Dreams come true

It is with a heavy heart and a great sadness that I have decided to create this account and  put my story out there.  I am a small town girl from Orting wa. A place where in my day everyone knew everyone, doors were left unlocked, and the only store was the Orting food center. After high school  life went on, as it does the 20's were gone, the 30's flew by and then 40 hit. I  was engaged, in love, planning a purple wedding of my dreams. I lost my mother some years back to a very sad situation, which I really thought, was the worst thing in life, or at least it felt like it. Loving my now husband, troy was the easiest, heart warming thing to ever happen to me. I kissed many toads in my life to get a prince!!, and a Southern one at that Yes my friends he is a tall drink of water at that. With much thanks to God, I knew it was time to have my baby.. I dreamed for so long of having a curly haired, blue eyed baby. Many of you from my town know I babysat everyones kids. Some of you are grown with your own babies, that still come see me. I was a part of many families the glasers, the crows, the zelepuzas, all of the Sumpter children, I loved it. Last year about this time we decided to go for it, baby time..  unfortunatley the dream was shattered quickly. A routine gyno visit turned into a nightmare.  Two days after the visit a phone call asking us to just come to the office, to speak with the doctor on her lunch break?  I thought wow we just met her and she's inviting us to lunch?, it must be bad... It was worse than bad the words You have cancer. It sounded like charlie browns teacher... She said it's bad. I don't know the extent, but it's bad.  My heart shattered in a million pieces, all I could think was, "I won't be a mom".  Kill me now, no birthdays, no little leauge, no tball, cheerleading, proms, pigtails, no shoe tying lessons nothing.. Cancer seemed like nothing compared to that. I had a emergency appointment with Dr.Saffari, my now cancer doctor and the prognosis was grim, stage 4 cervical  cancer with metastis to uterus, abdomin, pelvis and lungs. I asked God why? Why me. I still talk to him everyday about it. My team created a plan for me. I did sisplatin chemo, envastin and now I am on a last ditch effort with a new chemo I started last Wed just to buy time with my husband and the people I love. Unfortunatly for me my body has not took to any chemo or radiation and I am very sick most of the time. I spent last night in the hospital, the first round of this chemo is really aggresive. With that being said my life expectency according to medical professionals is 6months or so. I am not sure if I will  keep on the chemo or give my body a break. I created this account because i have a few unpaid expenses and I want to go to Florida with my husband more than anything. We just can't afford it , and he does his best to provide for us. Trips are a luxury and I am thankful however this turns out.  I know the trip will be expensive, i will need some special accomadations, but i would give anything to go to Destin and see white sand and blue water and kiss my husband on the beach. That's my dream. Well also that they find a cure for cancer and I live until at least our first wedding anniversary August 27th...