Silas's Top Surgery
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TLDR; I’m a nb trans person in Mississippi raising money for top surgery!
Hello! My name is Silas. I’m a 24 year old non-binary trans person living in the Mississippi Delta. I've known I was trans since I was 15 and I’ve been binding my chest even longer. Gender dysphoria is a recognized medical condition that requires treatment. I began my treatment four years ago when I started injecting testosterone. Now, to complete my transition, I'm trying to raise enough money to finally get a full mastectomy. I suffer emotionally and physically from not having the chest I feel I should have. With this surgery I can live comfortably and authentically.
Even before I knew I was trans I had already been binding my chest and knew for a couple of years that I wanted surgery. Soon after my chest started growing I was wearing two high impact sports bras at the same time to flatten it. I would spend hours looking in the mirror at my chest and crying. I didn’t know why I felt so bad about them.
Eventually I started binding with a real binder. I don’t know what you know about binding, but there’s no actual completely safe way to do it. It’s never not going to be uncomfortable. Long term use of a binder is eventually going to start permanently changing and damaging your body. I’ve been binding almost ten years. My ribs are flared, my back hurts, and when I get home now from even a couple of hours of binding I am in pain and exhausted. Binding doesn’t even help me feel that much better about myself anymore. I can’t ever get completely flat. It digs and cuts into my skin. I’m constantly having to adjust myself and I’m preoccupied with how I look in it the whole time. I ache and still don’t even like how I look. It's almost not worth it, I'd just rather not leave the house.
I’ve been sure about needing this surgery since I was at least 15. I feel this burden constantly. I need to have a flat chest to live life to the fullest. I don’t want to hurt anymore. I want to finally be comfortable. I want to like how I look. I just want to be happy.
I don’t have a job with a regular, consistent schedule though. I have some saved but I need money for the surgery, the consultations, gas money, supplies for my recovery, and money for a hotel room for the first couple of days before I can travel back home.
I also have an etsy shop where I sell my art! That will also go into my savings for surgery, It’s www.etsy.com/shop/silasjulian
Thank you for reading and for your kindness!
Hello! My name is Silas. I’m a 24 year old non-binary trans person living in the Mississippi Delta. I've known I was trans since I was 15 and I’ve been binding my chest even longer. Gender dysphoria is a recognized medical condition that requires treatment. I began my treatment four years ago when I started injecting testosterone. Now, to complete my transition, I'm trying to raise enough money to finally get a full mastectomy. I suffer emotionally and physically from not having the chest I feel I should have. With this surgery I can live comfortably and authentically.
Even before I knew I was trans I had already been binding my chest and knew for a couple of years that I wanted surgery. Soon after my chest started growing I was wearing two high impact sports bras at the same time to flatten it. I would spend hours looking in the mirror at my chest and crying. I didn’t know why I felt so bad about them.
Eventually I started binding with a real binder. I don’t know what you know about binding, but there’s no actual completely safe way to do it. It’s never not going to be uncomfortable. Long term use of a binder is eventually going to start permanently changing and damaging your body. I’ve been binding almost ten years. My ribs are flared, my back hurts, and when I get home now from even a couple of hours of binding I am in pain and exhausted. Binding doesn’t even help me feel that much better about myself anymore. I can’t ever get completely flat. It digs and cuts into my skin. I’m constantly having to adjust myself and I’m preoccupied with how I look in it the whole time. I ache and still don’t even like how I look. It's almost not worth it, I'd just rather not leave the house.
I’ve been sure about needing this surgery since I was at least 15. I feel this burden constantly. I need to have a flat chest to live life to the fullest. I don’t want to hurt anymore. I want to finally be comfortable. I want to like how I look. I just want to be happy.
I don’t have a job with a regular, consistent schedule though. I have some saved but I need money for the surgery, the consultations, gas money, supplies for my recovery, and money for a hotel room for the first couple of days before I can travel back home.
I also have an etsy shop where I sell my art! That will also go into my savings for surgery, It’s www.etsy.com/shop/silasjulian
Thank you for reading and for your kindness!
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Silas Julian
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Cleveland, MS
