be returning to PA even if it will kill me inside.
I can't believe how much support a lot of people have gave to our family. I can say that I am blessed in that way. I don't know what we would have done without the help of everyone. I love you all.
So depressed ugghh worst feeling in the world it feels like your sick and dying. I hope it's just depression :(
Thinking about everything going on in my life and thinking about my daughter and my boys has me without being able to sleep. God I know your up there and I believe in you so I beg you to please give us some peace and bring my little family back together and healthy I surrender to what ever it is you want from me Pls also help Juni Picart find a good job so we can make it. Thanks to everyone that has been helping with these tough times. I'm going to try and pray myself to sleep while I cry thinking of the pain my daughter is going through and the depression that has hit my kids and me. Gn or good morning
Well worst news ever my poor girl needs surgery on her back again something is not right and they don't know what it could be. I'm so scared.
Can't sleep too much on my mind it sucks :(
Sometimes I get messages saying sorry that they could only donate a little bit. You don't need to apologize. If you only knew what just a couple dollars can do to a family in need. God sees what people are doing to help my family and he rewards these kind of people. I will never forget how much help everyone has given me not just financially, but emotionally. I love every single one of you that in my life. I won't lie the reason I am so depressed is because not only do I have to worry about my daughters condition, but I also have to worry if I will have light next week. It is hard and sometimes I don't even have a glass of milk to give to my kids, but somehow we manage and make it through and than God sends me an Angel and when I need it the most I get all kinds of blessings. I know everyone is struggling now at days trust and the fact that you still try and help my family means so much to us. I don't know how I would have gotten through all this without every ones help. God bless always.
I am just angry today I am angry at what my daughter is going through and how it is affecting my children and family. I am angry that sometimes I cry alone with worries on my mind and just tired of crying. I hate that I continue to have to try and look at a brighter tomorrow, but when I look ahead everything is foggy. I didn't know a family could go through so much pain. I smile when inside I am broken and I might be smiling at you, but probably 5 minutes before you saw me I was crying. I thank God for the people he has put in my life to help me get through all this and I will try try try not to lose faith, but every single day that I get bad news and can't make it to work because my child is too sick make me test my faith I won't lie. I will try and continue to do what I have to do and I hope that I don't have to leave Florida due to struggles because this was my daughters wish to move here, but it is getting harder and harder to make it through every single day. On that note I hope everyone has a great day and great weekend.
Crying with my son is heartbreaking he is so heartbroken over all this I'm crying so hard my chest and eyes and head hurt this breaks me more than you can I love my kids so much
I feel like I might be going back home to PA soon. I don't know, but I am having too many struggles here. I really want to make it work, but the rent is so high over here and so is the light one month of light was almost 400 that is crazy.
feeling like I am just dreaming and I will wake up soon and go back to my house in Allentown PA before all this got real. I kind of miss that house and really smile at the good times we had, but no worries I know those good times will come again.
my son is so sick now and can't be around his sister until he is better now I have 2 sick kids what next. You know what I don't even care anymore.
My chest hurts and I feel so sick I know it's depression and anxiety but I feel so sick that it makes me feel like something serious is wrong I can't even cry anymore I have no tears left.
Depression through the roof I really need to get some rest before I collapse. I also want to thank everyone that is helping us emotionally and financially I didn't even have groceries and thanks to these people we can eat. I know everyone has financial problems and it's hard to help others in need but if you only knew what we are going through and see it you would understand. I thank God for each and every single person in my life right now that loves you and thank those who will spare what they can. God bless you all.
Well Alize was not feeling well today. She is okay, but it was a rough day and I was unable to make it to work again. I have faith that little by little we will pick up from this stronger than ever, but today I was not strong at all. Feeling very down and sad looking at how much my kids are going through. I didn't know a family can go through so much in such little time.
Praying the night will go by great and everything goes smooth during the night so I can work a full shift tomorrow.
Ok everyone my daughter is released to Ronald McDonald house this is the best news in a long time she will be there for a while but it means she can see daylight after 2 months of white walls I pray that this battle will end soon and we can be together at home again and enjoy beautiful sunny Florida.
Rough day, but glad I am at home getting ready to go to bed. I need some rest and some time to relax my mind so I can get to work tomorrow and work a full day to provide something for my family. Hopefully my princess will be ok all day and I can work with no worries. In Jesus name Amen. Even though I stress everyday and complain I also want to make sure I thank him for feeding us every single day and providing us with shelter. I love you Lord.
I need prayers my way Alize is not doing well again. Was able to go to work yesterday and started to get happy thinking things would finally get better, but she was looking great and bam. Here we go again :(
Well just got up to wake my son up for school we went through a big scare last night and I didn't get much sleep but hopefully I can take a nice nap now after he leaves.
Just listened to my son tell me how much he misses his bed and furniture I hope I can pick my stuff up eventually.
I have been very strong through everything we have gone through, but I think finally I am at the point that I just can't deal with anymore pain. Seeing your child go through so much and at the same time watching your other children going through so much sadness kills your soul. I am not sure how much longer I can go on with this. I can barely get to work anymore because I just can't function. I just want to sleep and sleep and now I do understand why Alize just sleeps and sleeps just so she doesn't have to feel reality. Life is hard and I do appreciate that God gave us the opportunity to be in this world, but we have gone through so much that I can't say I have had the chance to really enjoy life. I will continue to wait to see when this day will come, but at this point I don't even know how I can pay my bills lately with so much going on and their is not a day that is not sad in my life looking into the eyes of my sick baby girl. I know I might be expressing too much on FB and not sure who really cares and who doesn't, but I feel so lonely and just need to vent even if it's to a fb wall. I sit here writing on fb while the tears go down my face just thinking about holding my kids and just being able to do normal things like watch a movie together or just playing a game. I have never struggled so much in my life and I thank everyone that has helped us financially, but it's sad how I have to find ways to feed my family and at the same time try to spend time with my daughter and lonely kids. I can't even express anymore what I am feeling inside and I am not good at actually talking to people about my problems, but I have to at least write about it because if I don't I will blow up inside. I hope for a better tomorrow and I want to bless everyone in my life. May God be with all of us every single moment of our life. I will lay down and just imagine a normal life and think about all the good memories I have had in my home. I hope one day we can look back at this experience and just be thankful we made it, but for right now right at this moment our life is just filled with pain and worry. Gn everyone and thank you to those that actually take the time to read and answer back just to lift my spirits.
why why why?????? I am sitting here just thinking about what our life use to be like. Everyone tells me not to ask why, but I just have to WHY?????
No one will ever know exactly what my family is going through. I honestly don't know how we have done it so far. My little girl has truly shown me how strong of a heart she really has and that I know she got from her mother because she acts just like me. When she is at her weakest she just stays quite and lets it ride. People ask us how are we and the answer is always we are ok, but only the people who really know me know that I am lying out my ass. We will survive this battle. I don't know how will we rise after so much pain, but I pray that we will be able to look back at this one day and say wow we went through that.
No one will ever really know what we going through but I will get my family through this one way or another
Got half results today and aml cells are 100% donor. She still has 20% of her own cells in her body, but she is taking medications to kill those. The doctor is very pleased with the results. We are still waiting for the bone marrow results this is all based on blood results. She will also get tested again in a few weeks to make sure the 80% that is left of her is 100% donor. Keep the prayers coming because we are beating this stupid cancer :)
Surgery went well thank you Lord. Now we have to wait for the results. I will keep everyone updated.
And she is off to surgery. God how much has this little angel suffered Pls heal my baby already we had enough of this.
Well today we are preparing for her surgery tomorrow which will let us know if the transplant worked which I have faith in God that it did. I will get the results next week so please everyone pray pray pray. Thanks
Just watched my baby girl drink like 9 pills and drink 2 needles full of medicine right in front of me in like 3 mins I hate watching this it's so sad other young girls are out having fun what's fun for her is being able to swallow all the pills.
Well surgery is on Thursday when we find out about the transplant. Prayers are really needed big time.
Sometimes I just don't understand how quickly things can change. I think I should go see a doctor as much as I fake it my shoulders are killing me I don't know how much more I can take.I want this to end already please.
Well today is a sad day for me. As much as I try to smile at the world and act like nothing is going on my heart hurts more and more. I know in my heart that things will be okay, but this is hard and long battle. I don't even have the energy anymore to even get up and go out or even cook. Today my little girl wrapped herself up in a blanket just to hide reality and to tell you the truth that is not a bad idea. I might just do the same thing tonight. Seeing the pain of someone fighting cancer is the hardest thing a person can go through and when it is your own child it is even harder. I keep looking up and pray that the Lord above looks down and cures my little girl and help us get our life back together so that one day we can all go together to the beach and just run and run like we never have before with no worries in the world. I want to run with my 4 babies through the beach all day till the sun goes down and we are worn to pieces and lay in the sand to watch that sun leave the ocean. I pray that one day this will be my dream come true.
It looks like my daughter will be leaving to the Ronald McDonald house next week sometime. She will be there for about 1 to 2 months, but this is great because that means she is closer to coming home. They will be doing her bone marrow and spinal tap surgery next week to see if my son's bone marrow took over 100% which I know it did. It sucks a little bit because she can't be alone in the Ronald McDonald house so I don't know how we will be doing it all, but we will come up with something. I am just happy my baby is finally leaving the hospital and going to a different location so that she can breath real Florida air. Thank you Lord and please pray for next weeks surgery.
When I feel alone I realize that even though I am going through a nightmare I am very blessed. Thanks to all the support that I have received emotionally and financially. God bless everyone thank you I can't say it enough.
well Alize is sick again. They are not sure if it is an infection or what is going on so I need prayers pls.
My daughter is a fighter and will continue to fight until she is home with us again. God is great and he will get us through. Today I was wondering how I would do some groceries and an Angel did a donation God bless everyone for the emotional support and financial support during these hard times.
Life dealing with cancer is very hard for the patient and also for the family. I don't wish this pain on anyone. I see my daughter suffer everyday and it hurts so much now I have the worst depression ever. I am trying to shake it off but easier said than done. God bless my family and give my daughter strength to go on.
Alize had emergency surgery yesterday but it went well she is feeling better but does have some pain. I hope she comes home soon.
Ok everyone here is the real update. Everyone is calling me confused so basically she is not cancer free, but the surgery went well. We have to wait a month before she goes through another surgery to see if it did work which I have faith that it did. My son's marrow needs to be hers 100% and if it has just a low percent she needs a transplant again. In her little heart she feels like she is cured 100% and I want her to believe this because that will make her better. Her spirits count a big part in this so please keep her spirits going. I have blocked her from this post so please don't share any info with her. In about a week or so she will start to experience really bad side effects due to the marrow and that is the scary part, but it is part of this battle. Side effects include sezuires and not being able to speak or eat. I know God will get her through all of this and I am counting down the days when she returns to me cured. Thanks for all your support everyone and following our situation it really means a lot and your prayers have gotten us through all this. Thank you.
Pls we really need help my daughter has surgery on Friday and I need a $500 deductible if anyone can help Pls do. I am out of options after this move. Thank you.
Well we are loving Florida she is scheduled for her first appt on Tuesday. The medical insurance is not great but I have a lot of medical expenses but I know God will make it happen for us.
Going to miss my baby girl sad but excited
As everyone already knows I am moving to Florida today so I can use any little change anyone can spare this is a hard move and cash is tight thanks God bless.
God Pls take care of my nena her heart rate just got dangerously low.
She is out of surgery it did not go well she needs surgery again tomorrow. This is not good but what can I do.
Surgery is not going well Pls God let this work Pls she has been under a long time Pls pray Pls
We are at the hospital waiting for the surgery to begin keep the prayers coming Pls
I want to thank everyone once again for helping my family during such a hard time. Alize goes back to the hospital tomorrow and the packing really begins. I'm scared but looking forward a new fresh start. Keep the prayers coming.
As everyone already knows I'm moving back to FL so now more than ever I could use some help to start things rolling Pls help us out ty
So stressed I can't take all this. One can only take so much
Going back to hospital on Tuesday :(
Lord give us strength because we can't do this with out you.
My daughter is doing great. We have an appointment tomorrow wish us luck.
Thx again for the donations I know times are hard so I appreciate it even more. Any bit helps and you don't know how much it helps. Thanks again and God bless. My daughter is doing good she is happy to be home and we love having her home.
Thx everyone for the help this means a lit to us
Enjoying my kids watching movies wish it would be like this all the time.
Alize is coming home for a short break before going back to the hospital for more treatments. I am so happy even if it's only a few days.