Kore's Run for Life
In May of 2012 I was 34 years old, a mother of two very young children, and a nursing student. I found a star-shaped bruise on my left breast. I brushed off the worry and went about my merry way - young women don't have serious breast problems. Especially in-shape runners who had just stopped breast feeding. I ran the Lucky 7K race,y breast star became an angry red rash. I took my Nursing Funds final. My rash developed a lump under it. So I called my PCP. She rushed me to a surgeon who took a bunch of biopsies. I got the news the next day - I had stage IIIB Inflammatory Breast Cancer. It was bad. I had a port in place and was receiving chemotherapy within a week.
My chemo treatment held me until this December, almost three years, when I had my first seizure. The CT found one 2 cm lesion in my brain - untreatable with surgery, but definitely with Novalis (focused x-ray treatment) My Novalis treatment was awful. It made my seizures worse, which inexplicably gave me double vision. I spent weeks in the hospital with 10/10 pain. I was too weak to walk even use a walker. Then my neurologist did a lumbar puncture and found free-floating cancer cells. This is probably the worst diagnosis a person with cancer can get. It's official name is carcinomatous meningitis. It is swift and deadly. I will not live to see my next birthday. My sweet oncologist wants to give me the best quality of life while he can.
Due to extreme medical expenses our family is doing this fundraiser to assist our niece with these expenses. Recently, CSF test for cancer cells still shows the presences of cancer. Again, she is braving the radiation treatments and ongoing chemo treatments.
Also, Kore has been posting blogs on caringbridge.org "Kore Bormann"
From our Ohana (family) to yours Mahalo Nui Loa (Thank you very much)
I wanted to give an update since Kore passed on. It has now been about 3 weeks, and things are moving into a bit of a new normal. Most importantly, I wanted to thank all of you that paid attention to our story, and I wanted to thank all of you for your thoughts, well-wishes, and certainly the donations, whether cash or food (or both!) They have been a tremendous help to us. Though Kore is irreplaceable, and we all miss her dearly, just the peace of mind knowing the help we have gotten from you all has helped ease the transition, at least as much as the transition can be eased.
Certainly it is very sad and disheartening that we have lost a friend, wife, mother, daughter, granddaughter, niece, & sister, but at least we can all take heart that she is no longer in pain. The last few days, alas, were difficult for Kore.
For those of you who were unable to connect with us, or would like to, you can reach me at my e-mail address firstname.lastname@example.org. I would love to hear from you, and I would love to hear any stories about Kore you would wish to share with either me or our children.
Thanks for reading this update, and above all thanks for all your support,
I had just returned from a walk to the point and was heading back to my mom's house.
It was about 50 yards off-shore and it looked black and seemed as if it were not moving. I thought this could not be a black plastic mooring because it was too small and there were no "ears". I just had a feeling that this could be a large glass ball so I went with my gut, quickly placing my cell, hat, etc. on the grass and swam at an angle towards the mystery ball, taking the chance of dropping my nice Polaroid prescription glasses off my head in the process. I took the chance simply because I wanted to be able to vividly see what I thought I would see: this super cool glass ball that has been floating for so long from so far away.
It was extremely interesting and exciting to me. This mystery ball happened to be straight out from the lane that leads to our family home where Mom, Dad, Sara, Susan,Debbie, Kore, Lani, Lucy and me lived together for so many years. ( Lani and Lucy were our little beach dogs who were great on boogie boards both on the waves or in the pool.) They would have been right by my side if they were still with us!
About 25 yards from this ball I suddenly saw the unmistakable faint, beautiful glass ball green glimmer that I was so hoping for!!!!!!!
Like I told Val: as I lifted it out of the water in my right palm I looked at it as I lifted it high out of the water and automatically said while the water was still dripping off of it and twinkling in the sunlight:
It was an experience that I know I will never, ever forget.
I noticed a couple that were walking the beach had stopped and waited for me after seeing this. They patiently waited for what seemed to be 4 minutes or so for me to come in so they could see this gem from the ocean up close. Those who know me know that normally I would have swam in, shared the beauty and talked story. Today was different because of the spiritual connection I was experiencing. I instead rolled over on my back placing the glass ball, my special gift from my special soul, on my tummy like an otter does with an abalone.
I slowly swam in holding this precious gift and will cherish it forever. it will be added to the shrine that we had made for Kore here at the beach house. it will be left as found, barnacles and all untouched.
KORE: your presence and spirit is so often felt, especially when I'm out on the beach near Honey's. I'm sure you and gramps are cracking up about this one.
A hui hou, Uncle Rip
Today at 4:45 Kore past on at Denver Hospice. She spent her last weekend in the most amazing beautiful and peaceful place with close family members. Much of the days were spent outdoors on the patio of her suite watching the boys play and run around with an Easter egg hunt and real bunnies hopping nearby. Evenings were family movie nights: boy's favorite movies and popcorn. While listening to her favorite music Kore planned and orchestrated all events of the weekend until around 1:30 Easter Sunday when she called her boys to her bed followed by other family members and said goodbye one by one. Today Andy and Kore's mom Deb were with her holding her in their arms telling her they loved her. Kore is now with her Gramps: Dick Gourley walking on Kailua Beach...........
Kore has finished her Run for Life at 4:46 PM (mountain time).
Here is a last letter from her...
Her family is sad to report that Kore has passed away today. She wrote the following note to everyone:
Hey, everybody. I just want to thank you one last time for being so lovely, wonderful, and supportive to my family and me. My symptoms made it hard for me to communicate but hopefully you always knew that I loved you. I wish you long (not overlong!) lives, and joy, peace, and good, fast internet connections.
Love, Kore Bormann
Our hearts go out to all of you. We were so sorry to hear of Kore's illness and struggle to survive. It is truly heartbreaking for the world to lose such a beautiful mother, wife and human being. Kore is at peace now and her memory will certainly live on within her amazing family.
I am so very sad to hear of this turn of events. I will continue to pray for all of you.