Kamie's Gender Transition

                                                ~Kamie's Transition Fund!~

       Hello, my name is Kamie Eve Miller, and I was born with the wrong body. I am an 18 year old transgender girl (MtF) with a dream... A dream to finally be comfortable in my own skin. But I need your help!

      I am currently employeed serving food at a retirement community, living at home with my mother, stepfather, and two siblings, and have been on HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy) for almost a year now. There is only so much I can do in terms of paying for my transition at this point in my life, so I have decided to create a gofundme in hopes of being at least one step closer to my goals. 

      Some of the things I am aiming for with this general transition fund would include helping pay for: 

~Voice Feminization Therapy and/or Surgery

~Tracheal Shave (reduction of the adam's apple)

~SRS/GRS ("bottom" surgery)

                                                              ~My Story~

     I was born and raised in northern Utah, and it's where I've spent my whole life. My mother had me while she was still in high school, and because of certain struggles that come with being a teenage mother, my father stopped being a major part of my life while I was still young. My mother and I then lived with my great-grandparents until I was about 5, and ever since we have moved around to different parts of northern Utah.

     At a very young age, I realized that I was different.. but not in the "special snowflake" kind of way. There were so many different things going on in my head that I could not explain. They were these very strong and intense raw emotions and thoughts without any clear outlines. 

    Not ever having a solid father figure in my life, I was never very in tune with being masculine. I found it was much easier for me to relate to, and get along with, the other girls. At a very young age where other boys were obsessing over things like cars, action figures, and building things.. I was obsessing over exactly what color, style, and placement would look best in each room of my little toy house that I had. I absolutely loved dolls, but it was mostly because I really liked creating imaginary scenarios for different imaginary characters to react to (and because I've always had a knack for what colors go with what, especially in fashion and interior design). When my mother and I were living with my great-grandparents, my great-grandmother would always let me put on a bunch of jewelry that she kept in this little box, and I would act out what it would be like if I was a girl (she also let me put on lipstick and nail polish a few times). At such a young age, you don't really know Why you like certain things. You just Do.

     It wouldn't be until I was about 8 years old and discovering online gaming that I started to realize something major was missing in my life. I started playing Runescape (hey, it was majorly fun at one point, we all know that) and I decided to make a female character with pink hair. I never made a female character in any other game before this, and I just really liked the way the pink hair looked. I decided to keep my character as she was because I thought she looked amazing, and I continued on with my Runescape career with this character. After a long time had been spent on this character, and after small roleplaying bits with friends, I started to ask myself "Why wasn't I born a girl?" I had slowly began to feel like I Should've been born female, and that if I ever got to personally decide on what gender I was, I'd pick female without even a second thought. But I still didn't know what this really meant, and I felt there wasn't anything I could do about the way I felt.. So I kinda just ignored those feelings and went on with life.

     But then I met someone. At age 15, I had found my first true love with another human being. She introduced me to so many things that all had such a huge impact on me, and the way I looked at other people. The whole time we were dating, she would talk about how she didn't feel that she was very feminine, and had one day hoped to have her breasts and other womanly parts removed. She was also still just figuring herself out, and looking back on all this, she was somewhere in the grey area of being non-binary or bigender. Either way, she had opened up the doors and introduced me to what being transgender was. We both slowly pieced it together that I was in fact transgender myself, and I grew to be happy about that.

     We did in fact break up later on due to unrelated causes, but this is where my journey really took off. Over the course of the next 3 years, I would finally start piecing together all my unanswered questions about myself. My strong and raw emotions when I was little? I was able to conclude that I am a manic bipolar. I did more research on what being transgender is, and over time I started creating goals for myself, and came out to a few friends I was really close with. Eventually, about a month before my 18th birthday, I came out to my mother and most of my family. After a while of letting it sink in and be comfortable with it, my mother helped me get on HRT at the end of January, 2015.

    Now almost another year has passed. This summary is a very short and condensed version of my life's story, and I couldn't hope to actually type a full version out. I've been through a lot the last 4 years, and even though most of this bio sounds cheery.. I did struggle with major anxiety, depression, self harm, gender dysphoria, and more uncommon suicidal thoughts during most of it. But I can proudly say I've made it through the tunnel and reached a very warm and comforting light by being able to feel so in tune with myself. I am happy to be able to finally call myself a woman without any fear or shyness. Thank you all for reading my story, it means much more to me than I could ever express. Have a wonderful day!