The journey that brought me to this journey:
There are many layers to this story; I feel like everything that has happened in my life so far has a part to play in where I am today and the journey God's about to take me on. But for the sake of time, I'll try to narrow down my story and only include the layers that are necessary to get a basic understanding of what I'm doing and why.
As many of you know, my plan since
the beginning of my senior year was to go to
ETSU picks one out of every three students to be verified for financial aid. This is like being audited, and is all about tax and IRS stuff that I don't completely understand. Students that are verified have to fill out a bunch of tax paper work in order to be awarded the scholarships that they earned. I was picked as one of the students to be verified. When I found that out, to me it was no big deal- we fill out the paper work, fax it in, I get my scholarships and go to ETSU like planned. But, due to the poor decisions of someone else, it wasn't this simple and I was affected by circumstances completely out of my control. But this isn't about bashing anyone or airing dirty laundry, so I won't go into detail about that. The point is, because of circumstances out of my control, I no longer would be awarded the scholarships I earned because of someone else's actions. At first, we thought that there might be a way to work things out, but as time went on, we realized that ETSU wouldn't work.
When I first learned this, less than a month before I was supposed to leave for college, I didn't understand why this was happening to me. I was sad and angry and didn't know what to do. I didn't see any bright side to the situation. At that point, my attitude wasn't giving God the credit He deserves and I didn't see a way that this would turn out as a positive.
Sunday, August 12, I went to a fellowship group called Fire Starters. There was a feeling of oppression in the room, which was strange because Fire Starters is always a place of huge freedom. But I was hit with the conviction that I'm a consumer. I want to go to church and Fire Starters to get filled up with the Holy Spirit and God's word, but what do I ever give? I don't want to be a selfish Christian who is always consuming God's love, but never pouring it out into others. As I felt this conviction, I cried out to God and asked him, "What do you want with my life? What do you want me to do? I'm sick of being a consumer who doesn't advance your Kingdom. I don't want my plan, I know Yours is better. Show me your plan!"
The next day, I went to meet my mom at her work to talk to her about what was going on in my heart and try to seek counsel from her. When I got there, though, she was too busy to talk, so I decided to go back home. On my way, I was thinking of who I could call to talk to about this, and God said, "Tori, hello! I, the Perfect Counselor, am here! Who else do you need?" And to that, I said, "TouchÃ©."
So I just quieted myself and listened to what God had to say about all of this. And He showed me this vision of Love Works: America Tour. I would drive around the country, going into the cities and seeing their needs, loving and feeding the homeless along the way. Whether that means going into inner city schools, serving in homeless shelters, doing service projects, whatever the needs were in the city, I'll go and be a servant and share God's Word and God's love everywhere I go.
I thought, wow, that's radical. And God said, "Isn't that what you've always asked for? For Me to show you My radical plan for your life and to change your consumerism?" And I thought, that is what I've always prayed for, now that He's given my a radical plan for my life, I can't reject it!
But even though I didn't reject it,
silly human that I am, I thought that I would try to fit God's plan into my
agenda. I thought that I would put His
plan on my timeline, by fitting the Love Works:
America Tour somewhere in between my backup college plan of going to
So that's what I'm doing. I give up my plans and what I thought was
best for my life in order to step into God's Sovereign plan in His Sovereign
timing. God saved me so I can be an
ambassador for Christ and advance His Kingdom. That's what we are all called to
do, advance the
And here is where I ask for your support. I don't have the resources, the connections, or the money to do this. I don't know how all of this is going to work, but hey, I thought I knew how my life after high school was going to work out, and we see how that's changed! One thing I've learned through my circumstances is that we need to surrender our will and our plans to God, because His plans are all that matter in the end. We're just along for the ride. And as for not being able to do this on my own, I think that's a good thing, because if I could, it wouldn't be God. By me being incapable of pulling this off, God is going to get all the glory, because only through Him are all things possible.
The most important support you could give me is prayer! Please pray for my safety on this journey, for God to guide me and for me to listen. Pray that God prepares the hearts of the people I will encounter and that He would soften their hearts and make them receptive to His message. Pray that God provides the way and the financial support needed. And if this story spoke to your heart, you would like to do this but can't take the time to in this stage in your life, or if God just lays it on your heart to support financially, that would be appreciated beyond words!
And just because you can't take a year of from school or work, doesn't mean you can't go on Love Works mission in your own way. There are opportunities everywhere to spread the love of God, you just have to open your eyes and be obedient when God tells you to do something. I want God's love to be contagious and His people need to infect the nations! When we're saved by Christ, we are commissioned to be His ambassadors, so go love on some people, because LOVE WORKS.
You can keep up with my journey by reading my blog at loveworksamericatour.blogspot.com. Thank you for your time, support, and prayers!