Stay In our house

The basic background... I'm a single father with mutiple sclerosis ..I found out I had ms by going blind and my entire side being paralyzed...after many prayers I was able to see again after a month, despite  doctors telling me there was a good chance I wouldnt. ...

 . I have never had much money ,but in 2017 when I found out I would become a father i was determined to find a better way ...I did alot of research on how to get a house, Inorder to give my daughter a stable life....also the appartment we lived in was not in a good part of town .. so I eventually found out about a one time  idha loan .  I was approved after much hard work ..I was able to get a 600sqft house wit a unfunctioning and gutted out upstairs but no stairs in the house ..a real fixer upper ...but it was ours and in a great neighborhood ... the first december in the house...my partner who I counted on decided it wasn't working and went a seprate way
... as someone with multiple sclerosis I wouldn't have gotten a house for me alone to take care of as I'm limited and unfortunatly I can not count on myself .

  That first christmas was the most depressing ... I had a car wth no heat. .. no money for gifts for my daughter and very little food in our home ...  as i was unprepared to take on all the payments alone ... but at least I still had my warehouse job  and the church down our st had a food pantry and was so kind to give me a gift I could give my daughter ... I cried the day that happened . 

The following december things seemed to finally be stablizing as I was approved for link , a friend helpedme get a car with heat .i had a solid work schedule of weekends  and would have my daughter all week .....my job of 6 years however decided they would spontaneously close and I wasa abruptly out of a job ....  in december two weeks before Christmas... needless to say not many gifts this year... but we had heat and eachother. 

I was able to acquire another job working weekends and was able to keep up on my mortguage payments .... however this job was soo intense and I was having health issues do to it...
  I hung in as long as I can which lead to this year wen covid was first announced in the USA....after the first shut down (I worked through)

I was able to find a much better job still keeping my weekends and even making a little more ... however this year all sorts of health issues ,car problems and medication expenses wiped out my savings ... I went into a forbearance on my home loan to catch up and save a little for my daughter incase anythifhappened .
I was laid off the following month ... and there went my savings .

We decided I would home school our blessing of a daughter because we could not risk covid as I have a auto immune disease and we would never want anything bad  to happen to our daughter ....

Now I'm months behind on mortguage ...terrified of getting the mail and wondering if I'll be able to keep the lights on .

Ihave been searching for weekend work ...doing odd jobs and my best.
but it's not good enough....
daily I struggle to battle multiple sclerosis every days hard even to get up in the morning .
I'm so anxious ...defeated , ashamed , embarrassed and sadened . my job has shown no sign of reopening... I have no savings  ...if I lose this house il never be able to get another... my credit has dropped ....currently and am actively seeking weekend work ... 
 
I'm reluctant to post or ask for this ... I'm beyond ashamed .

 I have no other ideas and have exhausted all other thoughts ....as someone with this disease my future is always so uncertain... I dont want my daughters future to be.