Larry's Trauma Crisis Fund
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I'm in a financial crisis, the result of my having been overwhelmed with recovering from complex PTSD over the last year and one half. The sources of my freelance work had been drying up over the last couple of years, and I'd been too overwhelmed and paralyzed with fear to get started with looking for new work until just a few days before I created this GoFundMe. I was exasperated by why I found it so difficult to do this for so long, and it forced me to finally deal afresh with my history of trauma and childhood emotional abuse.
My recovery process has been brutal. I've experienced countless emotional trauma flashbacks since December 2015. They've revealed so much to me about the earliest days of my life. I've recorded the audio from over 4.5 hours of these at-home flashbacks, just so I have documentaion of them. They've been cathartic, and have enabled me to make substantial progress with healing, but this process is far from over.
I'd been tenacious in facing and seeking out help for my cluster of mental health problems during the last few years, which can roughly be summarized as complex PTSD exacerbated by mild autism (Asperger's), ADD and a certain degree of gender and generalized dysphoria. Much if not all of this is rooted in my early childhood trauma and emotional abuse/neglect.
I've been very public about all of this on Facebook, and in real life with friends and family. I'm defying a lifetime of introversion and isolating by reaching out for help, which I am ashamed to do. I've sought out and found terrific therapeutic help, but the folks with the specialties that I needed to work with were not covered by my health insurance. I paid for my help with credit cards because this has been a prolonged personal emergency, and it seemed like I had little choice. But now I am at the limits of my resources, and need help to make it through the next couple of months until I have more income coming in, which is not a certainty at all.
I'm dealing with rent, monthly bills and making minimum payments on credit cards. I've gotten a flood of referrals from client and friends to agencies and individuals who might be sources of work. I'm sending out cover letters and links to my LinkedIn profile and online portfolio, both of which which I finally finished just a few days ago with the help of a dear friend. I'm continuing to do this, but my panic about money has made this process agonizing and exhausting.
If you're willing to contribute to this GoFundMe, I will have some pressure relieved temporarily so I can focus with greater intensity on my work-seeking process. That might be a life-saver. I'm trying to avoid my worst-case scenarios if at all possible. Thanks very much for reading this. If you help me, my gratitude will be enormous, and I hope to pay it forward some day. —Larry, 5/12/17, 2:30 AM
My recovery process has been brutal. I've experienced countless emotional trauma flashbacks since December 2015. They've revealed so much to me about the earliest days of my life. I've recorded the audio from over 4.5 hours of these at-home flashbacks, just so I have documentaion of them. They've been cathartic, and have enabled me to make substantial progress with healing, but this process is far from over.
I'd been tenacious in facing and seeking out help for my cluster of mental health problems during the last few years, which can roughly be summarized as complex PTSD exacerbated by mild autism (Asperger's), ADD and a certain degree of gender and generalized dysphoria. Much if not all of this is rooted in my early childhood trauma and emotional abuse/neglect.
I've been very public about all of this on Facebook, and in real life with friends and family. I'm defying a lifetime of introversion and isolating by reaching out for help, which I am ashamed to do. I've sought out and found terrific therapeutic help, but the folks with the specialties that I needed to work with were not covered by my health insurance. I paid for my help with credit cards because this has been a prolonged personal emergency, and it seemed like I had little choice. But now I am at the limits of my resources, and need help to make it through the next couple of months until I have more income coming in, which is not a certainty at all.
I'm dealing with rent, monthly bills and making minimum payments on credit cards. I've gotten a flood of referrals from client and friends to agencies and individuals who might be sources of work. I'm sending out cover letters and links to my LinkedIn profile and online portfolio, both of which which I finally finished just a few days ago with the help of a dear friend. I'm continuing to do this, but my panic about money has made this process agonizing and exhausting.
If you're willing to contribute to this GoFundMe, I will have some pressure relieved temporarily so I can focus with greater intensity on my work-seeking process. That might be a life-saver. I'm trying to avoid my worst-case scenarios if at all possible. Thanks very much for reading this. If you help me, my gratitude will be enormous, and I hope to pay it forward some day. —Larry, 5/12/17, 2:30 AM
Organizer
Larry Auerbach
Organizer
Astoria, NY
