Sex Reassignment Surgery Male to Female
Donation protected
Hello everyone, this is Alex speaking. I've been thinking long and hard about what I want to say in this and it's been hard to try and find the words to describe how much I need this surgery, but I'm going to do my best. Essentially, I am a woman trapped inside a man's body. I was born in the wrong body and it's difficult to deal with that every single day. While growing up, I had to deal with all sorts of people telling me that I couldn't do some things or wear some things because I was a "boy". It frustrated me to no end, and even though I've always known that I have been a girl there was no good way to tell anyone. I tried all through my life to have people see me as a girl but they would either say that it was stupid or that "I'm not a girl so why does it matter." It was a struggle to go in front of everyone and have them think I was a boy.
And public affairs were not the only problem; the biggest problem was how I felt about myself. I avoided looking in mirrors at all costs because I was disgusted with the body I was forced to have. When I was changing clothes or showering I would always go as fast as I could so that I couldn't see the horrifying image that was my body. How I've always told people to picture the feelings that I experience is to have them look in a mirror and having the only thing you see is a stranger. The person in the mirror was never myself. I thought that I was going to have to live like this forever, and that scared me.
But then I started to do a little research on my own. I stayed up through long hours of the night trying to find if there were others like me, and as it would turn out there are a lot of people that feel the same as me; people who are trapped. We are transgender. Me specifically I'm a transgender female. I had found out that there were treatments that I could do that would make me change into the person I was meant to be on the outside, so that I could match who I was on the inside.
Going into it I knew that I was going to be rejected by some people and that they would hate me forever, but I was okay with that. If they don't love me for who I truly am then that is they're loss and I won't let it get me down. I went through the therapy, and my therapist was happy to say that I was the happiest patient that had ever been in his office. I told him that was because I knew that I was on the path to becoming my real self. That's the truth.
After that, I made my appointment with my endocrinologist so that I could start my Hormone Replacement Therapy, and sure enough February 1st 2013 was the day that I started my Hormone Treatment! I have grown so very much from my hormones and I have seen so much great improvement that it makes me smile when I see it! My friends and some of my family have been 100% okay with my change and still love me all the same; though, some others feel differently.
I have lost a few people in my life. My father has rejected me completely, but I expected this because of his religious background and I'm okay with it. My mother - though she says that she accepts me - has told me in so many different ways that she wishes that I was just normal, that is the most hurtful thing that anyone has ever said to me. As I stand I have lost all connections with my father, and my mother is someone who I must live with because I really can't afford to move.
In my area people are not entirely open to transgender individuals, especially when it comes to hiring people. As a result, it's always been proven difficult to get a job when legally on paper I am a boy though when I am looked at and heard from, I appear as a girl. Most businesses just don't feel like hiring me and going through the hassle I guess.
Somehow I have been able to keep up with my medication bills and I have been saving small amounts of my money for my Reassignment Surgery, but without a proper job or two I barely have money for food; let alone money for surgery. This is why I have come here today. I have come to beg on my hands and knees for you all to please help me. I'm afraid for myself with the life I am forced to live. I need this surgery so that I can become a girl through and through, so that the world will recognize me as legally female, and so that I can finally love myself and look in a mirror and cry. I want to be able to see myself and say, "That's me; this is who I am." I want this more than anything else in the world.
So please, even if you cannot donate a lot, every penny counts. My goal is to have the full $20,000.00 by February of 2014; that is when I am allowed to have my surgery. I appreciate all of you who have read my story and I applaud to those who are willing to donate to my cause. I feel that with all your help I can reach this goal so please donate if you can.
Thank you~
And public affairs were not the only problem; the biggest problem was how I felt about myself. I avoided looking in mirrors at all costs because I was disgusted with the body I was forced to have. When I was changing clothes or showering I would always go as fast as I could so that I couldn't see the horrifying image that was my body. How I've always told people to picture the feelings that I experience is to have them look in a mirror and having the only thing you see is a stranger. The person in the mirror was never myself. I thought that I was going to have to live like this forever, and that scared me.
But then I started to do a little research on my own. I stayed up through long hours of the night trying to find if there were others like me, and as it would turn out there are a lot of people that feel the same as me; people who are trapped. We are transgender. Me specifically I'm a transgender female. I had found out that there were treatments that I could do that would make me change into the person I was meant to be on the outside, so that I could match who I was on the inside.
Going into it I knew that I was going to be rejected by some people and that they would hate me forever, but I was okay with that. If they don't love me for who I truly am then that is they're loss and I won't let it get me down. I went through the therapy, and my therapist was happy to say that I was the happiest patient that had ever been in his office. I told him that was because I knew that I was on the path to becoming my real self. That's the truth.
After that, I made my appointment with my endocrinologist so that I could start my Hormone Replacement Therapy, and sure enough February 1st 2013 was the day that I started my Hormone Treatment! I have grown so very much from my hormones and I have seen so much great improvement that it makes me smile when I see it! My friends and some of my family have been 100% okay with my change and still love me all the same; though, some others feel differently.
I have lost a few people in my life. My father has rejected me completely, but I expected this because of his religious background and I'm okay with it. My mother - though she says that she accepts me - has told me in so many different ways that she wishes that I was just normal, that is the most hurtful thing that anyone has ever said to me. As I stand I have lost all connections with my father, and my mother is someone who I must live with because I really can't afford to move.
In my area people are not entirely open to transgender individuals, especially when it comes to hiring people. As a result, it's always been proven difficult to get a job when legally on paper I am a boy though when I am looked at and heard from, I appear as a girl. Most businesses just don't feel like hiring me and going through the hassle I guess.
Somehow I have been able to keep up with my medication bills and I have been saving small amounts of my money for my Reassignment Surgery, but without a proper job or two I barely have money for food; let alone money for surgery. This is why I have come here today. I have come to beg on my hands and knees for you all to please help me. I'm afraid for myself with the life I am forced to live. I need this surgery so that I can become a girl through and through, so that the world will recognize me as legally female, and so that I can finally love myself and look in a mirror and cry. I want to be able to see myself and say, "That's me; this is who I am." I want this more than anything else in the world.
So please, even if you cannot donate a lot, every penny counts. My goal is to have the full $20,000.00 by February of 2014; that is when I am allowed to have my surgery. I appreciate all of you who have read my story and I applaud to those who are willing to donate to my cause. I feel that with all your help I can reach this goal so please donate if you can.
Thank you~
Organizer
Alexandria Vesela
Organizer
Zeeland, MI
