From Chicago back home to Knoxville

My name is Dan Quirand. I have lived in Chicago for over five years and 2016 happened to be the hardest year of my life. I have told people my story and they pleaded with me to do this gofundme, so last minute, here I am.

I don'thave a lot of resources for getting home, at least ones which haven't been exhausted or remain viable sources of income.

My 2016 included: living in a studio apartment because the gal I loved and was to live with changed her mind late 2015 and my landlord decided he wanted someone new in my apartment which gave me 1 month to find and pack and move to a new place working 6 days a week that September. The heartache of losing my person and my neighborhood devastated me.

I started to not get tipped out by my co-workers b/c of a union loophole. I was working as a SA. Work switched me to a job with better pay but didn't complete the transfer until 3 months later, in the slow season.

Unemployment has yet to pay me anything despite my 0 to 2 days a week I am getting (HR said I'd be getting 5days a week when I agreed to the change in position.)

I got diagnosed with Anxiety Disorder and Severe Depression on top of my Severe ADHD (90mg daily).
I went off my meds cold turkey from April 2016 until this month. It was due to the anti-depressant making me question who I was and why I had spent my adult life medicated. Without treatment of my dissabilities I got worse off.

My Aunt died suddenly and without good reason because of medication interaction with her normal meds administered bythe hospital she went to with severe pneumonia. I dealt with her siblings, my mother and my uncle, both grief stricken and thefamily drama there. I didn't get to grieve on my behalf for the loss I felt for awhile.

I went without internet for 8 months because I couldn't afford it (went to collections).

I went without glasses for 6 months because I broke them and was too depressed to get new ones when sleeping 16 hours a day seemed easier.

I had a single night to see friends for board games on thursdays but was otherwise alone.

I had a phone stolen on the train and had no phone for a month.

I broke a hand me down phone a friend gave me and went two more months without a phone.

I wasn't making money to pay bills at work and the company who was "helping me" took 3 months to do so. I make even less now b/c of hours.

I fell 3 months behind in rent. I made a deal to pay rent and a half rent until my lease was up. This meant $1108 a month. All my money went to it as did my parents who didn't want me homeless. I stayed because it was cheaper than paying the attorney cost of the rental company and being out in 1 week.

During this year, I unfortunately befriended two homeless men. I felt for them, they too were suffering. One was an unfortunate. He promised to get me back if I could help him. Lost $140.

The other man, who was just a scam artist took me for over $600. I am embarrassed to say this, because I feel stupid, but it happened and it was a series of escalations with a final sum loss.

I cleared out my storage unit. The two bedroom with the gal was now all crammed into my studio. My quality of life, living space ability to communicate with anyone but myself made me isolated, lonely, and a constant worry for my parents.

I gave 1/4 of my furniture to friends. I can't part with the rest. I've never been well off and it took somuch sacrifice to acquire what I own from the nothing I started with five years ago. I have bled for my things.

Lastly, off my meds and drinking when I could, especially to sleep I gained 50 pounds. I was heavy allmylife until 2014 and Iam again in 2016. Nothing fits. It makes me dislike myself so much more.

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I want to go home. Recover. Figure out what I want to do with my life. I'm 32 now and I can't ever go through a year like this again. I want to remember living my life and not just surviving ordeals.

I want somewhere stable where my cognitive conditions can be managed a bit eaiser.

I am 100% stressed all the time.

A friend suggested I make this back in May, but I felt weird about it.

I made this gofundmenow though because everything rests on the edge of a knife. I made it through so much.

Please, help me travel just a bit further.

 

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-What I need:

A little more than $3000 and by the end ofJanuary, an extremely short time frame.

-This gets me:

*15 ft uhaul rental truck of 4 days with accepted mileage (rental $1417.oo+tax+insurance)

*Gas Mileage  which I'm not even sure but I figure will run close to$200 said done

*Payment of JanuaryRent and Court Mandated half rent mid Jan to catch up on my debt to the rental company. ($738 and $370 respectively.)

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So far this is $2,725.

That leaves $275.

$275 supports my eating food, purchasing boxes, paying off ComEd, initial storage concerns for belongings, money for cigarettes which are keeping me sane and some pocket money to begin on while I seek new employment back home. $275 won't cover all these things but it helps.

 

Thank you ver much.

I Love You just for reading this.

Please help me, I can't do this alone.

 

-Dan