save our lives

My boyfriend and I are having the toughest time of our lives... I recently a few months ago survived after being merely inches from killing myself from top of a 30 story building. Why did I attempt it? I'm a male -> female transgender I was born as a man and strive in every waking moment of my life to fix what my soul is telling me what I really am. Sadly with money struggles and my bigger body structure I'm not getting anywhere and I would be here asking for help on that but no... My boyfriend pulled me from that roof and saved my life. I am here asking for help because of my depression I cannot work and my boyfriend loves me so much and is working so hard to keep things between us working. I cook and clean and do all I can to keep him happy but that can only go so far. Our medical bills and rent are piling up. I'm currently in therapy to get through this struggle I'm having but therapy won't keep us afloat. I only need a little bit help to get us through the next month so that we can get back up on our feet and I can work again. I love animals and caring for them as well as people and I want to become a therapist or a vet more than anything. I don't have any special skills or training and I skimmed passed high school... but I was there everyday helping out my friends and anyone that was down or depressed. I even got multiple awards from teachers for my kindness and care to others. Life has shown me the other side of things and I cry myself to sleep every night knowing the struggles my boyfriend is going through for me, as well as my close friends and family but they can't help me anymore. If we don't make it through next month i'm going to have to go back to the psych hospital for my own safety as my dearest boyfriend is going to have to leave, and in my current state i doubt i can handle that. God bless everyone thank You very much for reading.

-erin.