Leah Deserves To Live

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I'll start by saying I don't like to ask for help, but I've run out of options. My 16 year old daughter, Leah, has been battling depression and anxiety for several years. She's been in and out of treatment facilities since 2014 that have just put bandaids on her deeply rooted issues. Therapy has helped some, but the help she needs is much more intense than what she can get here. After finding her half conscious on her bathroom floor with 87 cuts on her left arm and 96 on her right back in July, we got her accepted into Village Behavioral Health, an incredible 90-120 day intense residential treatment facility in Knoxville, TN . She was finally getting the help she needed, and we finally felt some hope. 30 days into the program, the insurance company decided they weren't going to pay anymore, so after 4 appeals, The Village and her therapists explaining the severity of what could happen if they took her out at that point, and a lot of begging and pleading, Optum Health, the insurance company, said she had to be picked up. It was unfair to her, because she was working so hard. Optum Health looked at her as a number and not a child begging for help to just stay alive. I fought them every way possible, but they just didn't care. Leah has been back home for a month struggling to just make through her days. She goes to school, therapy, meetings, and does treatment work at home, but she's getting worse. With the help of something bigger than us, we have been able to keep her somewhat safe, but things have escalated to the point where no one is safe anymore. I found two suicide notes the other night. My beautiful, smart, talented 16 year old daughter wants to die. With medication locked up, shes resorting to other things to try to use to end her life. She's been going for knives, saying she's done and wants us to just let her die. Tuesday night, she went for a knife and almost stabbed me trying to hurt herself. My husband and I kept her from hurting herself, but we both took a beating in the process. She's safe for now (in a short term acute facility) and we are trying to get insurance to pay to let her finish the program she started up in Knoxville, but the likelihood of them paying for the program is low. It's about the money for them and not the fact she needs the help desperately. I'm not giving up. Something's gotta give. Leah is gentle and kind and lives to help others. She's just at a point where she's not her anymore. She feels hopeless, says she's tired of fighting the pain and has given up. She puts on a smile around others but is broken inside. I need to get her back to Village Behavioral Health in Knoxville, because they were truly helping her. She deserves a chance to get the help she needs. It's not cheap when the insurance company ignores the needs and refuses to pay. We've given every penny we have to get her help, so now I have no other option but to ask for your help. I hate it, but this is for my daughter not for me. We almost lost her before, but we found her in time. I'm scared that we might not get that opportunity again. I don't want to lose my daughter. Please...Help me...
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This update is well overdue. I could have typed it out, but I thought a 1am video would be better (yes I look like it's 1am too). Why YouTube likes to pick my worst crying face for my videos still baffles me, but if you have a few minutes...I wanted to share a final update.
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Please don't stop sharing, praying, donating.... We're so close. We're sooo close. 18 days short. Please help me get her to the end of this program. I want to give her the best chance at success.
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Please share one more time. We are so close.

Leah came home this weekend for a few days and her progress is amazing. After talking with the treatment team, keeping her until the end of April is just not feasible from a financial standpoint, so they are going to take the month of February to hit the most important issues hard and develop a discharge plan for her to step down to, but I have to get her to the end of February, and since we are paid through the 9th, we have 20 days left to pay. If we can get her to the 120 day mark, I really feel we can continue her therapy in an outpatient setting and the odds of her succeeding and not relapsing will increase significantly.

I hated asking for help when I first started this campaign and I still hate it, but because of all of the support, donations and sharing, my daughter is alive and actually healing. She's talking about dual enrollment next year and what college she wants to go to. Because of each and every one of you, she has a second chance at life and she wants to live it. There are no words to describe how Incredibly grateful I am. Thank you and I love you all.

The picture below was a quick shot of Leah walking on the stage with her theatre family last Friday and being completely covered up with love and tears and unwavering support from her friends. What a great group of kids. We couldn't be more lucky.
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Well, the treatment team met and even though Leah is making incredible progress, they still have a lot of work to do. They are estimating her discharge date to be end of April now.

She's paid through the 9th of February but after that it's still 11 more weeks...that's another $31k!! Omg I'm freeeeaking out. You should see her...hear her...she's working so hard and her perspective on herself and her life is really changing for the better. I just can't see, after all she's been through and the work she's put in, her coming out before she's ready.

I'm still amazed at the outpouring of love and support, and the donations have blown my mind. With that said, and I'm not giving up, but another $31k seems so out of reach. I just can't let her down. She's come too far.
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Stacey Sarros
29 months ago
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PLEASE get her to Tony Robbin's event ASAP. He has NEVER lost a person to suicide and will help. Get her up front and ask for help. I wish I could share with you what I saw at his event last week with a seriously suicidal college student. This man is NOW FREE. t was so powerful. And it wasn'tBS. Watch I'm not your Guru on Netflix and see what I am talking about. Go to Australia Date with Destiny. This will bring your little girl back. PROMISE!

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Elei Jean
31 months ago
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Let me say that your daughter looks very lovely and that while I am currently broke I couldn't pass over this without at least saying I'm sorry that she's going through any of this. I had depression when I was sixteen, what saved me was drawing/painting and listening to music. Creativity was and still is in a lot of ways my depression outlet. Expressing it, letting it out helps. Sometimes I still get sad, staying away from milk/dairy has helped me also. I was so depressed that I ended up vomiting every day, shaking in anxiety and lost tons of weight. I wanted to kill myself and the doctors called me an emergency case but I refused help, a lot of people told me 'I need help' but therapists etc like you said treated me like a number. If I could go back and tell myself anything, or anyone suffering from depression, it would be live....live and know that you have the power to make changes and do anything you want, you are here for a reason to become the best and beautiful you could ever be, but you have to want it and you have to fight for it. Keep away from the negative people and focus on your own goals above anything else. You're not a number, you're not broken and you don't need pills. You need confidence, confidence to make the changes needed. I personally, believe in you ♥ :) and wish I could do more to help.

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Mike Cohn
29 months ago

Thank you for the update. Enjoy your time together over Christmas.

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Kareina Breazeale
30 months ago

I pray healing in mighty name of Jesus. God I pray you send this child to an anointed person of God, that can help this young lady get set free. The enemy comes to kill, steal, and destroy. This young lady needs to be in the presence of Jesus. Praying!!

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Jamie Flynn-Leonard
30 months ago

Please help my family get her the help she needs. I know what it feels like to have someone in your family have mental illness. This is very serious. Please donate

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Christina Daigle
31 months ago

I don't know Leah personally but My daughter is one of her teachers. This story is not an Isolated one I'm sure & the Insurance Companies need to understand these young adults need the treatment programs to get through these ordeals & have the quality of Life they deserve....Don't give up! Keep us posted & God Bless Ur Family...

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Daniel Gullo
31 months ago

"I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless and they don’t want anyone else to feel like that." -Robin Williams Praying for you all... ;

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Mike Cohn
31 months ago

Thanks for the update, Jennifer. I'm glad you are able to get Leah started with the treatment she needs. Hopefully we can all keep spreading the word and get her enough donations to continue her treatment for the 90-120 days. Best wishes to you all.

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Makayla Madden
31 months ago

I met Leah through my ex chase. She had so much love and just an amazing soul. She definitely deserves to live. I've been in her position. I am in her position. Sometimes I wake up and don't even get out of bed because I don't have the energy for it anymore. Reading this has touched my heart because I know how hard it is to face the struggle and pain that comes with living in this world. But what if one day you don't have the choice to keep your life or take it. What if you die? You can't go back there's no going back. That's scary. The only thing that gets me out of the bed in the mornings is that fact that tomorrow I may not have the choice to get up

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Maddie Owens
31 months ago

I can't afford to contribute, but reading this really had an impact on me. I hope your daughter gets the help she needs and realizes how beautiful and important she is. Much love to your family in this difficult time.

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Pamela Hudy
31 months ago

Bill and hope you reach your much needed goal for a beautiful young lady. Prayers are with You and your family

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$25
Chris Lebel
23 months ago
CB
$100
Carla Bergmann
26 months ago

Dear Leah, life can be so wonderful. We hope you will find out this as well with the encouragement of so many friends worldwide. This amount for you had been given to us by our good friends Elke and Wenzel as a gift to our 70th / 75th birthdays.

$100
Anonymous
27 months ago
$100
Anonymous
27 months ago
$163
Dietke Fowler
27 months ago

If you ever feel worthless or alone, remember this campaign, and change the feeling. No matter how convincing it feels, it's clearly not based in reality.

CF
$350
Carla 's family and friends
27 months ago
1
1

We hope that you will find a rich and fulfilling life. - from family and friends of the twins Carla and Christa, on the occasion of their 70th birthday.

CB
$3,200
CBC National Bank
27 months ago

Wishing you every success!

$2,800
Anonymous
27 months ago
$100
Cori Dotts
27 months ago
Stacey Sarros
29 months ago
1
1

PLEASE get her to Tony Robbin's event ASAP. He has NEVER lost a person to suicide and will help. Get her up front and ask for help. I wish I could share with you what I saw at his event last week with a seriously suicidal college student. This man is NOW FREE. t was so powerful. And it wasn'tBS. Watch I'm not your Guru on Netflix and see what I am talking about. Go to Australia Date with Destiny. This will bring your little girl back. PROMISE!

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Elei Jean
31 months ago
1
1

Let me say that your daughter looks very lovely and that while I am currently broke I couldn't pass over this without at least saying I'm sorry that she's going through any of this. I had depression when I was sixteen, what saved me was drawing/painting and listening to music. Creativity was and still is in a lot of ways my depression outlet. Expressing it, letting it out helps. Sometimes I still get sad, staying away from milk/dairy has helped me also. I was so depressed that I ended up vomiting every day, shaking in anxiety and lost tons of weight. I wanted to kill myself and the doctors called me an emergency case but I refused help, a lot of people told me 'I need help' but therapists etc like you said treated me like a number. If I could go back and tell myself anything, or anyone suffering from depression, it would be live....live and know that you have the power to make changes and do anything you want, you are here for a reason to become the best and beautiful you could ever be, but you have to want it and you have to fight for it. Keep away from the negative people and focus on your own goals above anything else. You're not a number, you're not broken and you don't need pills. You need confidence, confidence to make the changes needed. I personally, believe in you ♥ :) and wish I could do more to help.

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Mike Cohn
29 months ago

Thank you for the update. Enjoy your time together over Christmas.

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Kareina Breazeale
30 months ago

I pray healing in mighty name of Jesus. God I pray you send this child to an anointed person of God, that can help this young lady get set free. The enemy comes to kill, steal, and destroy. This young lady needs to be in the presence of Jesus. Praying!!

+ Read More
Jamie Flynn-Leonard
30 months ago

Please help my family get her the help she needs. I know what it feels like to have someone in your family have mental illness. This is very serious. Please donate

+ Read More
Christina Daigle
31 months ago

I don't know Leah personally but My daughter is one of her teachers. This story is not an Isolated one I'm sure & the Insurance Companies need to understand these young adults need the treatment programs to get through these ordeals & have the quality of Life they deserve....Don't give up! Keep us posted & God Bless Ur Family...

+ Read More
Daniel Gullo
31 months ago

"I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless and they don’t want anyone else to feel like that." -Robin Williams Praying for you all... ;

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Mike Cohn
31 months ago

Thanks for the update, Jennifer. I'm glad you are able to get Leah started with the treatment she needs. Hopefully we can all keep spreading the word and get her enough donations to continue her treatment for the 90-120 days. Best wishes to you all.

+ Read More
Makayla Madden
31 months ago

I met Leah through my ex chase. She had so much love and just an amazing soul. She definitely deserves to live. I've been in her position. I am in her position. Sometimes I wake up and don't even get out of bed because I don't have the energy for it anymore. Reading this has touched my heart because I know how hard it is to face the struggle and pain that comes with living in this world. But what if one day you don't have the choice to keep your life or take it. What if you die? You can't go back there's no going back. That's scary. The only thing that gets me out of the bed in the mornings is that fact that tomorrow I may not have the choice to get up

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Maddie Owens
31 months ago

I can't afford to contribute, but reading this really had an impact on me. I hope your daughter gets the help she needs and realizes how beautiful and important she is. Much love to your family in this difficult time.

+ Read More
Pamela Hudy
31 months ago

Bill and hope you reach your much needed goal for a beautiful young lady. Prayers are with You and your family

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