Standing up to Abuse !

This is the most embarrassing thing I’ve ever had to do . Most will talk about me , maybe even laugh and say you should of left when we told you to.
I jumped into a marriage rather quickly and it soon became a nightmare . Early Wednesday morning I woke up to be dragged off the bed with my kids in the room and beaten up pretty badly . It’s happened before , but I’ve beem so ashamed of my life past choices I almost thought I deserved it .
My lawyer wants 4500 as a retainer to ensure the temporary restraining becomes final and to fight for what’s mine . Any little bit will help, I have no immediate family , they are all passed away . I will not drop these charges even though I’ve been harassed to do so , I’m going to stand up to him and show my kids this is not ok and mommy is strong.
Thanks so much if you have taken the time to read this .