Hi! I am so happy to have this opportunity to share my story! Not only is this my story but I am sure it is the story of many others who are suffering and feel lost and alone and abandoned as I have through the years. As all good stories go there should be a beginning and an end, but this is not so with my story. My story seems to be one big chaotic non-linear mess that may have indeed started before I was even born. 

 

My story begins with the genetic stew that was brewing as I was gestating in my mother's womb. If I were to go back to that time and feel into my emotions I would say that I was indeed terrified to be born. If I had any idea of the suffering that I would incur in this lifetime I may have chosen a different path. Needless to say, that tiny little soul was so brave and courageous and decided to be embodied in this lifetime despite the struggles she would endure.

 

I am a 47 year old mother, sister, daughter, friend, nurse, nurse practitioner, and fighter. I have a joyous sparkly soul that wants to dance and play and chase fireflies and light up the world! Currently, I am battling multiple chronic complex health issues that have knocked me on my bum!! These are the same issues I have been battling for a lifetime but recently have reared their ugly head to make it impossible for me to function normally and have led to me taking a medical leave from work.

 

I have always been sick and most likely had undiagnosed celiac disease as a child. Those who know me know that I have too many poop stories to count!! I will spare you the details! I then had a severe case of mononucleosis in middle school which worsened my situation and set me up for a lifetime of struggles.

 

Since this time I have been seen by every specialist known to mankind including 9 different neurologists and diagnosed with over 25 diagnoses. However, finally after 47 years I was able to be seen by a Dr. Brent Goodman, a neurologist at the Mayo Clinic in Scottsdale, Arizona and a clearer clinical picture has come into view. I will not go into it but those that have chronic disease will know the battles one must endure to get a proper diagnosis and proper treatment in this day and age of conventional medicine. All I can say is that I am truly thankful to have had all the help I received along the way but sure do wish it was sooner!! 

 

Soooooo.....it appears that I have Sjogren's as well as celiac disease which is actually triggered by the EBV virus. I have chronic reactivated EBV which is wreaking havoc on my immune system. My immune system is both overactive and underactive at the same time causing quite the immunologic dilemma! With this being said the EBV is running rampant and my immune system is attacking my central nervous system, my peripheral nervous system and my autonomic nervous system rendering me into a state that I would best describe as a musty old floppy dish rag. 

 

It is hard not to feel like a dishrag when you have profound exhaustion, debilitating headaches, and a dysfunctional autonomic nervous system not to mention the extreme pain that comes with all your nerves being attacked. However, I think the worst part is the brain inflammation as that is life altering and scary as hell. I can handle pain and fatigue as I have done so for a lifetime but when your body starts attacking your brain that is an entirely different story. Some days I can think and some days I cannot. Today is a good day as I am writing this but I am thankful to the love of my life--&gt;steroids!!

 

Prior to my dish rag status I was functioning and fighting to survive as a single mother to two lovely children and two adorable golden retrievers and struggling to work as an Integrative Gastroenterology Family Nurse Practitioner. Currently, I have been off work for three weeks without pay and fighting to get short term disability. I hate to say it but I am without any money and have a slew of medical bills piling up and a larger than life medical battle full of bills ahead of me if I want to get better. 

 

I never thought I would need help. I have always been fiercely independent and rarely asked for help. I have worked hard my entire life taking care of everyone else but myself. As a woman, a mother, a daughter, a neonatal intensive care nurse, and a nurse practitioner I always put those whom I was caring for before myself. I am only now coming to the realization that that was to the detriment of my own health. I would not change that for the world as I know that my love and care was well received by those whom I cared for, but now it is time for me to ask for help and to allow myself to receive the abundance that the universe has to offer.

 

I am asking for any help that you are able to give. Prayers, love, positive energy, food, financial donations, etc. Anything that you feel will help me to fight this battle that I have ahead of me so that I can truly heal. 

 

Thank you for taking the time to read my story and thank you in advance for any help that you have to offer. Life is truly magical and I trust that I will be taken care of. I thank you for your part in contributing to the magic that can be created in this world when love and positive energy are generated by our collective hearts and souls. Thank you thank you thank you!!!!

 

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Holly

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