Pedophilia, child abuse, abuse, sexual assault, rape, self harm.
When i was 12, i harmed myself with the back of a dangly earring for the entirety of february. I had just figured out what bisexuality was, and i internalized it. My 0-3 year old self, feeling like i was cheating on my father. when i was 16, instead of being taken to paris, getting a car, or having a diamond set gifted to me, i was denied my ability to get a license, and instantly gifted $400 and an edible arrangement.
My name is Cassandra Harm. My mother is Guyanese and my father is from Nebraska. I am a full time student at UNC Chapel Hill. I am from Fayetteville, NC. All of my abusers throughout ALL of my Nearly Twenty years still live within a 150 mile radius. My first abuser, a pedophile, DNA betrayer, a cop, currently working at the Spring Lake PD, with my last name. My current one, Rock Rahman Mateen works alongside me at Ben and Jerry’s. After sharing my story with Garrison Brooks, i instantly received a text rom “Rock”. This forced me to go public on twitter, he began to attempt to poke holes in my story, although I was conscious and completely awake during the assault. Another one works at the moes next door, his name is Andrew. My general manager has not assured my complaints, as i have vocally and digitally stated “i do not want him around kids, and i do not want him at my job.” Instead I have been told that I have to come in to work/moes for a meeting.
I have a little sister, born 6/8/2005, i have no way to get to my sister on my own time, and i am attempting to emancipate: it is solely her decision to live with me. I am not in the financial position to become unemployed. I have been working since the age of 16 to escape my past home life: working at Cracker Barrel, Four Corners, IHOP, and Ben & Jerry’s. I met @unfollowcarter at 16 too. he was born 8/18/1997. I was born 8/8/2000. He and my father are the only two men to have ever groomed me. He and I had constant talks about our age gap, where we both agreed it wouldn’t be that bad because i turned 18 that august, when he would turn 21. when we moved the relationship from platonic to sexual it ended before the age of 18, only ever speaking to me, once, in 2019, although previously we had been great “friends.”
Pictured here is him and I together when I was 17:
I have a lease, I am a full time student, and there is a pandemic outside, besides that one of my abusers is directly connected to my source of income at the franchise leadership level, so any help would be greatly appreciated whether you donate or share. <3