You won’t remember the way I stood up in pain that morning holding onto my bed sheets. My body and mind knew I was going to bring you into the world soon, and I remember stopping for a moment and telling you, we can do this.
You won’t remember the way you looked at me right after you were born, or the way the nurse and doctor placed you on top of me as I whispered to you hi Jacob into your ear.
You won’t remember the way you healed my broken spirit. The way you completed my heart. I was weak before I had you, and you made me whole again. You won’t remember those three days I had with you and I wouldn’t forget those three days with you. If I would’ve known your father was going to keep me away from you, I wish I could’ve gone back in time and change a few things that has happened.
My dear sweet baby boy,
You are such a blessing to my life and I love you unconditionally. The day I found out I was having another boy I was so excited. I knew from before whenever I became a mother, I would have a son. As it turned out, I was right, I had your brother; and I already had his name picked out and yours as well. Carrying you those nine months was worth each pain, each tear, each effort, each muscle, and each drop of blood in my body. You are not just only my son - your also my best friend and most of all my anchor. I told your brother the exact same words when he was born. Even though you aren’t here with me physically, I am with you. If I had the chance to make a promise to you before knowing all of this was going to happen, - I will never give up on you. That still stands and will stand tall forever with me.
Both you and your brother come before everything in this world.
So, I want you to know that you have a mother who loves you unconditionally and is willing to play both roles and to pull it off beautifully as I’m currently doing it for your brother.
You have a mother whose willing to try and push herself to the limit to get whatever it is that you may need. You have a mother who worked while carrying you until about eight months pregnant.
Jacob Kai Mesa, my precious baby boy just know that I’m here and I will always be here for you till the very end. You also have your brother here and your nana as well, you have family here that loves you. It’s not much of us but with the three of us here just know that you will be loved and very well taken care of. Love your mother.
I need the money because I’m a single mother of two, a toddler and a newborn. However, I currently don’t have my newborn with me because his father won’t let me pick him up whenever I want to have him with me and my family, which is my mother, my son and myself.
Also at the moment I’m currently not working because I just had a newborn and my sons daycare is closed down due to COVID-19 . I’ve tried to look into free daycare programs but he’s too young for them. I also don’t want to stay home too long either. So if I had the money to put him into another daycare I would enroll him as soon as possible so I could return to work. I’ve been out of work since Covid-19 began. Then I returned back in August, then they started to cut my hours and I was back home again due to slow business. Then my newborn came into the world a few weeks early. However, since I wasn’t expecting my son to arrive early I gave Jacobs father my first sons things that I’ve saved for him, so I don’t have anything here for him at my moms place.
Not only from mothers but from anyone whose a parent, whose been in this position before or anyone in general who wouldn’t want to be in this position. It’s a situation I wouldn’t want anyone to ever experience because it’s very painful especially as a mother. I love my children unconditionally and I would do anything to have both of my boys together, because my newborn hasn’t come to where I live till this day. So if anyone is willing to help me I’d really appreciate it. Thank you for your time.
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