<div><strong>Hiya, it's your girl Paris here!</strong>
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<div>But I didn't start out a girl, <em>or at least I didn't on the outside...</em>
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<div><strong>THE STORY SO FAR</strong>
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<div>No, I began my transition journey in earnest just over 2 years ago as of writing this. And what a ride transition has already been. Thanks to the love and support of family, friends &amp; co-workers, and a healthy dose of courage and conviction on my part, I've made huge strides in a very short space of time.
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<div>It's a good thing too, seeing as I started so late!
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<div>I've achieved or am working on achieving nearly everything I could reasonably expect within my means:
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<li>Voice trained myself
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<li>Presented femme 24/7
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<li>Got my official Gender Dysphoria diagnosis
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<li>Started hormones (HRT) through official means
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<li>About to begin purposeful feminizing exercises
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<li>Explored all sorts of avenues and aspects of my identity and every day life
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<div>I would go as far as to even say, that I might just be a little proud haha.
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<div>However... Oh what a however it is...
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<div>There is one last part of my medical journey that feels painfully out of grasp for an overly sincere creative like me. And that's FFS (Facial Feminisation Surgery).
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<div><strong>WHAT IS FFS?</strong>
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<div>FFS (Facial Feminisation Surgery) is the generalised name of a group of medical interventions focused on the, yes you guessed it, face. These range from brow reductions to tracheal shaves, hair transplants to jaw reductions, rhinoplasty to lip alterations.
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<div>Each individual will want or need different sets of these various techniques in varying degrees of intensity in order to achieve a feminising effect on their personal face. What's deemed necessary will depend on their starting facial structure and their own personal relationship with their dysphoria.
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<div>Of course this means that no one should get it without first doing the internal work in the mind! This is something I am perenially conscious of and always checking in on myself.
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<div><strong>What do I want done?</strong>
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<div>At a minimum I am looking at getting a Brow Reduction, Jaw Feminisation and Tracheal Shave. I have not ruled out more, but I feel these are the core of what would make the biggest difference to massively reduce my dysphoria.
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<div><strong>Where do I want it done?</strong>
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<div>Having seen the results first hand and having tons of success stories, my intent is to go to Facial Team in Marbela, Spain. You can view their website here: <a href="https://facialteam.eu/ffs-surgery-en/" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">Facial Team</a>
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<div><strong>"BUT YOU ALREADY LOOK GORGEOUS/FEMININE!"</strong>
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<div>This is the kind of thing that often, although not exclusively, cis people will say to a trans person like me, often said with good intent.
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<div>Look, I have enough self confidence to think I look pretty damn good as I am, but getting FFS isn't about being pretty or conforming to beauty standards. It's about having my internal self be reflected on my external. About being perceived as the woman I am without having to constantly make extra effort to just exist. About seeing my reflection and regardless of if I'm having a bad day or not, seeing the woman within looking back at me.
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<div>It can be difficult for people who preemptively love and respect me to understand this feeling. Especially as FFS is so often viewed as an purely aesthetic procedure rather than a positively life changing one. My day to day experience doesn't reflect how those people close to me always perceive me, and that isn't due to a lack of self belief, effort or duty of care.
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<div><strong>I'VE SEEN THE RESULTS FIRST HAND</strong>
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<div>I know several people in real life who have already had this surgery. I even had the pleasure of experiencing first hand the before and after of a friend. I was mesmerised by the results.
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<div>What fundamentally stood out to me, is even during the early healing phases, they still looked like them! They hadn't been transformed into other people. They were themselves just... <em>More</em> womanly! I already wanted this surgery before this experience, this just cemented it for me.
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<div>A question remained though. With it being so prohibitively expensive, how on earth was I going to reach my goal?
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<div><strong>WHY I NEED YOUR HELP</strong>
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<div>With all the good will in the world on my part, I will never attain this final piece of my medical transition on my own within any reasonable time frame.
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<div>And so I turn to the community I've built, the strangers I connect with, and the world at large!
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<div>Individually, I likely know no one who could single handedly fund this surgery. But collectively, given enough time, I believe we can get there!
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<div>Let's put it this way, if 4000 people donated £10 then I'd reach my goal. This seems very achievable to me.
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<div><strong>WHAT HAPPENS IF I SUCCEED</strong>
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<div>Picture this, it's the enviable optimistic version of the future and we've reached our goal. <em>What happens with the money and how do I hold myself accountable to all the doners and watchers?</em>
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<div>First of all, the target goal is somewhat vague. Without a direct quote from facial team, something which only holds for 6 months, I can't put an exact price on the various trips, consultations or surgeries required.
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<div>What I do have though, is some experience of other people's costs and the rough ball park I should expect to be sitting in once all is said and done. So £40,000 is an amount that I expect to be able to cover things, or get me close enough that I could feasibly cover the rest with a personal loan.
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<div>I have some ground rules I will be strictly adhering to:
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<li>No money will be spent until it is directly being used on the FFS Surgery or related elements like travel costs for it
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<li>All expenses that involve money donated to this fundraiser will be transparently accounted for with updates on here and my socials
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<li>If I end up with more money than I need, then the remaining amount will be publicly donated to a trans charity or some related cause
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<li>If I come into any money myself, I will post an update and revise the goal downwards to reflect the new required amount
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<li>Once I begin the journey to getting the surgery I will document every step and aspect publicly, including the recovery process, the before and after etc. to help raise awareness and educate
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<div>Hopefully you can see by following these rules I can make sure that the money I acquire is fairly attained, spent and documented.
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<div>I already live a pretty public facing life both online and irl, so this will come naturally to me. I think it would be pretty exciting to help educate and inform people of the process. Who knows, maybe I would then be able to go on to help other trans people more directly. That would certainly be wonderful.
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<div><strong>ANY QUESTIONS?</strong>
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<div>That should cover the bulk of it for now. If you have any questions or suggestions, please feel free to get in touch. I'd love to read them :)
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Paris' Transition Facial Feminisation Surgery Fund

Paris' Transition Facial Feminisation Surgery Fund

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