<div>I am really tired. I often can’t recall if I have ever been this tired, of this life. I have tried to properly write this… and lost my information twice. It seems indicative of my life these days. Chaotic and topsy turvey.I am starting this fundraiser  to raise money while I wait on disability. During the time mom was living with me I got hurt at work.What should have been worker’s compensation became a disability case.The nightmare of losing my mom AND trying to pay bills as I wait has been so stressful. The working life I had is gone… and so is my mom.Its an incredible mountain to scale-yet I do it daily.
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<div>I struggle to start this.I really  feel no one cares anyway.I guess maybe that’s not true but in my heart it feels like none of it matters.I make people feel that I am ok..but I wonder why they don’t know I’m not.

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<div>When someone dies it  feels horrible.You experience the impossible feeling of loss-and you know you have to deal with a new world.A world without that person.

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<div>Everything becomes new and ugly in seconds.No matter what I do,I can’t hold my moms hand again.I can’t see heart eyes.I can’t sing with her.I have to feel the loss of that everyday for the rest of my life.

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<div>My loss is worse.I didn’t just lose my mom.I lost my reason.Simply put I have no real reason to even WANT a life now.I gave every part of my life to taking care of my mom.Every single thing about my life now is so incredibly hard.

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<div>I can’t sleep well and every single thing I do is just hard.I was mommy’s sole caregiver so I wasn't working.I knew what the prognosis was…but I was never prepared.I also didn’t know that a part of me would die.

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<div>I willingly gave up myself,my life to make sure she lacked nothing.Alzheimers broke into our lives and started to destroy us.Mom had the disease but in many ways it lived in me too.I would often dream that mommy was calling me,even when she was sleeping. I can’t seem to stop my thoughts long enough to grieve properly.

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<div>On top of this I can’t work,which also means I face eviction each month and my lights going out…all the time.I want so badly to catch up on the rent.How do I do that without income. I have sought public help…but there is none.There is shame though.A lot to go around.All I did was take care of my mom.I have to ask for help and there is so much shame that people place on you.

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<div>I have always led a productive life.I live in a wholesome way- and I make good choices.None of it prepared me for this. I am suppose to be getting a handle on the grief….but I am two months behind on rent and struggling to take care of basic personal needs.I just need some help.I need someone to understand…and help with this financial burden that is bleeding into my whole life.

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<div>I think if I can get the load lifted from the financial hardship ,maybe I can start to find out who I am.I just want to not feel sad…afraid.Wondering what will happen next..Grief takes away your floor board and you just seem to constantly fall.I am just asking for any help …in any way possible.<img src="https://d2g8igdw686xgo.cloudfront.net/91207569_1748382398381678_r.jpg" width="100%" media_type="3" alt="91207569_1748382398381678_r.jpg" />
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Eviction Threatens After Mother's Loss

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Platform is iOS

Android

Adyen Google Pay Development Audience

$opt_dummy_attribute

English only

Deprecate Stripe Legacy

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Adyen V6 Bene Transfer & MyMoney Campaign Organizers - test01

Bene transfer V6 and AdyenV6MyMoney Campaign Organizers - production

OneTrust next-app audience

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NextDoor Share Option Users

Fundraisers with Reactions feature capability

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GoFundMe Employees

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Mark Rieth IP Address

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checkoutType

Payment method type group to be vaulted on success

admin pr kit prod

EUR Donation Upsell

Share Text generation Skip Fundraiser

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fallback mode accounts

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p2p legacy startfundraising page

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Payment Identity Transfers ATO Risk Check (Targeted) - Production

Fundraiser Saved Payment Method Rate Limit Bypass (Production)

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Active Fundraiser - Smart Default Cadence

DAF Internal

Vault on success card payment method

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Desktop users

Person ids

United States (US) users

allow yuno fundraisers for test

Mexico country code

Posters INTL

NPO Profile Opted-In

iOS at or above 12.4.0

non-US recurring donors

Canada Campaign Owner Group

Fundraiser Without Meta Link

Scheduler payment tester gorup

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Charities allow to be claimed unclaimed (PRD)

Canada (CA) users

currencyCode

UC Tipping v20250115 International

pymk_production_xplr_fe_team

Android at or above 12.2.0

Profile photo entry point audience

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Activity Tracking v1 Beta Testing

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Stream Notification

start gfm intl allowed locales

Platform is iOS v11.2.0 and above

unclaimed charities

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AI Chatbot Audience

amp13 only new funds (prod) (anyword auto)

UC Flow Enabled (Prod)

Payment Identity Beneficiary Verification - Production

shared notification bell audience

Custom users

ach frontend audience

Android v11.0.0 and above

Users Receiving Payments Paused Notifications

smart goals test01

Manage Coach - US English Organizers Only + new funds only

Team EGG - IP Address list

Fundraiser Without Instagram Deep Link

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UC Tipping v20250107

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GB Donation Upsell audience 

Auto Thanks V3 Rollout Audience

Thank you V3 testing whitelist

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Is Recurring Friendly

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Logged In Users

CH Donation Upsell audience

Android v10.6.0 and above

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Localized Currency

v11.5.0 and above

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pathname

Survicate

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challenge-fundraisers

Payment Identity Launch Verification - Production

New funds eligible - Posters v2

CAD Donation Upsell Audience

Braze Email Tester

NPO Profile Opted-Out

iOS App Version

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PYMK has donors

iOS v12.3.0 and above

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