Help. So close to my fresh start

If you have been following in obm. You will already know. But. If you haven't been. This is one of the most difficult straining situations I have been in as a mother. I am leaving my ex and moving to start fresh as of July 1st. I am no longer going to put up with the constant negativity or excuses not to be around any of us including our children. All of my money so far has gone into this move and I am still coming up short for groceries a bed for my girls. As ex is insisting I leave the ones they use right now for his place when they visit with him. So I guess that is a plus.
I struggle daily with anxiety and am embarrassed to ask for help. However. I am in a time of need and this has worked for other people I know. So I guess this is my one last ditch effort. 

Thank you.