Our Adoption Journey
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**Getting to this point has been extremely taxing, not only physically but emotionally. I want everyone to know that creating this gofundme was not something that came easy to us.**
If you asked young, adolescent Taryn what she wanted to be when she grew up, the answer was always the same. A mom. It’s always been my highest calling. Unfortunately, it only took one doctors appointment to crush that dream and have me questioning so many things in my life.
I spent many nights sobbing and being angry at God. I prayed and asked the typical “why? What did I do to deserve this?” Questions. I’ve prayed, begging him to extinguish this fire in my heart to be a mom if it wasn’t in his will, more times than I could ever count. I’ve sat on the bathroom floor with tears rolling down my cheeks, begging for that second little line to show up. I cringed every time I saw a pregnancy announcement and felt crushed the day my sister told me I was going to be an aunt. I didn’t want people to be worried about how I would react when they announced their pregnancy. I don’t want to feel sad during some of the happiest times of my loved ones lives. So I prayed...and prayed and prayed. There have been days I’ve been weak and blamed God again. But through that I still prayed. With a lot of help from God I’ve realigned what parenthood looks like for me and Brandon. I fully recognize that I am meant to mother, in any form, but still worried about my husband. Could he love a child that is not biologically his? Witnessing him with our niece quickly diminished those fears. The adoration in his eyes when he looks at her and the love in his voice when he speaks to her is enough to make my heart both feel full and break. I WANT to be a mother but he DESERVES to be a father. One day, completely out of the blue, he comes home and says “we are going to adopt. I’ve prayed on it and this is what we are suppose to do. Everything is pointing us in that direction.” And he’s committed to this since. Our journey begins.
We have no idea what this journey looks like for us. We don’t know the hurdles we face though we know there will be many. The one thing we do know is that we have an incredible amount of love to give and DNA does not affect that. We know this is our calling and this is our chance to be the best parents we can possibly be to a baby that so desperately needs that.
“For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be removed and be cast into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says.”
Mark 11:23 NKJV
This was hard for me to do, though I’ve been open about our struggles I’ve never had to really ask for help. Tonight, I’m asking for your help. Help us become the parents we know we can be. We know not everyone can contribute financially and that GoFundMe is a financial platform but prayers are as good as gold. Please keep us in your prayers.
**We have recently connected with a birth mom in Florida who is half way through her pregnancy. Even with having a birth mom, Florida requires adoptions to go through an agency. The fees for the agency are coming up to about $14,000.
If you asked young, adolescent Taryn what she wanted to be when she grew up, the answer was always the same. A mom. It’s always been my highest calling. Unfortunately, it only took one doctors appointment to crush that dream and have me questioning so many things in my life.
I spent many nights sobbing and being angry at God. I prayed and asked the typical “why? What did I do to deserve this?” Questions. I’ve prayed, begging him to extinguish this fire in my heart to be a mom if it wasn’t in his will, more times than I could ever count. I’ve sat on the bathroom floor with tears rolling down my cheeks, begging for that second little line to show up. I cringed every time I saw a pregnancy announcement and felt crushed the day my sister told me I was going to be an aunt. I didn’t want people to be worried about how I would react when they announced their pregnancy. I don’t want to feel sad during some of the happiest times of my loved ones lives. So I prayed...and prayed and prayed. There have been days I’ve been weak and blamed God again. But through that I still prayed. With a lot of help from God I’ve realigned what parenthood looks like for me and Brandon. I fully recognize that I am meant to mother, in any form, but still worried about my husband. Could he love a child that is not biologically his? Witnessing him with our niece quickly diminished those fears. The adoration in his eyes when he looks at her and the love in his voice when he speaks to her is enough to make my heart both feel full and break. I WANT to be a mother but he DESERVES to be a father. One day, completely out of the blue, he comes home and says “we are going to adopt. I’ve prayed on it and this is what we are suppose to do. Everything is pointing us in that direction.” And he’s committed to this since. Our journey begins.
We have no idea what this journey looks like for us. We don’t know the hurdles we face though we know there will be many. The one thing we do know is that we have an incredible amount of love to give and DNA does not affect that. We know this is our calling and this is our chance to be the best parents we can possibly be to a baby that so desperately needs that.
“For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be removed and be cast into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says.”
Mark 11:23 NKJV
This was hard for me to do, though I’ve been open about our struggles I’ve never had to really ask for help. Tonight, I’m asking for your help. Help us become the parents we know we can be. We know not everyone can contribute financially and that GoFundMe is a financial platform but prayers are as good as gold. Please keep us in your prayers.
**We have recently connected with a birth mom in Florida who is half way through her pregnancy. Even with having a birth mom, Florida requires adoptions to go through an agency. The fees for the agency are coming up to about $14,000.
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Taryn Cantrell
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Bloomfield, IN
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