RIDGEEDIDGE Reptile Displays help getting started

i have volunteered for the last ten years for a company that has closed its doors because of a divorce looming and poor management . i can be checked out on reptiles rule Facebook page in community i am john check the video from clovel child care service. i have applied for my own exhibitors licence for NSW through the department of primary industries. This is very time consuming with a mountain of paper work approvals from lots of departments not to mention how much all the fees and permit's cost, as i struggle to read and write very well it was a mission. as a volunteer i did not make any money for being the number one show in NSW the guy that owned the licence got the money big bucks too.  I still live in my housing commission home and struggle while he buys his home in a very nice location, multiple expansive motor bikes cars and other toys, then goes off to be a security guard making more money while i ran his reptile business for many years.the love and pride that i have for reptiles kept me out there.                                      i have done work for places like KARI indigenous services for years,. camp Quality for years, Juvenile Justice system for years, Northcott disability services, Institute for the deaf and blind, aged care facilities working with Dementia patience, council events all over the place just to name a few. i really need a reliable van as i am driving a 1999 mitsubishi express with over 250,000 klms with my back ground i have no credit rating so a loan probably wont happen. i need to get out there and do what i love to do, educate our young and old about these wonderful creatures. The way i was treated by the company was bad but that is a different story. Any help to get me out there would be like a miracle  a wish a dream come true, i have covered the licencing costs and all other expanses to get started but as a volunteering pensioner who wants to get off the pension, it has left me with very little savings or people left to borrow off and realistically be able to pay them back quickly.                                                                                                                                              some one said why dont you go fund me yourself so here i am.