rios top surgery fund

i think i first realized i was trans when i was about eleven. i didn’t have the words for it or any idea of what a life where i felt like i could fit would even look like? though i did know that my chest made me feel so uncomfortable so when i was abt thirteen - i started binding w bandages. the feeling of not being able to breathe because of how tight i was wrapping my chest felt awful and looking back i’m so sad @ the fact that preteen rio didn’t have the resources or words to fit in their body. i remember crying when i looked at myself in mirror - i remember feeling like a stranger in my own body. sometimes it felt like static like i was seeing myself and my body but the image was never clear or steady? when i think about top surgery - it sort of feels like the act of opening a lock? the feeling of allowing myself to be free in my body to feel like i fit. i want to look at myself and feel like it’s really me. so i started a go fund me for my top surgery expenses.