Steve's personal trip to recovery

Hello.  My name is Steve Beverley.  I am going through the roughest time in my life I have ever been through.  I am a severe bi-polar manic deppressive.  Not the kind where "everyone is a bi-polar" or "there are a lot of people that have that".  No, this is the real deal.  Days and days of depression, the kind where you can not get up off of the floor because you feel like you have cement blocks on your hands and feet and chest.  The kind where you have to fight suicidal thoughts min. by min.  The mania is pretty bad too where I may have "reactive phsycosis" even when medicated.  
Now a little over 60 days ago my wife of 22 years litterally threw me out of my home and caused me to be on the streets of west Phoenix Az.  Literally!  Now it is getting very very hot and I have to walk everywhere.   I love my wife and two beautiful children and did not want this whatsoever.  She told me that she wanted me out and she was going to get me out any way she could.  I have never ever raised a hand toward her or my children in 22 years of marriage and I believe I was a good husband and father.  She then put on me a FALSE order of protection and deceived the courts.  I fought the court order back and immediately won.  I did not even have to say a word to the judge and he "threw it out" and lectured my wife for 20 mins.  I have literally lost everything I have in my life and at the present I am living out of a motel day to day and only am able to do so because my brother from Illinois is taking care of the motel stay.  That is a miracle.  I love God with all my heart.   I have no car.  I can not work because I am in the process of fighting for disability insurance from an attorney that does not take pay unless she wins the case.  This has been ongoing for 3 years.  I am literally at the "end of the line" and need immediate financial help as to get medical treatment for mental and physical.  I would also like to get a permanant place and maybe a down payment on a car.   I would also like to pay my brother back.  I think I am going to win the disability as I have went for the final medical evaluation and flunked nearly every test of mental rediness that the government gave me.  I am SMI which means I have been deemed seriously mentally ill by the state of Arizona.  All it means is that I have a case manager and access to free cabs when doing my daily needs.  I am 49 years of age and if I was not in this situation I would never ever ask people for help.  I want to be a good man and live a productive life.  I want to be a good father to my two beautiful teenage children.  Please please help me get back on my feet if at all possible for I am near and basically homeless.  I also have a horrible tooth ache infection that may or may not need a root canal.  There is more needs but that is about all I can think of right now.   Thank you for listening.   Steve