Help with survival/transition costs
I really hope this is the last time I need to use this.
I just want her to be happy and healthy again.
Thank you. <3
So it's been a little while since I've felt the need to use this again. I suppose that's a good thing since at the time I thought things were changing for the better. I haven't found a job that suites me since my last job and after moving so I can try to have space to work on my photography my financials have become a disaster. I'm still hoping having a space to do photos here will help me be able to get more photo jobs. It's just so hard when nothing is coming in at the moment. And before assuming me moving was a huge mistake, don't forget that I have spent the past month getting the place I was living in ready to rent out to pay my share of the rent here. Paying for two places this month also killed me. I am so desperate to make something work here. I can't just settle on being unemployed and feeling like I'm not contributing somehow.
Basically I am asking for help again and once more... I don't want to!
Like I posted last time though, if you do donate I have photo prints I want to send you. Please find the last post and tell me which of those photos you would like as my thanks. It's a small token for such major kindness but I will feel much better giving at least something in return.
This gofundme started as a mere way to raise money for my surgery, but I don't even know how I could attempt such a thing when I can't even pay my bills every month. Not to mention all my hope of having the surgery died on December 14th when my consultation lead to me finding out that I will receive no help from my insurance since I am on Medicaid.
I don't want to let all this negativity stop me but when I'm too afraid to leave my house because I'm letting a mental illness control me I can barely get anywhere. I've been trying to find work I can do from home but haven't had much luck, and I've even gone as far as to do things I'm not proud of just to pay a bill or two. This Gofundme is one of those things I'm not proud of. I honestly don't feel like I deserve your donations either. Even so, I will be eternally grateful to everyone who helps.
I just hope that I can stop feeling like all hope is lost for me. I'm so tired of feeling hopeless.
For once I'd just like to feel "normal"
So it's been a little while since my last update on here. I really did my best to need this page as little as possible and I managed to hold off for quite some time. Things haven't really gotten any better, I sort of just found a way to slide by. Within the past month I have experienced so much, some of it being quite amazing! And some... not so much.
I have made some changes in my life that may or may not be for the best. It has opened up some potential opportunities but I really can't say for sure if/when any of this will happen.
One of the biggest changes is that I am no longer working at the job which I have been at for the past 8 years. The downward spiral of my experience with the world of retail has really done a number on my stability. Even though I am sitting here now jobless, I still can't help but feel relieved as I also consider the fact that I will not be forced into the life sucking holiday season as a retail sales associate. I know this was something that needed to happen but it's worrisome too because it makes me extremely vulnerable financially.
Unfortunately the bills don't stop coming when you lose your job. haha! I have lucked out and have found a few odd jobs which have helped out a lot. I have even picked up business a little on the photography end up things as well. With everything mentioned I have managed to come up with now $400 to last me until I figure something out.
I hate to be back to this point again but I want to remain positive. This time instead of just asking for handouts I wanted to include some of the art I had while we were on tour in this plea for help. Included in the photo attached to this post are a series of 6x6 photo prints I had for sell while on the road. I want to also give these away with donations to help raise money not only towards my surgery but to help me as I am still trying to get on my feet again.
If you donate and want one of these prints please just send me a message with your info and I will send you your choice of print.
Also, here is the link to my photography page for those interested in the rest of my art and what I do with it.
Thanks everyone for the kindness. Even if you just read this and send me good vibes I thank you so very much. Things may be rough now but I still have a good feeling it may get better if I keep at it.
So I have finally received the phone call which I have been anxiously awaiting for what feels like an eternity.
The phone call I am speaking of is the one that gave me such relief in knowing that I now have a date set to have my consultation to have Gender Confirmation Surgery!
I am scheduled for December 14th to see Dr. McGinn and to book the date for my surgery. In order to do this I will need to be able to pay the full cost of the surgery up front with the chance that my insurance will help out post surgery. If I can't have the surgery within a year of the consultation I will have to go through the waiting list once more and I honestly don't think I can handle waiting another year to feel complete.
I will do anything within my power to achieve this!
I feel like I am so close, yet so far away. If anyone can be of assistance here I will owe you such a debt, which will never be forgotten. Once I have this done and finally get my life back on track I plan to do whatever it takes to return the favors.
Please find it in your heart to help me make this happen. I don't know how I will last another year without this.
Thanks for listening and have a wonderful day!