<div><em>"Art is my way to escape reality and daily hassle, entering a whole new world by Imagination you didn't know existed. What is real for you."</em>
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<div>Started this gofundme I think february 2026 for my music, yes it was a success... or it went beyond my expectations big time, I didn't expect anything from it. I remember even with €200 I would be very happy and grateful. So first of all I am always grateful for this experience. It did helped me in the short term to make some investments, I used €1000 for my music so far, en the rest to survive. Because after the start of gofundme, I was struck by lightning, I lost all you could possibly imagine...
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<div>I live rent free off grid yes in exchange of garden chores. First this owner don't allow me to have an address, so I can build nothing up and can't arrange nothing ...
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<div>I live here now 1 year, the first 2 weeks on the sofa on the porch, the first 7 months without electricity till she put solar panels. I have no running water for the whole time I am here, only once a week, where I feel 8 liter bottles for the rest of the week.
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<div>The police seized my car, due to an invalid license plate from Belgium, so I lost all my garden work here. I had build a pretty big network of 30 gardens around in a short period of time. All gone. Stuff like that.
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<div>I live off-grid, so 1 hour from the supermarket and center by foot. Luckily a good friend gave me an e-bike.
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<div>I do am grateful the people who have helped me where they can, even they soothe blisters only temporarily.
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<div>As ironic as it sounds, all is stripped away from me, except my PC and my microphone. Meaning I can continue making music, rap vocals whatever you want to call it ...
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<div>I sign up for many online ai and remote customer service work, haven't been accepted once yet .
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<div>So I am living with a huge 20K debt as well in the Netherlands where I come from and now I am stuck here ...
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<div><strong>All that is left are my pets, me and a Dream ///</strong>
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<div>At one hand I am hurt yes, I don't like this. Not to speak about the hot summer 2026, the hottest I have ever experience, 44 °C degrees celsius. Under a metal corrugated sheet roof only, what gets super hot . I really had to survive and live in a livin' sauna and oven, no fun at all!
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<div>Yes some days, I am discouraged, sad and don't feel good.
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<div>I put 1000 euro for the music if you let me, even I can understand the basics are more important. Those are the foundation, but if I may, I could release an album for the songs I been recording during these times. Even without the music still need 2900 to get back on my feet again. As the 1400 donated so far is already gone, I received that before things started to happen. I have no savings at all, nothing. I don't want to borrow any more, yes sometimes I don't see a way out neither. 
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<div class="youtube-replace"><em>After all I have done so far. Don't get me wrong. I sold my apartment in 2020 and invested all in a dream. Sustainable clothing line and webshop, making the biggest beginners fault, "More expenses than you earn".  I lost all my money, I started to work for a company, knocking door to door solar panel leads. They went bankrupt and I lived in Belgium at the moment. I lost it all, they put me on the street. Try to find a job in Belgium when it is already difficult in Holland. That is why I went to Spain, I sold all my belongings, found the cheapest chalet, just to make music. When all my money dried up, I even did 2 months volunteering, meaning you get a room and food, for 30 hours of work a week. That was slavery.</em>
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<div class="youtube-replace">Also my first cat is missing for 1 year, and my heart breaks every day just thinking about it. She was my heart and all. I do have still 3 cats and a dog since the end of 2025. Plus 2 dogs that are mostly in my garden, I take care off.
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<div class="youtube-replace">Yes I am a dreamer, I am sensitive, I tried in the past many businesses, I had 1000's of airbnb guest when I still had my apartment, I sold new and second hand products, my own jewelry and clothing line, I buried more than 10 friends, moved over 20 times by now, lived in 4 countries. I am not happy, I imagined and visualised my life, way differently by now. I still stay strong, I will never give up. I still believe in my own heart and dream, and all that happens makes you stronger when it doesn't kill you. I am unkillable, unbeatable and unbreakable.
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<div class="youtube-replace">All that covered in my music, feel the realness, energy, raw and uncut, true story, pure. Like no other. I will never stop or quit.
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Survicate

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PYMK has donors

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