Save Me From an Abusive Environment

My name is Jillian Miles. I'm twenty-three. I'm a trans woman, I'm Autistic, and I suffer from schizo-affective disorder, borderline personality disorder, and complex post-traumatic stress disorder.

The last one is particularly pertinent, because it's down to my father being an abusive, manipulative monster. His behaviour has ranged from the emotionally abusive to the physically violent to the absolutely terrifying, up to and including a fake suicide attempt.

I have tried very hard to get out from under his thumb and it's not working. Nothing is changing. I need to leave, and fast.

I have friends in London with whom I can stay at least temporarily, and discussions are being had with one of their landladies about my being able to move in. But as a seriously ill young person I have very little chance of getting a job and cannot scrounge together the funds on my own (and part of the abuse is a strict control of my benefits, to prevent me 'abusing' them).

I'm honestly not sure how much I'm going to need going forwards, and I honestly don't know how quickly I can make this work, but I do know that every time I get out my mood and mental health improve dramatically - and every time I'm dragged back they plummet to dangerous levels.

I need to be able to afford a down-payment on a room or flat, plus food for at least a month or two, plus rent.

The bottom line is that I am very scared something is going to give very soon and I am going to wind up in danger, or homeless, or dead. So please. Help. If you can.