Hi, I'm Tessa.
Neurodivergent, intersectional activist, sysadmin.
Right now, I'm attempting to regain a contributing place in society.
I could really use your help meeting my basic survival needs..
My needs, each month, are simple.
Enough to eat.
Enough electricity to work.
A little bit of self care.
Help me with food.
Help me afford clean water.
Help me pass that gift on when I see someone in need.
Long term plans remain the same.
Building a place of safety and peace for my tribe, with the goal of helping yours through our collaborative efforts.
If you can't financially contribute, please help share this on social media, or any place that other people will see, and just the boost offered by a spot on your news feeds helps more than you'll ever know.
My spouse and I faced the spectre of homelessness early this year, and a blessing from our parents and grandparents allowed us to obtain security and safety despite that.
After making the move to our new home (a 5th wheel trailer), we headed for the east coast and made it safe and sound...and then immediately got rather sick.
We have safety and enough food here, and it's allowed us to heal in more ways than one.
We're only just now to a place where we can confidently say we're healthy again, and have made plans to drive down to Florida this weekend to start the next leg of our journey.
In the time we've spent here, our extended family and the Academy has given us much encouragement, and much to think about, both personally and professionally.
Unbeknownst to me, my brother-in-law considers me to be his inspiration and a huge motivator of his current place in life, which is to say the creator of theatre props and puppets which have garnered international attention.
I cannot with words describe how encouraging it is to see his successes, and hear him speak to how my work, and the things I showed him years ago, have been a catalyzing force in his life.
Working with him these last few weeks has been wonderful, and the connections we've forged are the foundations of future collaboration that I'm quite looking forward to.
My partner's condition continues to fluctuate.
On a good day, she can walk.
On a good day, she can dress and feed herself.
On a good day, we rejoice.
Some days she cannot walk.
I help her out of bed, to the bathroom, and to the pain chair.
Food is sometimes difficult, as meals which work today may give her intense gastrointestinal distress another day.
Some days she cannot have harsh materials on her skin, and she tries not to cry from the pain of just shifting in her chair.
Our finances have been sufficient for our day-to-day needs, which is a huge praise.
Medical costs are three fifths of our budget, and we both need additional procedures and care that we cannot afford at the current time.
Her disability is still being denied, because they want a specific diagnosis, which her doctors have been unwilling to give us, because they do not understand her symptoms.
Our hope is that the new neurologist will shed some light, and ideally a diagnosis that the state and federal reviewers will find sufficient to give her not just the assistance we need, but compensation for the last five years of fighting this on our own.
My disability was inexplicably cut by 2/3 this month, which leaves us without enough to make it through August. Pursuing remediation of this takes a huge chunk of our energy and time, which leaves our attempt to re-enter the world of business on a back burner.
The depression and PTSD are a constant battle. My biggest fight right now is with the agoraphobia, every time I go outside, my body and mind react like I am about to be attacked.
The Detroit assault was over a year ago now, but I've only just started processing through what happened, and the medical bills from the beating the police administered to me still haven't been paid, and I still need surgery to fix the damage they did.
We need Lincoln Financial to (quietly and professionally) complete their contractual obligations to us, and provide us with the money we are owed.
We need funds to purchase several pieces of manufacturing equipment and repair tools for the next part of building our cooperative.
We need people to care enough about the work we're attempting, to share it with others, and for our efforts to be multiplied by many hands.
Our goal for 2019 has been to become self-sustaining again, and while we are hopeful, there is immense pressure on us to give up, especially after what happened with our former business partners.
When we (finally!) get back home to Cascadia, our focus is on rebuilding the motor home we acquired at the end of 2018, as both a testbed for the technology (and methodology) we've been developing, and as a demonstration of functional skill for several certifications and funding potential.
Thank you for caring about us.
We love you and look forward to whatever life brings with hope and joy because of you, and others like you.
Assaulted and beaten by cops.
More housing difficulties.
Short term disability finally came through.
Obtained property, can't afford to build on it yet.
Housing difficulties resume as winter approaches.
Sleeping on a friend's floor.
Attempting to crowdfund housing for the land.
Difficult and toxic holidays.
2019, so far:
Choosing food and work commute costs over therapy.
Trying to plan far enough ahead to be able to breathe.
Long term housing option secured.
Owning/operating a vehicle again.
Hernia discovered (same place as the one I got after Africa).
I have an appointment this week to determine the course of action.
I'm using the space to build homes for the rest of my tribe, starting with the ones who are being displaced by cruelty or administrative sluggishness.
I need to provide for the needs of three families right now. We're sharing what income we can scrape together to keep eachother alive until there's enough housing for everyone.
I'll be outside internet access range for some long periods of time in the coming months, and I'll be working out there to build us, and you, a collaborative and sustainable future.
We're building housing as fast as access to materials and energy to lift tools lasts.
We're documenting the process, and establishing guidelines for intentionally collaborative and human-centric communities.
I'm using my knowledge of the engineering disciplines to make the local utilities grid a distributed, self-healing, and secure system.
I've started accepting volunteers to join me and help with construction.
If you want to be a part of a discussion about this, I'll be online and communicating for a couple of days.
It's time to rise up and build a better way.