Support Amber's Fight

My wife truly is the strongest woman I know. That’s not BullShit and it’s surely not for dramatic appeal.. it’s the truth. She’s as tough as they come! Anyone that knows her knows that. She is no nonsense, grab the bull by the horns, speak her mind, opinionated, won’t back down - tough. I’ve always loved that about her (she thinks I can’t stand it but I really do think it’s cute). She doesn’t get scared very often. Pissed maybe, but not scared.. not my wife, or at least not that she shows.  That all changed the other day right before my eyes. I saw a fear in her eyes that scared me to death. I hadn’t seen that look in her eyes since we lost our son and It sent chills down my spine. I swear for a couple minutes it seemed like everything was in slow motion and I could almost feel the ground shake. It felt like my heart shattered into a million pieces.. and all I could muster out was “it will be alright babe”. I couldn’t tell who was squeezing who’s hand tighter. I purposely didn’t look at her. I knew if I looked at her, I would start to cry and I couldn’t do that to her.. I didn’t think it was fair. I needed to be strong for her, so I just stared at the doctor and pretended like I was paying attention to anything she said after the news. What snapped me out of it was the doctor asking my wife if she was ok and if she needed a minute. That’s when I looked over at her and saw the tears rolling down her face. I was ashamed of myself. I didn’t dare think about letting go of her hand, I don’t think I could have if I tried.. so I just wrapped my other arm around her and hugged her with everything I had. “I love you babe.. everything will be alright. We’ll get through this together.”

We got some bad news recently and Am is in for a pretty big battle ahead. Step one – they need to go in and get it. That is what will determine step two. We are going over potential treatments and strategies beyond that. We honestly don'y know whats ahead..

Anyone that has had any experience with medical issues of this magnitude will attest that this is a ridiculously expensive journey. Lord knows we have spent a small fortune just getting us to this point and little did we know, it hasn’t even started yet.. that scares the shit out of me.  I don’t want her worrying about this. She’ll have enough on her plate and I want her focusing on what she needs to in order to get through this like the champ she is. There isn’t a doubt in my mind that she is going to kick this thing’s ass so bad, it will never come back. (I know my wife very well and have seen her pissed off plenty of times)

We both have decent insurance, so I assumed that’s all we would need. Unfortunately, that couldn’t be farther from the truth. If you are in a position to donate to Am's cause, to say it would be appreciated is probably the biggest understatement that will ever come out of my mouth. It’s one of those things that I will never be able to say thank you enough for.  How do you thank someone for helping keep a roof over your head or electricity flowing into your home while every bit of your energy and focus is directed at this fight? Truthfully, I don’t know.. but believe me I will try and find a way. I’m asking for help.. any kind of help I can get or that you can spare. I don’t care how it looks.. I don’t care what people say, I look at this as a medium I can utilize to help her get through this and right now, that is all that matters to me.. getting her through this.

We need all the help and support we can get as this journey continues. Although monetary donations are greatly appreciated, if that isn’t something you're in a position to do.. please take a couple minutes out of your day to say a prayer for her. Maybe keep her in your thoughts throughout the day or maybe just send her some positive vibes. Any and ALL support in ALL FORMS is greatly appreciated from the bottom of both our hearts! I know we have some pretty amazing family and friends and we are both super thankful for each and every one of you. With all of your help and support, we’ll get her through this!

I Love you Babe and I got your back.. Now KICK THE SHIT OUT OF THIS!!!!!!!

#FUCKCANCER