Update: I had my meeting with my transplant coordinator on Monday. It's been a lot to process, a lot to still process, I don't think I'll ever totally "get it". Starting in the beginning of December I'm going to start going through body function testing. Thy need to make sure that after all the chemo I've been through that they can still give me more and that my heart and lungs can handle it. Then I'll start doing daily injections of a drug that pulls stem cells out of my bone marrow into my bloodstream for harvesting. After a few days of that party, ill get hooked up to a machine that somehow pulls ally blood out of one arm, spins it all around in some machine and puts stuff back in the other arm minus these precious stem cells that then get frozen and shipped to NYC until New Years Eve. Weird. On NYE I'll check into the hospital for about 6 days of continuous chemo. This process will wipe out y bone marrow completely, along with all my hair again and I'm sure make me feel phenomenal in the process. Thhheeeennnnn I get the fancy frozen blood back and start the countdown in hopes that my body will start making new bone barrow and blood cells. I'm tired just typing it all. As anxious as I am about this process, I'm more excited to GET. MY. LIFE. BACK. Cancer, I am sooooooo over you. Thanks for all the support, peeps. Aloha.
Update (kinda). Aloha everyone! It's been a rough few weeks over here. I'm having emotional roller coaster rides daily. It's a struggle being on toxic drugs and physical activity limitations and missing my island home. I'm angry as hell sometimes that this cancer is screwing with me again. I'm terrified that I'm not a good mom everyday because I don't feel good, or I'm tired and don't have enough patience, or energy to play chase or soccer. I'm bored because I enjoy working and I feel unproductive and lazy when I'm "resting" and I haven't been able to work for what seems like forever. Sometimes the bright side of things seems really far away. I hope to have good news on Wednesday 11/5. That is the date of my next PET scan, so please everyone hope for remission so that I can start taking the next steps for the stem cell transplant and tell this cancer that I know I'm pretty effing awesome but that it really can't hang out with me anymore. Venting session: over. Sometimes it's not all sunshine and rainbows over here in cancer fighting land. Just keepin it real, peeps. Game face: back on. Much love y'all, spread the love, share the page.
Update (kinda). Aloha everyone! It's been a rough few weeks over here. I'm having emotional roller coaster rides daily. It's a struggle being on toxic drugs and physical activity limitations and missing my island home. I'm angry as hell sometimes that this cancer is screwing with me again. I'm terrified that I'm not a good mom everyday because I don't feel good, or I'm tired and don't have enough patience, or energy to play chase or soccer. I'm bored because I enjoy working and I feel unproductive and lazy when I'm "resting" and I haven't been able to work for what seems like forever. Sometimes the bright side of things seems really far away. I hope to have good news on Wednesday 11/5. That is the date of my next PET scan, so please everyone hope for remission so that I can start taking the next steps for the stem cell transplant and tell this cancer that I know I'm pretty effing awesome but that it really can't hang out with me anymore. Venting session: over. Sometimes it's not all sunshine and rainbows over here in cancer fighting land. Just keepin it real, peeps. Game face: back on. Much love y'all, spread the love, share the page. Xoxoxo, Laura
Aloha everyone! Made it through my first chemo at Yale. So far I'm scheduled for another chemo next week, and following that I'll have a PET scan to see how close to remission I am and how much more of this type chemo is needed before the big guns come out and prep for the stem cell transplant starts. I've been going though some crazy emotional ups and downs. Moving from Hawaii, adjusting to being back in CT, learning of my treatment plan, realizing I'm going to be stuck in the hospital in isolation for about a month, but not knowing exactly when, trying to arrange appointments and see old friends and deal with these crazy fall allergies (that I have NOT missed) and meeting some new friends has been exhausting to say the least. I hope to catch up with everyone soon, and oh do I miss Hawaii. I'm trying to keep focused on getting better and kicking this shit to the curb so that I may be back in my bikini as soon as possible. Please if any of you have any weekday free time, hit me up! I want to stay as active and as social as possible while I can!!! Much love and thank you to everyone all the time for all your posts, texts, and all the good vibes. Aloha, mahalo, xoxoxoxo
Finally a treatment update! It's been a crazy week being back in CT and trying to adjust to everything, and a nasty cold has made it a little tricky. However, I met with my new team at Yale yesterday and we are going to continue with my current chemo because I have to be in remission to start the steps for the stem cell transplant. Once that party starts, I'll be in the hospital for about a month and I will lose my hair again (I'm seriously more pissed about that anything). The recovery time is a few months so I'll need lots of visitors. :) that's the fun part. Thanks for all your concern and messages, as soon as I'm feeling better I'll be more social. :) Aloha!
Well. The past few days have been an emotional, physical roller coaster. I restarted chemo Monday and that was quite an.....experience. Bring back at the cancer center and re-hooked up through my port was surreal. Never say never, friends. Also, plane tickets for James and I are booked and we fly to CT September 10. Not sure what my treatment plan will be until I meet with the doctors at Yale. I'm having my ups and downs and trying to breathe through and keep on keepin on. I know I'll be back to Hawaii as soon as I'm healthy again. GTFO cancer, you aren't stealing my paradise. Hope to see all Hawaii ohana this Friday at cabanas pool bar in Waikiki from 5-9. Message me for details. Aloha! #laurabeatscancerroundtwo #everylittlethingsgonnabealright
Aloha everyone! Here's the latest. I start chemo on Monday morning. It's a new drug combo, and it's going to tear up my blood counts so I'll also need the really super fun (not) shot to boost my counts along with it. I'll be doing two rounds here in Hawaii and then I'll be going back to the mainland for more intense chemo and a stem cell transplant. That means I'll literally be living at the hospital for about a month. All your positive thoughts, good vibes and gifts really make all the difference. I read them all, sometimes multiple times a day. Much love..... #everylittlethingsgonnabealright
Aloha everyone! I'm currently going through a whole bunch of testing to see what my body can handle for this round of treatment. Operation Laura and James go back to the mainland for a while is starting, we are probably leaving Hawaii the first or second week of September. I'll be undergoing a stemcell transplant in CT and additional chemo for this round of treatment. I'll know more after my appointment on the 14th. Hawaii peeps save the date: august 22nd......fundraiser and going away party, details later this week. Mahalo for all the messages, donations and sweet thoughts. Let's kick some cancer ass, round two!!!!
Aloha everyone, here's the latest. I'm going to restart chemotherapy here in Hawaii within the next two weeks. Then I will have to pick up and move to CT for continuing treatment and a stem cell transplant at Yale. Quite a lot to process, and then there will also be recovery time in CT as well. Please continue to send all your good vibes, and pass the page on as well. Not going to lie, this ain't gonna be cheap or easy, cause that's not my style. Spread the love y'all !!! #laurabeatscancerroundtwo #everylittlethingsgonnabealright
I just got the all clear at my first post treatment checkup! Just trying to reach the end goal on here! Thanks for all the love and support everyone! Cancer picked the wrong girl indeed!! Aloha!
Well, friends.....we did it! I am officially cancer free. I'm healing up well from my port removal surgery and can go back to work and exercising as long as my body feels right. Thank you all so much for all of your love and support during this crazy year. You all have lifted me up countless times and I can never thank you enough. Mahalo for your kokua, share the love.
Miracles occur naturally as expressions of love. They are performed by those who temporarily have more for those who temporarily have less. This quote goes directly out to all of you. I am so amazed by all of your love and generosity and positivity and ass kicking vibes. Thank you doesn't even scratch the surface. I have my chemo port removal surgery on Monday and two more weeks of daily radiation and then, my dear friends, we did it!! I say WE because I never would have won this fight without all of you. Two more weeks! Let's do this!!
Aloha everyone! The hospital just called, I start my radiation course of treatment tomorrow. Send me all that good juju and energy, I'll surely need it! I'm feeling pretty anxious about starting, it's going to be an everyday Monday-Friday treatment for 4 weeks. The bright side is that the end is finally in sight. I can schedule my surgery to have my port removed, and once the radiation course is finished......I will have officially kicked cancers ass. It's been a long road so far and I'm going to keep on truckin with all your love and support. Share the love, share the page....goals have almost been met!! Love, Laura
Our relationship has been doomed from the start. You are trying to kill me, I am trying to kill you....it's hardly what one would call a healthy relationship. I get very angry with you, a lot. I curse you out aloud and under my breath and you have made me cry more times than I would like to admit. I've realized, however, that I need to thank you. I need to thank you for being too weak to win your fight against my mother so many years back. Nice try buddy, but she kicked your ass and she passed on the ability for me to do the same. So there. I need to thank you for showing me how many amazing, beautiful, generous, thoughtful people have my back. There's a lot, and I will win for them. I need to thank you for the quirky lil way you made me able to be somewhat of a stay at home mom, and I am so grateful for every second I have with my beautiful baby boy. I have to thank you for showing me my self worth is not what size I wear, or the length of my hair (damn you though, I had GOOD hair). I thank you for being so toxic in my body that you helped me to get rid of the toxins that I could in my life. Thank you for making me more sensitive, more aware and more compassionate. Thank you for making me more grateful. Thank you for showing me strength I didn't have. See, I don't hate you anymore. This, ole cancer, is why you WILL NOT win. So, you may kindly leave this party you weren't invited to. Adios, vamanos, gets to steppin, peace out. Thanks, but it's time to go.
Sincerely, your ass kicker, Laura
Just did a treatment yesterday, 2 more chemos to go! I'm also now getting bone marrow booster shots to try and keep my counts up. I can't finish chemo without them, another hurdle before the finish line. I have an appointment this week with my radiologist to determine how long I will need that course of treatment and when I can start working again thereafter. Thank you all for being supporters of my battle....I really think the end is in sight! Share the love, share the page. Please! #friendshelpingfriends #strangershelpingstrangers #cancersucks #eyesontheprize #iwillwin
Cancer, you're quite the sonofabitch. Good news: chemo is working and I have 4 more to go. Flip side: I am going to need radiation, and it's a daily treatment and will knock me on my ass. Any, every, allllllllll helps. A lot. You all have made me feel so lucky despite all the shit handed to me on a platter lately. Peace, love, aloha and tryin to stay positive. Share the love, share the page. :) let's reach some goals!!!!
Aloha and happy new year everyone! I am so thankful for the help and positivity from everyone. The chemo is getting harder and my blood counts haven't been that great so I'm tired and cranky a lot. I come on this page and read messages often to give myself the pick me up to get through. I will beat this, I'm more than halfway there and my last scan showed only microscopic signs of cancer! So by the power of social media, share this page....I'm hoping my story may help someone who has just been diagnosed or can help anyone having to deal with cancer bs. Maybe I can even get on Ellen! :) Share, share away and thank you all so much for your love and generosity. Screw you cancer!
Halfway (hopefully) through chemo. I'm not going to sugarcoat it, this sucks and it's getting really hard. I have a PET scan scheduled for his Friday, and that will tell my doctor how well the chemo is working and what the rest and how long my treatment plan will be and if I'll also need radiation. A lot of people have asked what I want for Christmas, and what will help. There isn't anything I want that can be bought or wrapped up. I just don't want to be sick anymore. I want the energy to play with my sweet baby James, I want my hair back, I want to feel like me again. I don't want to be the sick girl for Christmas. I know I'm going to beat this, I just want it to be done already. So for Christmas, be thankful for your health, be grateful for what you have instead of buying new things, things don't matter. Give hugs and laugh a lot.
Aloha everyone! I'm officially 2 months into chemo, so only 4 more to go and then radiation will start. I'm so thankful for all your support and wanted to throw a lil shoutout to you fabulous peeps. Its been amazing to see some love from my back in the day friends, miss you all!! You all know I love visitors, come to hawaii! Hope everyone is having a great weekend. Xoxoxoxoxox
Gearing up for round two of chemo this Friday. My bloodwork looks good and I still have hair! :) thanks to all your donations I picked out some cute head wraps for next week. Thanks for all the love everyone!
Much much love and thanks to everyone. I can't express enough how much strength amd emergy coming on here and seeing all your messages gives me. I'm feeling the love an sending it back to you all a million fold!! Mahalo everyone!!'n
Aloha everyone, I'm continually blown away by all the support, messages and feel good vibes from all of you. Chemo starts tomorrow......and I know ill be ok because I won't let you all down! Here's to day one of kicking ass and getting one day closer to being done. Xoxoxo
Medi port placed today, pretty sore but doing ok. Thank you all so much for the support.....I'm honestly stronger from reading all your posts and messages. Mahalo and aloha!
As my Michelle put it, cancer also picked the wrong friends to mess with. You guys are beyond amazing. I'm seriously the luckiest person for having such freaking beautiful people in my life. Mahalo everyone!!'
I am at an absolute loss for words (that doesn't happen). Thank you all sooooo very much from the bottom of my heart. With this much amazing energy and support this cancer doesn't stand an effing chance! Love, love, love you all so very much.
Aloha peeps, Welcome to my re-started donation page. So, the bitch is back. I just received a positive PET scan. As of this update, I am awaiting a stem cell transplant and will begin the process in December. I'll have to stay in Connecticut for about 3-6 months post treatment to be healthy enough to move back to Hawaii. This time out of work for treatment is crippling in the least while being a single mom to a very energetic 2 year old boy. I appreciate all the positive vibes and all the help and support. Much love, Laura