Howie's funeral expenses
The kids spent the night at their dad's (Howie) last night. I drove over to pick up Hannah because she said she wasn't feeling well and didn't want to get her dad sick. I went into their bedroom to check on Howie. He was curled up under some thick blankets sleeping. I woke him up and asked him how he was feeling. "I'm ok, just tired." This man has always had so much energy. More energy than anyone I have ever known. He is the type of guy who paces while talking on the phone and prefers to stand up and surf the internet. Its heartbreaking to see that he can barely stay awake long enough to respond to my questions. I miss the millions of phone calls every day telling me some silly tidbit of info he read in the newspaper or online. I will miss sharing the weird things our kids have said or crazy things they have done. I will miss saying "That comes from your side of the family!" I feel very angry at God for taking away my best friend, father of my children, my first love, my Howman. His wife Lorrie and I were talking about what drew us to him. We both agree that he had the best sense of humor of any person we knew. Many a time he would crack a joke and I nearly pee'd my pants, I just couldn't stop. I'm not sure our kids are old enough to appreciate their dads humor....such a shame. I try and talk to Hannah and Dave about how they are feeling and remind them that I am here to listen. They always respond that they don't want to talk about it. How am I going to make this ok? How am I going to make it hurt less? There is no way to do that..I don't want them to hurt like I hurt already. I feel as though a part of me is dying, my best friend is leaving me.
I pray this need is answered for Susie. I have known Susie and Howie a long time, they are family to me. Despite them getting divorced they have remained Amazing friends. That is very rare. It breaks my heart for Susie and her kids to go through this again. Losing her mom so quickly to cancer just a few years ago was devastating. I hurt for her. Howie is a warrior, he has battled this disease for so long now. Every time I would see him he acted as if nothing was wrong with a smile on face and just his normal self. Physically you could tell he was very sick but speaking to him was as if nothing was wrong. I believe everyone deserves a proper burial. I think it will help his kids to have a place to go and visit him. They have had to be so strong after the passing of their grandma and knowing their dad was battling cancer as well. Cancer sucks. Please share if you can not donate. I love this family and every dollar counts.
I am so sorry fir your and your families loss. Many thoughts & prayers to all of you.
Howie touched my life as my brother was fighting his battle with pancreat cancer. I know Tom would be there to greet Howie as he arrived home today in God's kingdom without pain or suffering. God bless his family and thank God for bringing him into our lives. Our thoughts and prayers are with you all always. God gained another angel....❤❤❤