So this is going to get personal and long. So Tuesday(Nov.5) I went to Mexico to go get my teeth fixed and see family since it had been 8+ years since I last saw them. It'll most likely be the last time I see them for awhile. The reason for that being is that I get chemo for my endometriosis (still not sure if it's benign or cancerous). I had thought December was going to be my last chemo. It turns out I won't stop it till next year around either June or July then have a laparoscopy surgery to try to remove as much of the endometrial tissue out. Fingers crossed the don't have to end up taking away my ovaries or something. (Kinda want kids in the future) But back to the whole Mexico trip, it had gone well for the first two days and I was able to see the dentist and everything was golden. Then around the afternoon(Nov. 8) I got a seizure. And it would not stop. Now I was in a small town called Cerritos and the closest actual hospital and city is San Luis Potosí which is 3 hours away. So it took them awhile to stabilize me and get me to the hospital. By then apparently they kept coming strong and I was either awake long enough to say a few words or throwing up bile, seizing, or in a drug induced sleep. When I did wake up and they had stabilized me after 5 days, I realized I couldn't feel my legs. Turns out my convulsions were so bad that they kinda shot the nerves in my legs and I have to slowly re learn how to walk even though I still can't feel them. So that was problem number 1, problem number 2 was that I couldn't keep anything down. Not even water. It got the point that I was throwing up black liquid(turns out it was blood from an ulcer that ruptured while I was seizing. I was discharged On Monday(Nov. 13) and couldn't come home cause my body was too weak from not eating and having no strength. We had to wait until I was able to move around enough so that I could leave by plane. Which cost a lot of money since we had to get the it very next day. I was able to come home on Thursday(Nov. 16). That's why I'm asking for some help because all of this happened so fast and it just doesn't seem to stop. Then on Monday(Nov. 20) I had to go to the ER from extreme pain in my bladder. Turns out it was a UTI from the 5 days what I was knocked out and didn't go to the bathroom. So now I'm also waiting for that bill. Now I can only mainly get around in my wheelchair or walker and it's difficult to do anything really. Just changing my clothes is a hassle and because I can't feel my legs I couldn't feel it when I twisted it when I was walking to the bathroom while leaning on the wall and falling from the stairs. I hate having to ask because I know there are people who are worse off than me and I know that I'll at least eventually with my physical training and seizure meds I'll be able to get somewhat better. The whole endo and chemo thing is still up in the air and won't know anything until next year. (Fingers closed all my hair doesn't fall out, so far my hair like has receded and on my right side I have a small bald spot.) I know I should be vain about it and if it all falls out it will but at this point my main stressor is all the bills. I can take the chemo, I can take all the meds I've been given, I can take being put in man made menopause(cause of the chemo), I can take the heat flashes, my teeth and bones becoming weak and constantly being fatigued and in a wheelchair. But when the bills come it makes it really hard to keep hope because I know I'll end up in the hospital again. I always do. It's been a joke between all my doctors that I should just get a room at the hospital since I'm the last 2 years I've gone 37 times to the ER and 31 out of those times I've been hospitalized for either a week or two. Now I don't complain about it because you get used to it or I'll joke about it because how the hell else do you take it. I've withdrawn from a lot of people because most see me with pity or I feel like waking me out of the house is such a hassle and burden. Especially since my seizures have come back stronger, longer, and more frequently. But yes my goal is 4000(and I know that's a LOT of money) but it's to pay off my hospital stay in Mexico. I'll figure out to pay the rest of the others to come some how. This is very hard for me to do and put out in the open because I don't want people to either pity me or see me as someone weak but I just can't with the stress of all these bills. I'm just blessed enough that I was able to move in with my mom since I can't live on my own medically. I can't drive, go to school, or work. So I'm stuck in basically my house or room in a box and I'm not gonna lie this shot is depressing but I've been opening up slowly to a few old friends and I'm trying to pick myself up but yeah that's pretty much why I'm asking help. Even if you can donate if you can share it and spread the word it would be great. I wanna try and pay this off by the end of November or beginning of December so the rates don't go up. Anyway thank you for your time if you've read this far and thank you to my family for being so supportive in such a difficult time in my life. I'm sure through god everything will work out but a little help from others couldn't hurt. Again thank you and god bless.