The fight continues

For those of you that don’t know me or my story. I have been fighting with everything I have for the last 5 years of my life for my son Sawyer. In 2016 I became pregnant by a man I’d known for about 9 months. I was under the impression that I could not have more kids. My ex husband and I tried for years and never had another one. In 2015 I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes and hypothyroidism. Hypothyroidism causes infertility and miscarriages. So when I became pregnant shocked was the only word I can think of to explain how I felt. I knew instantly that aborting the baby was not something I would ever consider, even though his father made the mention that I should. I was determined to raise the baby myself if I needed to. Around 6 months pregnant the babys father wanted to sign over his rights, however in VA you cannot unless there is a step-parent to take over the financial burden so he could not. He refused to sign the birth certificate in the hospital. Wouldn’t come home with me to help take care of him. He forced me to take a DNA test when I was 9 weeks pregnant by blood test and then another when Sawyer was around 4 weeks old. Both confirmed he was Sawyers father (which I knew the entire time). A little after Sawyer was a month old I started the process of getting a court order in place, as his father wanted to come and go as he pleased and not help with any of the financial aspect of having and raising a child. I spent the next 2 years of my life in and out of court rooms, rolling through numerous judges. Different hearings. Continuations by him. Allegations that I was abusing the boy who thinks I hung the moon. $35,000 later (that I didn’t have), I am the primary caregiver of Sawyer. Since then we have been back and forth to court due to the narcissistic need to be in control and to feel powerful. Now, I have to retain my attorney yet again, because I took Sawyer on a beach trip in August of last year for a weekend with my family. Basically his claims are that I violated the order and that I should be arrested or fined. So here I am again, broke, broken, and fighting for my life and the right to have Sawyer all because Satan needs to be in control. I was summoned today for court in two weeks and will have to at least pay $2500-$5000 to retain my attorney BEFORE then. Please help and if you can’t then please just pray. Pray for peace. For Sawyer and for myself.