When I won my first soccer game at the age of 10...
I wanted to celebrate the win with my friends. Way back then, it was weird for a little boy to have girl friends, and most of my friends were girls. I wanted to go to their sleepover that they were planning and I was shunned because I often sought after girls to be friends; they were the only ones who accepted me at such a young age and all the way to the end of highschool. I was made fun of to even think about going to the sleepover party, it was weird, it wasn't normal, I was a boy. I was supposed to be into playing football and not with dolls.
So I knew I was different but I didn't quite understand what was going on at the time and neither did my mother. Oftentimes, she would find me dressing up in her clothes and playing with her makeup, when I thought I would be home alone. My brothers noticed but they didn't think anything of it, they just thought their brother was gay. Even I thought I was just gay.
But something still wasn't quite right and I had the most difficult time trying to find out what was wrong with me, or if anything was wrong at all...
I would go on dates with boys and live my gay life unauthentically, it didn't feel right with me. Until the age of 24 when I started doing more and more research and found out what it meant to be transgender and then everything felt right. All of my questions and concerns, I was too afraid to mention to anyone, was answered from Youtube and Reddit. I learned about myself, I really fleshed out my authenticity and started living the dream I've always wanted to be a reality.
My name's Arielle, I'm a 27 year old, Black Transwoman. I've been living my life authentically as a woman for 4 years and today I'm fundraising enough funds to go forth with my Body Affirming Surgery. So instead of Facial Feminizing Surgery I want to focus on my body first. There's a term that resonates with my community and it's called Dysphoria. It basically means that I'm still not pleased with who I am today, there's things on my body that still bring me discomfort and emotional turmoil. I want to use the money that I'm fundraising to fix my body to be reconstructed in a more feminine way. I'm very block figured and though I'm very comfortable with my face and voice, I'm very insecure with my body and looking at it, not being the way a woman's is, brings me depression non stop.
Thank you so much for listening to my story. Any and every contribution matters for my journey toward authenticity.
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