In Loving Memory Brian Mattyasovsky
I wish you weren't reading this,and I never was writing this letter….
On April 23,2017 Brian Mattyasovsky tragically lost his life.
I'm trying to help his family in any way possible at this tragic time. This fundraiser is aimed to defray any upcoming cost the Mattyasovsky family will encounter both in the immediate and distant future.
As we grieve, we must also remember that in addition to this tragic loss, there is now a family facing a terrible uphill climb in the coming months.
We still want to remember the amazing man that Brian was, his smile, his laugh, his witty sense of humor, and the fact that we all are better people for having called him our friend. Brian was one in a million and loved by so many!! A true gentleman.
If the last thing Brian could say to his loved ones was it would be…
Life will be different when I’m gone; you won’t like it and you may want to fight it. You will want to scream out loud in agony, but when you pick yourself back up off the floor, like I expect you to, remember that love. Let that love emanate through your body. I am there, our love is there, I am just gone from sight.
You all are aware that I always had high expectations of myself and I have even higher expectations of you now that I am gone. When every cell in your being wants to give up and wallow because the sadness and pain are unbearable, I want you to take some time and allow yourself that, but then I need you to put two feet on the ground for me. When you cannot do it for yourself, do it for me. I no longer have that privilege.
You are going to want the world to stop turning, and you will want to holler at all of the people continuing their lives while you are stuck in this vast array of darkness, but when it is dark, I want you to wake up and watch the sun rise. Each day, when you feel like you cannot put one foot in front of the other, watch the sun slowly rise through the clouds and know that I am still there with you.
When night falls and the sorrow rears its ugly head, go outside and look up at the stars and the moon and realize the intricacies of the universe and speak to me, I am there. We are always connected, you just need to find a way to keep that connection…it may be through a song, or a beautiful sunset, or some crazy thing we did together, but it is there, and it will always be there.
You now have the opportunity to expand your heart into something you didn’t know existed; I have no doubt in your ability to do so. Most importantly, I need you all to live your lives with strength and love…two qualities that I showed as I lived my life. I need you all to live boldly, with passion and determination. I expect you to love with everything inside of your soul, unapologetically. Love is all we have to give of ourselves, and love is what is going to carry you through this unbearable pain. So when I am gone, love big, love fully with every piece of your heart, and don’t leave anything ever left unsaid.
Speak my name often, tell my story, and teach everyone who comes into your path. Close your eyes and open your spirit and you will feel me beside you…guiding you every step of the way. You all gave me the best life a man could ask for.
In loving memory of Brian Mattyasovsky. Thoughts and prayers are with his family and all of the others affected by this tragedy.
We are so thankful for any donations, support, or prayers. Please share this fundraiser and help me be a shoulder for this family to lean on in this time.
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change the courage to change the things I cannot change and the wisdom to know the difference. "
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