Drowning, not waving
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After a difficult couple of years I thought I had turned a corner. I had won a place at university and got myself a part-time job. My brain however, had other ideas and since March I have been on a downward spiral into the hell of poor mental health. I am waiting lists so long for treatment other than medication, which so far hasn't helped.
The limited state benefits I can apply for are still being processed but again, I was declined for one due to being assessed by a physiotherapist, so that is being reconsidered. The other is still in the assessment phase and with reported lengthy delays it's anyone's guess when that will will be moved forward.
I'm not one to go begging but right now, I have nothing left of my pride, I'm desperate. I'm more desperate than I thought possible. I need to pay my friend back the money I owe and I need to keep mine and my cats home. It's the only things keeping me going, the roof over my head and knowing that my cats are reliant on me. If I didn't have those responsibilities I can only see me slipping further into the black hole.
Anything you can give will help. It will pay my debts and help me keep my home long enough to get back on my feet. That's all I want, the basics.
You can be assured when I emerge out the other side, I will pay it forward.
Thank you.
There seems to be some questions over my authenticity, which greatly saddens me. Want to read my blog to see how things have really been for me for the last couple of months? Go ahead: http://attentionseekingsurvivor.wordpress.com/
I'm sorry if this campaign makes you uncomfortable, it makes me uncomfortable but it's the truth. Friends have helped with some food shopping and last year a charity also helped with some food. It's embarrassing to be so desperate and I'm ashamed to have to try and find ways to make ends meet while still waiting for benefit decisions, more than 7 and 4 months after applying. I live in fear and terror every day that this is the month I stop being able to pay rent and I lose my home, I fear it would be the last straw.
If you want to ask questions you can. I am genuine.
The limited state benefits I can apply for are still being processed but again, I was declined for one due to being assessed by a physiotherapist, so that is being reconsidered. The other is still in the assessment phase and with reported lengthy delays it's anyone's guess when that will will be moved forward.
I'm not one to go begging but right now, I have nothing left of my pride, I'm desperate. I'm more desperate than I thought possible. I need to pay my friend back the money I owe and I need to keep mine and my cats home. It's the only things keeping me going, the roof over my head and knowing that my cats are reliant on me. If I didn't have those responsibilities I can only see me slipping further into the black hole.
Anything you can give will help. It will pay my debts and help me keep my home long enough to get back on my feet. That's all I want, the basics.
You can be assured when I emerge out the other side, I will pay it forward.
Thank you.
There seems to be some questions over my authenticity, which greatly saddens me. Want to read my blog to see how things have really been for me for the last couple of months? Go ahead: http://attentionseekingsurvivor.wordpress.com/
I'm sorry if this campaign makes you uncomfortable, it makes me uncomfortable but it's the truth. Friends have helped with some food shopping and last year a charity also helped with some food. It's embarrassing to be so desperate and I'm ashamed to have to try and find ways to make ends meet while still waiting for benefit decisions, more than 7 and 4 months after applying. I live in fear and terror every day that this is the month I stop being able to pay rent and I lose my home, I fear it would be the last straw.
If you want to ask questions you can. I am genuine.
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Shona Pugh
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