Recovery from breastcancer and writing a book

In April 2018 I was diagnozed with invasive lobular breast cancer, it is also inflammatory.  As I belive in mind-body connection, I have refused chemotherapy, surgery and radiation. In the summer of 2013 I was totally exhausted after getting my youngest son on his feet after 12 years of struggle in school and with crime. One and a half years later I couldn't no longer afford my apartment so I became a nomad. For four years I have been moving around, staying with family, friends and acquaintances. Most of the time without money, like a child. And I am healing complex trauma, which I didn't even know I had when I started my journey. I am aware of that I can't heal the cancer if I'm constantly in survival mode. That's why I now ask for help so I can heal and recover from the cancer, money for food and shelter so I can start writing my book as therapy. I think it would be rather selfish of me to let shame and guilt stop me from asking for help and die before I have told my story. I also know that people with cancer are caregivers, and it's nothing wrong with being a caregiver as long as you include yourself in the giving. I have felt so separeted so I didn't know how to do that, I just gave and gave until I was empty and exhausted.  I am very grateful for your donation so I can feel supported while recovering from my advanced breast cancer and write a book about my inner and outer journey. Thank you ❤