Hannah Martin Compassion Initiative

Hey there fellow human!

I am Hannah. I am unshakeably passionate & I genuinely love being alive. Whether it's roofing a house or cooking someone a meal, I live to help, it nourishes my soul.
I love to express my passion for life through every possible facet, be it dancing, singing, painting, cleaning, reading & writing, tutoring, & especially learning. I really care about my community and everyone in it.

Work brings me more joy than I can explain, I worked as a barista for over 3 years & it was the most rewarding portion of my life. Being able to participate with and around people. Be alive and happy.


Well at some point, it turns out, too much work and stress, combined with pouring from an empty cup made my illness severly worse. You see I've always had a weak immune system and have felt extraordinarily tired but always powered though it with my big heart and strong will! In attempt to fund my existence and effort to finally have healthcare, I failed, from being too sick to handle it.

I was using every bit of myself to make it to work to earn money for food and rent and also somehow sleep and also be the best version of myself, just like any hard working young person who doesnt feel good.


I'm a "Heart on my sleeve" kinda gal, ya know?
I was barely holding on at work, my amazing coworkers were the only reason I had not collapsed sooner. I was ignoring my symptoms because they were too expensive and I didnt have time to work or time to heal.
But I tried to keep working because I value earning everything I need, very much, I try honor life with my effort. A job transfer came up where I would get more hours and eventually healthcare. I was over the moon, "finally" I thought, "I can afford to LIVE!!!" I was working the activities center at a snazzy resort and I even got to go outside as well tend to children. What a wonderful chance to be able to take care of myself. This was supposed to be my big break, high hopes I had, barely a week into this new job I became too weak and dizzy to stand.


Turns out I have Systemic Lupus Erythematosus; Sjogrens disease, Multiple Scluerocis, Rheamatoid Arthritis, severe anxiety and Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. All of my organs and connective tissue take constant damage and I am in excrutiating pain every day.
Fatigue has hit me like a tidal wave with a lead heaviness that I battle even in this very moment. My veins and bones ache and burn like rust and acidic fire. My head pounds with a migrane equateable to hell. My kidneys were infected and I was honestly trying so hard to smile and conquer it because my heart holds everything and everyone. 

Because of my health, I have lost all I once was able to give myself. I lost my job, I lost my home. I have been blessed enough to stay with various friends here and
there, but no one can afford to help me stay alive longer than a few weeks. I want to live but I can't keep burdening the lives of these people I love whom have barely more than I!

I don't want to fall through the cracks from being too sick to save myself. I can do so much good, I am just too sick to hold my head up most times, and I can't go outside with ease because UV rays trigger a flareup and the pain renders me useless and suffering.

I dont want to die. But my body is arguing otherwise. I need consistency to improve and heal, a home I won't lose, enough food to eat, and things it takes to keep my diseased body balanced. Without these things, I know it deep in my heart of hearts, that I will die dangerously soon. It it to the point where my spine has made it so I struggle to walk, I have cysyts that surround my vertebrae and lymph nodes.

I used to dance and enjoy the sunshine on my walk to work everyday. Enjoy working for my home and my food and honor it by doing it all again the next day.

I want to heal so badly. But from where I am it seems it's just not realistic or economical. It's too expensive to save myself on my own.

I am dissappointed in myself for needing help, writing all this, asking for money to live, it's not what I want to be doing. I want to be the helping hand. That's who I am.

Please help me stay alive so I can keep helping and growing. I believe I can reach people, who they are, because of my heart. I can help people see good in themselves, and I see light and love and hope.
It is getting more diffcult each day, despite my passionate spirit. I want to recover and be me again. I want to be here.

Please help me stay.

*All money donated goes towards medical treatment, food, and keeping a roof over my head.