Hello, can you help me?
Hello World, my name is Tomi. I have a lot of problems at the moment and I need some help. I´m going trough some difficult time in my life and I just can´t make it one my own.
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I don't even know where to start...
Well, a friend of mine showed me this site and he wanted to start a campaign for me, but I decided to write it myself. Because I want to be honest.
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This is my story:
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Since I was a child I loved languages and everything that involved human origin and history. For me, it was always fascinating when someone could speak more than one language and I loved and still love the Indiana Jones movies. You know, the discovery of something ancient is very intriguing. And it was a long and hard way, but I made it and found a way to combine those two things and moved to Germany. I began to study the German Language and Literature and Prehistoric Archaeology at the Albert-Ludwigs-Universität in Freiburg in Breisgau in Germany. My language skill is C1 in German it took me a very long time. I'm sorry for my English, I learned it by myself. It's not that great, but I'm doing my best.
But of course, there´s a catch,
my whole family is very conservative and they have a really narrow world view in some aspects of life. Well, like my whole home country. My whole life I had to hide who I am and act like someone I´m not. It was horrible and I always was afraid that someone will find out and beat me up. For a gay person surroundings like that can be very dangerous and depressive. I knew that the only thing I have is my education and that’s my only ticket to get out of that “prison”.
This is now the first time in my life where I can be myself and not being afraid of it. And now it starts to break apart.
A few weeks ago my parents found out that I'm gay and it didn’t end very well for me. I can never go back home again and they don’t even talk to me anymore. I have no one left and it feels horrible. There is always this feeling in my head: why me? I have come this far and now I maybe have to give up on my studies and practically my dreams. I´m far away from home and don´t have a family anymore. It´s just too much. I have nothing left, besides my studies and it´s not going very well for now, without any help from outside.
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My family won't call me for Christmas, no one will call me for my birthday. I'm alone in a foreign country. I just don't understand the world anymore. I have no one to talk to, so I'm going to a therapist to survive this period somehow.
But I just don't want to give up, I have put so much time and effort to make something out of my life. I don't want to buy a car or a TV or something like that. I just want to have a chance and live a normal life.
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As you know my parents helped me in the beginning and now this help is gone. I work of course too, but my earnings are limited. I have to go to the lectures.
I earn around 400 Euros a month, but to make it through the whole month I need around 700 Euros. (My parents helped me with the rest to be able to survive)
My rant is monthly 300 Euros (all costs inclusive.)
My health insurance monthly 170 Euros (this is the minimum I have to pay, without I can´t study).
Then a student needs books, notebooks. I have to print/copy something every day, which I have to pay. There is always something. And the rest goes for food or sometimes on new shoes or something like that (of course something cheap, I don´t care what “writing” is on it). I eat once a day and the insurance company is sitting on my neck. I really have nothing left.
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I have asked for a student loan and I can get one, but I have to study here for at least 3 years and I have 2 more to go. It will be very difficult to survive the next 2 years or even impossible for me how things are for now.
I always try to be a good person, to stay optimistic. But sometimes it´s really hard, like now. The lectures started and I don´t even have the needed books. I use my notebooks from last year that have some free pages. I sold my laptop to pay the rest of my health insurance. I work as much as I can and I'm allowed to, but it´s not enough. I´m so scared of the future because I don´t know what will happen to me. I really don´t know what to do.
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I don´t want to be disrespectful or rude or anything like that. I´m asking you for some help, to continue my education and a chance to make it in life.
For the next 2 years, I need around 15.000+ Euros, this IS a lot of money (for everyone). With some help I can make it through the next 2 years, till I can get the student loan. In the holidays, I can work full time, but I can't make near enough money to survive. So I hope that people from around the world can help me with 5000 Euros to make my life somewhat easier, that money will help me trough the next two years. And I don't want the money because I'm gay, I'm asking for help to make something out of my life. Help me survive this difficult time.
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Every contribution will help me out or you can just share my story, maybe someone else will be able to help me. I don´t have a Facebook and I just made a twitter account, so I´m not able to share it myself. Thank you!
This is my life and this are my dreams and hopes, if you can help me, I would my whole life be grateful, because I wouldn’t make it without you.
Thank you very much!
P.s. As you see in the picture, this are my winter shoes. My situation is really bad :-(
