I Need Someone to Have Faith in Me!
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All I am hoping for is what I need; food, shelter and a chance to stand up tall again. Is that too much to ask when you have truly spent your entire life doing all the right things possible? No drugs, although brought up by a drug user/alcoholic and drug dealer. I can't even take pain meds for my arthritis because I am allergic to narcotics. I try to be a stand up person with a vast amount of integrity. I am smart and began college at 41, the same year my daughter began college. I am loyal to a fault. I have saved a few lives, brought up two amazing children alone (as far as parenting is concerned) and I am usually the first person people call when they are in need of help because I can be relied upon and I am everyones cheerleader. The problem is that now I need help and I need a cheer team. And yet, with all this I still find myself here, in the bell jar. Please help if you can. It will not go without appreciation. I promise. <3
Everything that I have lost recently has been shocking and painful. Life altering as well. In two months more shocking losses have come my way then in my entire life. Things I was not prepared for and things that still make no logical sense at all. Things I could not have prepared for any better than I was because, you can't prepare for the improbable or the unexpected, particularly when you have near nothing in the first place. And the loss of health, well, no one is ever prepared to find out that another person has stolen that from them. I suffer from severe chronic depression, PTSD, A.D.D. ,Chronic pain in my entire body, but in my spine for the last 25 years caused by DDD, Arthritis, inflammation and who knows what else at this point.
Anxiety, female problems for decades, IBS for decades, I have two broken bridges in my mouth, one on each side on top, each being 3 teeth, so 3 useless teeth or spaces on top on each side. An exposed nerve and huge hole in a real tooth on top in back on one side and a missing tooth on the bottom on the other, and countless lost fillings in all my other teeth front included from clenching and grinding my jaw in my sleep. This has been going on for two years and at this point is another chronic source of pain. The joints in my hands swell and I lose the use of my left thumb now. I have chronic foot, toe, calf and thigh spasms as well but less often I recently began having debilitating ovarian pain in BOTH ovaries which lasts for days, causes me to have fevers and scares the heck out of me. I lose my ability to think properly on occasion as well. I assume it is from poor nutrition, infection and stress.
This is just my physical list. This does not include the loss of food stamps, financial aid, and my old way of survival as a seller on Ebay and Craigslist that I have been hit with since I moved to this rural area. I have a vehicle that is illegal and very very unsafe. (This vehcle does not run at all anymore)
I live in a rural area without grocery stores or any of the basics of normal life. I shop at Circle K when I have any money to spend because the only car I can use has no registration and can only be risked to drive late and in the dark. The town market closes with the sun here and it is insanely expensive anyway. I can not walk around at all at night due to wild animals and fear of being attacked. And I live at my moms who makes me feel like satans child every chance she gets, even when she masks it in niceties. I am fully aware that I am not wanted. I'm hoping for a chance. Just a chance or break so I can live again. I'm hoping for a miracle.
miracle
[mir-uh-kuh l]
noun
1.
an effect or extraordinary event in the physical world that surpasses all known human or natural powers and is ascribed to a supernatural cause.
2.
such an effect or event manifesting or considered as a work of God.
3.
a wonder; marvel.
4.
a wonderful or surpassing example of some quality:
a miracle of modern acoustics.
Thank you for your time and attention to my plea!
All I am hoping for is what I need; food, shelter and a chance to stand up tall again. Is that too much to ask when you have truly spent your entire life doing all the right things possible? No drugs, although brought up by a drug user/alcoholic and drug dealer. I can't even take pain meds for my arthritis because I am allergic to narcotics. I try to be a stand up person with a vast amount of integrity. I am smart and began college at 41, the same year my daughter began college. I am loyal to a fault. I have saved a few lives, brought up two amazing children alone (as far as parenting is concerned) and I am usually the first person people call when they are in need of help because I can be relied upon and I am everyones cheerleader. The problem is that now I need help and I need a cheer team. And yet, with all this I still find myself here, in the bell jar. Please help if you can. It will not go without appreciation. I promise. <3
Everything that I have lost recently has been shocking and painful. Life altering as well. In two months more shocking losses have come my way then in my entire life. Things I was not prepared for and things that still make no logical sense at all. Things I could not have prepared for any better than I was because, you can't prepare for the improbable or the unexpected, particularly when you have near nothing in the first place. And the loss of health, well, no one is ever prepared to find out that another person has stolen that from them. I suffer from severe chronic depression, PTSD, A.D.D. ,Chronic pain in my entire body, but in my spine for the last 25 years caused by DDD, Arthritis, inflammation and who knows what else at this point.
Anxiety, female problems for decades, IBS for decades, I have two broken bridges in my mouth, one on each side on top, each being 3 teeth, so 3 useless teeth or spaces on top on each side. An exposed nerve and huge hole in a real tooth on top in back on one side and a missing tooth on the bottom on the other, and countless lost fillings in all my other teeth front included from clenching and grinding my jaw in my sleep. This has been going on for two years and at this point is another chronic source of pain. The joints in my hands swell and I lose the use of my left thumb now. I have chronic foot, toe, calf and thigh spasms as well but less often I recently began having debilitating ovarian pain in BOTH ovaries which lasts for days, causes me to have fevers and scares the heck out of me. I lose my ability to think properly on occasion as well. I assume it is from poor nutrition, infection and stress.
This is just my physical list. This does not include the loss of food stamps, financial aid, and my old way of survival as a seller on Ebay and Craigslist that I have been hit with since I moved to this rural area. I have a vehicle that is illegal and very very unsafe. (This vehcle does not run at all anymore)
I live in a rural area without grocery stores or any of the basics of normal life. I shop at Circle K when I have any money to spend because the only car I can use has no registration and can only be risked to drive late and in the dark. The town market closes with the sun here and it is insanely expensive anyway. I can not walk around at all at night due to wild animals and fear of being attacked. And I live at my moms who makes me feel like satans child every chance she gets, even when she masks it in niceties. I am fully aware that I am not wanted. I'm hoping for a chance. Just a chance or break so I can live again. I'm hoping for a miracle.
miracle
[mir-uh-kuh l]
noun
1.
an effect or extraordinary event in the physical world that surpasses all known human or natural powers and is ascribed to a supernatural cause.
2.
such an effect or event manifesting or considered as a work of God.
3.
a wonder; marvel.
4.
a wonderful or surpassing example of some quality:
a miracle of modern acoustics.
Thank you for your time and attention to my plea!
Organizer
Michele Clark Powell
Organizer
Anza, CA
